Friday, December 31, 2010

new year 2011

Dear Diary,

friday, saturday, sunday and monday- 4 days off. i wish i can go home not in KL but in kelantan. almost 4 months i've been here in melaka, and caused me separuh lemas rindu rumah. just browse plane ticket for airasia and MAS, since last minutes the prices were so much higher. even they are affordable (puasa 2 minggu hehe) but i don't think is a good choice. so, i made up my mind, pujuk diri utk just stay back in Melaka n study on the coding since i need to master those subject! but then, this February ni mmg i nk balik. keja byk ke sikit, who cares? heheh

again, time flew fast as tomorrow i m gonna be 24 (unofficially lah kan). talking about age, by 24 i start to think that i can be called as young lady. even not married yet! i love no. 4 and when it comes to combination of 2 and 4=24....i feel so "heigh ho miss atikah!~" i dont believe how much i've grown up especially when i am walking together with other engineers in yellow suit for a meeting. i felt so alive. thanks Allah.
talking about new year, let me note down some of my wish (azam tahun baru wheee)
  1. all my projects will be succeed. sesusah mane pon, i still wish that i can fulfill it till end. InsyaAllah
  2. i can be a good muslimah, consistent with my good deeds even i dont have much time to perform yg sunat2 tu. i m still hoping that i can do it. esp puasa every isnin n khamis!insyaAllah
  3. i can be a solehah daughter to my parents. will alwys call them even time tu tgh peak ngn kerja n projects. i wish i can as i alwys wish!
  4. i may complete my chartered journey as TP or custodian (ni utk jangka masa pnjng-10 years from this moments. but still need first step from beginning.
  5. last but not least, i may find my true love...that's a wish and only wish which i dont know how it ends......?

i end with a pict, something precious that i kept in the best place..in my own world. btw, jgn salah sangka, other gifts ( yg korang bagi mse convo tu i kept in some other place, at ofis, atas katil..etc) hehe.. and now, Happy New Year 2011 peeps! May Allah bless.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

fish

Dear diary,
whenever i felt so depressed with my work, here i come. throwing out every single thing that i can. i know, doing programming is not as easy as how i looked trough book. yea, yea...people kept questioning me, how i am going to finish these..*sigh*
somehow, i take this as a big challenge. for me, myself n my future. just like a simple code If Else, if i manage to do this coding my future will be bright Else i may loose such a great oppurtunity to customize my legacy. Or i can use array function here when everything goes in loops. up and down for thousand of iterations. i always put the best and highest trust in everything i do. even people say i cant do it, i kept telling myself that i can do it, succeed in any path i may undergo.
btw, i bought an aquarium today. it is not un-schduled budget kay since i already put this as "something to be done in future". There is small cottage inside which i think looks so cute heee, and 4 little guppies (Leo, Simba, Kurt and xde nama lg sekor). i wish i can upload it here but a bit lazy to transfer from my phone. huh~

Monday, December 27, 2010

Wedding May



sometimes i still can't believe that she already married. time flew fast, like yesterday we are talking about the word "marriage" and all sort of thing about it. well, girl's talk. shhhh~

owh, feel want to get married too!hee, mcm men masak2 je bl ckp camtu. for me marriage is more on responsible while putting aside lust and sexual matters. they are just apart from it. aish, thinking about marriage is too complicated. better kumpul duit tunggu anak raja masuk minang :P hehehe.kidding.

btw, i m so happy for her, Darling May. so happy and so happy..ting tong! May Allah bless ur life day after. even u already married, u still my darling May..and u look so beautiful in purple.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

money

Dear Diary,


Today, i start to know..how to appreciate the word of MONEY. long time ago, when i was a kid, i dont even understand the meaning of word, "susahnye nk nk cari duit ni". cause, anything comes from mak and ayah. every morning mak will left me with coins (70 sen),if fardhu ain (tambah lagi 20 sen). well, my parents never teach me to spend so mewah2. mak will provide me with nasi bekal. if ade bekal nasi duit belanja jd 50sen shj. nothing more, nothing less. yet, i dont feel any hardship with money. mak and ayah never fail to satisfy me.

but now, when i was being employed... already have my own slip gaji, already have to think wisely on how to spend money antara kehendak and keperluan, those made me sick! previously, RM 500 is more than enough. maybe at that time, takde sewa rumah, duit minyak pon xbyk, maintenance keta pon setakat low level je. then everything seems ENOUGH! but now, with current income, feel like air mengalir masuk sungai. laju jeee. takde sekat2. hehehe


then i start to realise. makin banyak duit masuk, makin banyak duit keluar. agak2 account bank balance la mcm ni kot heee. makin tinggi taraf hidup, makin lah tinggi maintenancenye. all in all, nk cari duit is not easy. and i felt so grateful to be in Melaka. at least dont have to think about daily working suit (baju kurung ke ape) coz what i do have only that yellow suit! m(-___-)m

Friday, December 24, 2010

projects

Dear Diary,

Today, i m acting like a mother, so busy with her two sons. satu tgh dukung, satu dlm troli. hehe. well, that's how life will be. org laen pg MidValley, enjoy dgn kawan2 window shopping suka ati. but me? hurm, i m happy with my life. pedulikan org ape nk kater. only Allah knows yeahh!

wut can i say, life is miserable. i got a new project which is more on programming. wosh, i not an IT engineer to do all sort of coding in fact i dont even know how coding works! heee, but then...dear friends, this is the place that turn atikah saari into "somebody". somebody that learn to know everything. from IT engineer, analysist, leader, follower until a happy go lucky young lady. i just bought a programming book which cost me RM 159. erk, tercekik rase. luckily, i can use that receipt to cut down my income tax later. so, right after this i m gonna spend my nite with this book and make sure the coding works. may Allah bless!

2 outstanding projects are 50-50 done. total projects = 3 (analyzer and developer for RCFA methods, technical work on visual management and programming for database and user interface). these are the projects that kills my joy and freedom. tu tak include day to day basis job yg mmg technical. ting tong sungguh la lately. apepon, sy sudah jatuh CINTA!~

Saturday, December 18, 2010

i'm back uols~

Assalamualaikum
Yes, i made it. br re-open my blog for public. tp, this time sorry i will not allow for any comments. just for u to read, just for me to keep on writing and just for me to rewind all these journals some other days. i just decorate my room, with purple theme. with dried roses and teddies, doing some art at the wall as well as handy-made frame for my convocation. make sure my room smell good. air freshner must be available. and for that i'm choosing peach+honey. btw, i wish to put some picts here somehow, i left the charger in office m(-___-)m SORRY
next week, insyaAllah i'm going to IKEA. hehe, looking for some stuffs (lampu tido and carpet yg soft n bulu2 tu) hee, but i cant promise sticking to those stuff jek. sekali angkut mcm2 wat balik melaka. budget2...nsb bek x pakai kad kredit lg. i should avoid using that 'merbahaya card" hehe. but then again mende tu necessary during outstation. *sigh*
life...they are so different now. dlu buzy dgn study and academic's matters. sampai lupe dunia luar. currently buzy dgn kerja yg bertimbun2 xpnh abis. pegi pagi balik malam, esok ulang mnde yang sama. weekend dtg, sambung keja kat umah. sometimes spending time at ofis. harunye hidup. but act, i m giving myself two years utk jd dewasa, utk focus pd kerjaya n to be a young lady. and within that time, i wish i can find my truly atikah saari. i need to stop sbb nk smbung kerja ofis. have reports to be submitted. see, my weekend pon spend utk keja. alahai tikah sayang heee

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Summarize of 2010

after berkurun lamanye sy menghilangkan diri..for a very P.R.I.V.A.T.E reasonsss, now i m back. talking about life, currently so many changes. n alhamdulillah i can adapt it well. well done tikah, you're doing good in your job! heeee m(-___-)m

i love to repeat and reuse ayat ni
"people come and go...leaving footprint atas hati" ok, i starting to be jiwang balik...auuw, nope. i wish i can stop being this way again2 and again. traffic light merah! btw, i dont want to talk about the past, just summarize 2010 in a very precise way (",)


January
starting my final semester at UTP. FYP make me crazy
February~May
struggling for study till very END (minit terakhir jwb paper Corrosion kat MH
June
i spent 2 weeks at UTP, completing and wrapped up all student life there
July
PPM called for chit chat session (Alhamdulillah), 1 week later i got that position
August
Away to KL, jd penjual durian tegar kat umah (kelantan)
September
PPM: Here I come! PIPE 65 was amazing...
October
My Graduation, alhamdulillah with 1st class honour Bachelor in Mechanical Engineering (major Material)
Till Now
Struggling here day and night. 24/7 working days...sampai lupe sume mnde. kerja kerja...zzZZ
and the journey continues.
p/s: i noe its too early to tulis psl sume ni sbb tak akhir tahun lg. but, i love it!~

Monday, September 20, 2010

happy

lately...having life with great mode.
bgun pagi mst rase happy. i met new people everyday...lurve it :)
alhamdulillah

Friday, September 17, 2010

saye rabun lah

haih lately terasa mata makin kabur...adekah sudah semakin tua hehe??? power spect tak g check2 lg. kalo dl, without spect i still can see people. but right now, rase mcm sume blur. i really cant figure out who's standing in front of me. tp still berlagak taknk pakai spect. adeh2... ni msuk plant bahaya nih. sure2 kena marah ngn bos...T___T

so i gugel spect td. ops, bukan nk cr spect baru k. saje je nk usya mane2 pattern. tp kan last2 mst tngan gatal nk click kat yg old skool nye. yg bingkai tebal jugak. hee hee. i noe2, mom n sister will marah2 n bising bl tgk i pakai spect ni. i noe i noe...tp i tak plan n tak terpk nk pakai lenses, sbb mcm cerewet jek. dah le sy ni jenis pelupa suke letak merata2...not suit me at all lah pakai menda alaah tuuu. dan lg satu org pkai lense ni adelah org yg mementingkan penampilan jek kot, which is i m not in that type hoho....

i found these....
tp mcm x sesuai sbb i dun like blue hoho..reject~

i like this one, seyes...mcm my current spect. but i think mine nye bingkai lg tebal dan besar :)
tp this one mmg gle2 captured my eyes...*drool*
mcm nk tukar spect amk yg ni jek.seyes2...ESCADA, i m in lurve~

sy rse mmg kena pg check power ni. mcm gle2 ade increment jek, so no wonder la asek sesat jalan jek. even dok PIPE ni pon, sesat jugak. ish, kalo sehari x sesat kat tempat baru mmg xSAH la org nama atikah ni. parah btui~

bila la saye nk jd cam org len eh, yg jalan x sesat. yg buat ape2 selalu betul, yg teratur, neat n smart. bila eh???dan sampai bila sy akan sentiasa blur bl org ckp ape2?muka cool cam xde ape2...cool la sgt. hehe...

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Raya...

Salam...selamat hari raya utk semua dan maaf zahir batin, dunia akhirat. mane2 yg ade berhutang ngn saye tu, kalo utang duit sy halalkan shj. hehe...tp kalo rm 50 above sile jelaskan yerrr...heee. dan sape yg saye berhutang dgn die, sila la tuntut jgn segan2 eh.

alhamdulillah, raye tahun ni sgt bermakna. sbb saye dh keja, tp x dpt gaji lgi. so xdpt lg nk bg duit raye kat bdk2 dtg raye kat umah. sedey2. insyaAllah next yr, dh bley dah mampu utk impian tu. erm, dan raye tahun ni dah xdpt duit raye sbb semua org ingat bl dh keja xyah dpt daa. pdhal gaji xdpt lg n still ask for duit mak ayah T___T. hehe, xksh la semua tu sbb tu dh standard la. tp kan...ade jugak org bg duit raye bl sy pakai alasan gaji xmsuk lg. wheee~

ops, lupe siyes lupe. raye tahun ni special sbb org ramai wish dgn 2 ucapan kat saye. Selamat Hari raya tikah && Happy Birthday...cam menarik dpt ucapan bekembar nih. hoho. 9th September, one day before raye genap umur 23. owh, dh 23 tahun hidup bernafas berjalan atas bumi Allah. cepatnye mase kan? my wish tercapai juga utk start keja at the age of 22. segala puji itu milik Allah. Dialah yg selayaknye dan kt sbg hamba tak mempunyai ape2. we have nothing in this life coz we belong to HIM till end.

wish tuk birthday kali ni tak tersenarai. sama ade byk atau tkde lngsung.hehe. dasyat2. sibuk keja smpai lupa nk pasang angan2 sempena birthday sendiri. kalo ade pon, jdkan sbg rahsia shj. simpan sorang2 is better than sharing wif others coz experience teached me; trust nobody. sbb kdg2 kawan bek sendiri pon tikam kawan dr belakang. tnpa sedar dan tak sngka. tu la jd lgi bendul...hehe. oklah, dh mls nk tulis pnjg2..sbb idea gone. owh, enjoy ur life selagi berpeluang....dan jdlah hmba Allah yg bertaqwa..aamin

my happy family after all. suke sgt pic ni....nk print ltak kat ofis la :) :)
Justify Full

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

randomness of raye~

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri buat semua. kali ini kt beraya bukan lagi sebagai seorang yg bergelar pelajar kan? mayb ade antara kt yang dah keja, dah ley bg duit raya pon kat adek2, anak2 buah and sape2 jela. wah, mest best perasaan ley bg duit raya kat org len...teringat kt zaman dahulu when sibuk hulur tngan minta duit raya dgn org yg lagi tua. pergi beraya umah org, bukannye nk mkan biskut raya pon, tp nk duit raya! (",)

hurm, just a random update sblm bertolak balik ke rumah mlm ni. balik dgn kak dah, she used to be my sister kat sini. senior UTP dan act ktorg ade pertalian darah belah mak. so kat sini dgn die la tempat menumpang kasih hehe. die pon keja same tempat dgn saye jugak. learnt alot drpd die psl keja, cane nk adapt ngn new life n so on. arini die dh cuti, bselah staff lame kan ley amik cuti. org baru mcm saye ni xde sape nk bg cuti T___T. die tunggu saye balik ofis, then br ktorg gerak. dan mse nk berbuka td pon die yg masakkan lauk. owh, sungguh terharu. g smyg terawih dgn die pon nk lintas jalan, siap pimpin tangan lagi. terasa sungguh dimanjakan ade kakak mcm ni. eh2, xkate plak kaklong sy x manjakn saye. my sis kat umah tentulah lebey lagi care die manjakan saye. huh, ok ok, stop talking about this.
ofis td mmg dh lengang. ley kire ngn jari je sape yg ade. mostly dh amik cuti semlm. lps tu next week straight smpai ahad. tp saye, rse k3 dh kena dtg sini. nilah penangan msuk keja before raya. hehe...td jumpa bos, ade tnye sln tak fhm psl task given. alahai dpt bos yg jenis bg semangat, rase cam best jek wpon bukan senang nk survive kat sini. haha. mcm2 gelaran dh dpt. clerk la, praktikal student la..staff ganti org nk bersalin la..mcm2. hehe. mayb muka 'muda n x mature' sgt kot. bos bg inspiration, he guides me in every way that i need to possesses, ideas, till rase cam kenyang jek dgn nasihat2 die. He trusts me well, so do i kan? ape mksd ayat ak ni???hehe. biar sy jela yg fhm maksud tersiratnye :)

dan dgn muka tak malu, sy timbulkan balik psl sln2 yg die tnye mse chit chat aritu. die kate mmg sln2 yg die tnye tu HR pon marah, pasal ape susah sgt. hehe. he said tu la 1st time die tnye sln mcm tu. saye pon ngadu saying that the questions so and so TOUGH!!! but praise to Allah sbb finally i am here! sume tu kerja Allah swt and sy xnk komen ape2. (its not a riak or ape2 yg sewaktu dgnnye, but i just want to let ya noe that this time interview was much2 harder than SI babe!) mase belajar kt mmg berjoli dgn duit yg PETRONAS bg rm500 per month. lps tu bila dh x belajar, sbb dh terbiasa tersuap dgn duit, kt akan rse mcm kering abis since scholar dh tak masuk. nk cr keja skrg ni susah. mmg bergantung atas nasib tp pd mase yg same academic kena strong jugak. u play play kat U, u kuar nk keja susah la...competition really tough! but again, ingat ALLAH ade. academic saje x cukup. really tak cukup. sbb ape yg kt plan sume Allah yg akan tentukan. how ur day ahead only He noes the pattern of it. you zalimkan org hari ni, esok lusa u tak tahu how Allah akan balasnye nnt kat u. jgn ingat u akan terlepas dr semua tu. never! lagi2 bila dh syirik dgn kuasa selain Allah. cane la nk jawab kat akhirat? u ade wajah cantik skrg belom tentu esok luse mnde tu akan remain. Allah nk balas in a blink of eyes babe. rosak sume yg u ade tu...menangis la br nk insaf...keep it strong tikah. this people will die. u too as well~

ok, i noe i melalut. hehe. sorry! back to story..at the end of session ngn bos i told him..

"Bos, esok sy cukup umur.." dgn muka tak malu.
"Haa, ye ker? Rugila cuti esok, if not bley celebrate..." he smiled saying that, bukan dibuat2 k
"Owh, xpe...xperlu pon sume tu. Bos doakan saye eh, spy BERJAYA!!!~" I made double jerk kat bos dan sengih broadly hoho :)
"InsyaAllah....boley2.."

dan tadi sume org berjalan balik, mengatur langkah dgn rase gembira. everybody was smiling.sbb esok start cuti raya..so do I, without exception. *big smile*


things about raye...randomness:
  1. i dun have baju raye this time. i mean baju yg khusus org jahit utk raye. so pakai jela baju yg tak pakai lgi zaman dok UTP dl. jdlah jugak bju raye..huhu
  2. i tak terima gaji lagi utk raye kali ni. rse frust sbb br nk plan bg duit raye kat bdk2 T__T
  3. raye k2 or k3 dh kena balik melaka sbb raye k4 dh keja
  4. 1st tyme parents kasi balik raye ngn kawan, gerak tgh2 malam sbb nk elak jammed. alhamdulillah parents dh start bg kelonggaran. praise to Allah
  5. x bli ape2 kuih raye pon utk bawe balik rumah, cume bawe1 kotak kecil dpt mse nk kuar ofis aritu. wat balik yg tu jela...
  6. even tak dpt gaji jugak, tp still nk bg duit raye kat anak buah. xkire....hoho
  7. raye pertama nnt, umur i jd 23 tahun 1 ari...owhhh~
  8. 1st time raye sume org sekeliling wish selamat jalan sbb nk balik jauh. sume org tnye bertolak, balik ngn sape...wah, so so caring la dieorg ni :)
  9. i ade 2 org anak buah daa this time raye (",)


"like a jewel in the night's velvet sky, a beacon of hope..."

Sunday, September 05, 2010

its ur PRIDE


its about pride...lately mnde ni selalu came across. pride tu ape sbenarnye? where u put your pride? pride and prejudice...tajuk novel as well as movie (if not mistaken lah). mybe right after this i wont let ppl pijak2 my pride, i wont let ppl anggap betapa 'low'nye sy meletakkan maruah yg ade. NOT SUCH WAY!!!

being silent doesnt mean you have nothing to say. it just when u r waiting for a right time to spill out everything. but, promise that it wont turn to be a volcano again. hahaha. such a lame thou. one more thing, bosan tahap petala ke sepuluh pon, i wont text anyone saying how bored i m (just how i did recently). dah2, no more lah perangai lame2. goodbye is goodbye. kang ppl used to say 'terhegeh' which i hate much2. well, ppl never noe our intention, salah buat faham len. then new trouble will come. then i should think bout doing something instead of texting ppl. a new hobby would be nice, ayte?


if Hlovate used to say 'putus fius' then i will used putus jugak. but not fius la for me, prefer putus wayar n fius terbakar.. igniting the spark and flame. burst out.THE END (",)


Saturday, September 04, 2010

memoirs of geisha



Memoirs of a Geisha...i used to have this novel previously. but then i lost it as ade org pinjm x anta2. geram jugak but then it is ok. after this i will buy anew lorh since mls nk saket2 hati ngn org. my kazen yg recommended this novel to me, at that time movie tak kuar lg. honestly this is the 1st novel i ever ever fall in love! gle angau bace novel ni. every words written are meaningful. but then i dun want to review the whole plot as u can get it here.

if u read the novel, the plot will be more interesting compare to movie. tp standard la mcm tu. ngn ayat2 penuh bunga n ropol2 mmg wat sy cair di alam fantasi laa. mlm ni layan lagi sekali muvie tu ngn utube. so beautiful, so sweet -____-". citer tu dh gulakan saye nmpaknye.

"..she has been given is not what she wants, as she is forbidden to pursue her own personal desires - namely that of a kindly older man who she has secretly been in love with for years, and goes only by the name of The Chairman..."




"i will lock my heart and saved it for u.."

desires, dreams, and love come together tru out the plot till end. sumeone who lives with it may never feel gives up in every single way he/she encounters. life is about a battle for someone u love, for something u long for...and for something precious that we call as dream.

bekerjaya


sungguh saye tak sedar bape hari lgi Ramadhan akan berlalu. pejam celik tengok langit pndang sekeliling semua muka len yg wujud. dah tak de lg kawan2 yg selama ni ari2 dok gadoh, study same2, g kelas same2...dan x lama lg nk raye~

tp this post, sy tak nk cerita pasal raye lg. sbb itu mende yg 'soon'.masih tak pasti bagaimana ia akan berlalu. sy nk tulis psl current life, current mode, current feeling bla bla...hehe. wktu dok UTP dulu, sy selalu bayangkan and tertanya where am i next Ramadhan???x sangka kan kali ni berpuasa jauh dr keluarga. mula2 puasa ade mak dan ayah. pastu puasa ngn ayah jek(mase ni mak kat KL) dan tyme ni sy belajar masak huuu. lps tu puasa 1 family utk beberapa hari dan skrg puasa sorang2. bukak pose pon sorang sbb akak senior yg stay ngn sy ni keja balik kol 12 mlm tiap2 ari. so, alone la tiap2 ari balik keja. dan kena masak utk diri sendiri jugak. that's my life so far.

bekerjaya? mmg best jd org yg dh keja coz u r no longer stay under ur parents's money hehe. tp skrg pakai duit mak ayah lg sbb gaji xdek lagi.hukhuk. lps ni xde dah laaa. insyaAllah. bila dh keja, semuanye kena berdikari. nk g bazar pon sorang2. nk g shopping pon sorang2. myb utk sstgh org yg stay ngn geng, yg bernasib bek dpt tempat keja sama dgn kawan2 still dpt rase ade kawan utk rely on. but for me? sume tu dh tak wujud. pegi keja sorang. balik keja sorang. kalo sesat pon sesat lah. macam my 1st day keja, i bley sesat utk smpai rumah. dah le terlajak jauh lak tu. nsb bek jumpa jalan balik haha. dan nsib bek keta pakai plat kelate, so kalo drive sekejap ke kiri pastu ke kanan, masuk simpang kuar simpang, org tau dah leeer. huh.

bila di ofis plak...dah x sama mcm jd student when u have friends yg working utk tasks, asgmts yg same dgn ape yg u buat. dan juga tak same mse jd praktikal student when mase tu u takde amanah nk kena pikul. u just buat keja yg SV suruh, assist technician g plant. tlg2 fotostat docs. pendeknye wat keja simple2 jek. dan juga tak same if u jd seeding engnr. sbb u xde specific task yg u kena buat. erm, maksd sy u r not really in that position coz task tu mmg ade surelah kan hehe. like wut i face now, amanah yg quite berat, tp insyaAllah akan cube pikul dan laksanakan sebaik mungkin. sst yg mmg bos suruh u buat utk kesejahteraan sejagat. HAHAHA. ayatku skema tahap apee~

xyah la cte pnjg, tp begitulah scr kesimpulannya. tp kan, 1 masalah yg saye face skrg, bl boley dikatakan hmpir setiap mase sy kena remind diri bahawa saye bukan bdk praktikal! aish, susah betul nk twist status tu. asek terbawa2 keadaan mse intern dl, dan lg satu rse cam susah nk serius. owh, it takes time babe! nk kena pusing balik, ketatkan balik mane2 skru dlm kepala ni spy sedar diri bahawa u r now an exect! ni betul, sy x tipu. seyes. reasons why i'm being this way are: u r the youngest in the club, u r the only 'girl' surrounded with all matured guys, the way u dress up x mcm org yg keja haha coz u still bwe gaye student zmn dok UTP, u talk like a student, u love and laugh for any reason (muka susah nk serius) tp ntah cane ak ley serius mse intervw ngn chit chat tuh....T___T
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but, there are some other reasons yg buat u rase u ni act dh keja when all ppl address and respect ur each words, ur welfare sgt2 terjage, when dlm meeting bos asek2 sebut nama u ckp pls take note ur task bla bla...bos reminds other exects soh ajar mcm2 mnde baru, soh bwe u pegi mane2 meeting utk kenalkan u pd sume org, bila GM ckp "that's a big challenge for u atikah as a fresh grad"...bila bos terpksa minta org custom made coverall ngn kasut hahaha awalnye. sbb size comel sgt (",) mcm kelakar jek sbb tula 1st tyme pecah rekod org nk custom-made kat situ. tp nsb bek ade rezeki muat size plg kecik! hohoSmiley

tp itulah kenyataannye (ntah ape hakikatnye) bl dh keja. kdg2 rse seronok, kdg2 rse mcm sedey terkenang zaman belajar sbb mse jd student cuti byk. bl dh keja, mne ade mid sem, akhir sem. xde daaah. nk balik jumpa mak ayah pon susah. tp bl keja seronok sbb dpt duit....

i miss this adorable friend kat umah...T___T

Saturday, August 28, 2010

update b4 g KL


bape hari lg tinggal dan esok akan ke KL. pegi awal sikit sbb ade brg2 nk beli di sana. and selasa ke melaka dan RABU...status bertukar. opps, bukan cik kpd puan eh. hahaha..itu belom lg maa. no longer a student or jd tukang jual durian yg berjaya. ceehwah, mcm bangga lak plak. owh tidak TIDAK. mmg sy menidakkan perkara tu. bila status bertukar, maknanya tanggungjwab pon bertambah. amanah yg digalas dan yg Allah swt nk tanye kat akhirat pon akan bertambah. dan am i ready for that, am i?

tp, takpe. ape2pon jalan yg dilalui sy harap sy istiqamah dgn ape yg saye ade skrg. dan di mana je berada, masih meletakkan Dia di barisan plg utama dan selebihnya di belakang. insyaAllah. and sprt yg sy ckp sblm ni, di melaka mahu bina hidup baru. maka mende2 kisah lampau sila tinggalkan di belakang. yg dh lepas tu lepas lah. sy selitkan sepotong ayat dr Surah Taha: 111-112 buat renungan sesiapa yg berkaitan :)

" Dan tunduklah semua muka (dgn merendah diri) kepada Tuhan Yang Hidup Kekal lagi sentiasa mengurus (makhluknya). Dan sesungguhnya telah merugilah org yg melakukan kezaliman. Dan barangsiapa mengerjakan amal2 yang soleh dan dia dalam keadaan beriman, maka dia tidak khuatir akan perlakuan yang tidak adil (terhadapnya) dan tidak (pula) akan pengurangan haknya.

[Surah Taha: 111-112]

ok, done psl ni. btw, sy masih sibuk membuat checklist utk semua brg2 yg nk dibawa ke sana. aish, bila mak xde ni, seolah2 takde PA lak. kelam kabut jugak. haaa, dan br la sedar bahawasanye pot pet pot pet mak selama ni sejak nk masuk asrama tu byk faedahnya. at least xde la tertinggal ape2 kan. mak, how i wish u r 'ere...T__T

hurm, dalam pada mak takde ni, mcm tak caye gak sy percaya urus diri n masak2 utk bukak pose for ayah n me. ni mmg kire dh berdikari la ni. n i rase ley dpt sijil lulus la walaupon nk dptkan kepujian tu jauh lagi.hehe. nnt xde la org kebulur kat melaka dan mak xde la susah hati tinggalkan anak die yg mcm-semua-mende-x-ley-makan which need her to cook on her own! hehe. mak, i've grown up!!! i have grown up!!!

and being home with ayah is the best wut i can say. seyes. kami belajar wat ondeh2 (buah melaka) dgn jayanya wpon ade je yg tak kena. bselah 1st trial kan (",) pls dun expect me to be an expert babe. dan dad mmg awesome. da sekali tu sy tak g terawih sbb sakit kepala sgt. i left alone with baby (my cat) kat umah. sy soh je ayah pg terawih even i noe ayah berat hati nk tinggalkan sy sorang2. dad, i'm not alone lah, Allah with me all the time and baby too hee! lps isyak, i terus tersadai atas katil and baby teman sy tido kat alas kaki. x sedar pape. sekali bukak mate dgr ayah tnye dh isyak ke? tgk jam kol 9.30, and ayah blik awl mlm tu xsmyg 20 rakaat sbb bimbang sy dok sorang2. owh dad..dan dan lps tu mcm2 cerita kelakar bl dok ngn ayah. surely and surely i will remember these momets till the end of life. SURE ok? and ur grandkids pon akan sy cerita betapa sweet dan caringnye tok ayah die to their mom satu mase dl. hehehe...

and yes, i've finish jd tukang jahit smlm. alhamdulillah. perlu menamatkan perkhidmatan laa since nak sambung kontrak baru lak ni. abis sakit2 badan asek dok jahit. hee, lame dh tinggal kan. suke2. hurm, wut else...?

owh ni antar bende2 yg sy mmg akan bwe ke melaka nnt:
-Tafsir, almathurat (xley tinggal ni.compulsory babe!!!)
-La Tahzan (bace bl nk tido mlm)
-sketch book (bakal engineer ni mmg jenis suke melukis & tQ kpd yg menghadiahkannye hee)
-my 0ld-pinky-reused-notebook as my diary hehe
-some color papers for origami ( i do love origami ok)
-a potrait/frame mse ayah grad dl when at the time sy kecil lgi hehe (as pengubat rindu n pembakar smangat)

-my Solusi's collection (do lurve it much2)
-teddies? ermm, i dun need these creatures lorh. bek bawe bantal besar tu hehe. so just left them kat umah shj ok? (sory rumet, i tinggalkan teddies yg u bagi tu T___T)

ni yg wajib ade lah utk g melaka..hehe..yg len2 tu xley tulis, berjela2 pnjg nntnye *wink2x*
dah le, byk keja lg nk wat. owh, doakan sy moga tabah selalu, tidak riak, tidak takabbur dan patah hati dgn ragam manusia. dan juga bejaya dlm setiap ujian qanaah Allah bg. insyaAllah

"jadilah seperti resam padi, makin berisi makin tunduk"


p/s: utk kawan2 yg msh tunggu placement, berdoalah dgn penuh yakin. Allah swt Maha Mendengar, Maha Penyayang, Maha Mengetahui...dan Maha Semuanya...insyaAllah, i will pray for you as well..ingat Allah tu dekat dgn kita..He hears & noes our whispers and dreams as well as intention. maaf, jgn pk post ni riak ke, bangga ke hape, its not for that, just update for my life 0' wut i did now k :)

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

2 paths


we do have two different paths now dan tak mungkin akan menjadi satu lg.
sblm ni we might see each other again and again
tp skrg,
kau punye jalan sendiri
dan ak punye jalan ak sendiri
dan ak hanya akan tertoleh kebelakang bl ade rindu
pd kenangan2 lalu
bersama kau yg dahulu

we will never cross again
sbb jalan ak masih jauh utk smpai ke penghujung
dan destinasi akhir kt tak same
jalan kau?
ak tak pasti krn itu pilihan kau


Saturday, August 21, 2010

Kebun kecik


it was my time to lepak2 dpn lappy, surfing and chatting and enjoying every single moment as org yg tak bekerjaya lg. so lepaking is the best thing lah forsure. tanpa gangguan dr seekor nyamuk pon dan semut2. hahaha. but, all o' sudden si ayah...

"dik,meh kt g chabang 3, kait buah langsat ngn dokong"
dan si anak pon mulala.." haaaa???skrg ke???.."
"yelaaaa...."

maka, bangun la si anak dgn malasnye sambil tarik tudung n bersiap ala kadar. g kebun je pon. bukan ade org nk tgk, kena jd mangsa nyamuk adelah.huh. tp, dlm mse tu sempat lg si anak tarik Nikon die. dh lame Nikon tu bersawang dlm loker. dh berhabuk pon. mmg lah bertuahnye tuan die heee.

pokok langsat

Chabang 3 tu refer kat our kebun sbb it is located dkt ngn chabng 3. senang, letak je nama tu. act, smlm lg ayah nk g kait buah2 tp since ujan lebat gle,so xdpt la. maka arini kena la kait jugak sbb takut dok kat pokok lame2 nnt buah tu pecah dan luruh sbb ujan. fyi, dokong tu adelah adek beradik langsat. dipendekkan cerita, ade 3 siblings la which are langsat, duku dan dokong. rambai tu adek beradik len mak len ayah mungkin sepupu sepapat kot theee heee. i tak tahu kalo org belah luar dr kelantan pnggil ape dokong ni. rasenye lg manis dr buah duku n langsat, tp the smell tak sekuat duku. dan buah dokong ni quite besar. hurm, act, smpai ke arini pon saye x berapa arif sgt psl 3 beradik ni. asek tertukar jek. ni pon sbb ayah selalu betulkan bila sy tersasul sbut nama len buah len :)

ini buah dokong, tp mcm rupe langsat adeh, buat sy keliru

lps dh abis kutip2 langsat, dokong sume tu, sy pegi men2 tepi baruh. haa, ni satu lg istilah yg kena translate dlm bhs standard. baruh tu mean sawah pagi yg dh tak digunakan lgi. so, kire mcm ade lalang, rumput2, n even bila ujan ade air. kalo musim kemarau ley men wau dlm tu. n ley buat rumah dlm rumput2 pnjg2. pergh, gle best ingat zaman dulu. balik umah kena sental ngn dettol la sbb gatal2 dok men dlm rumput. wheee...*wonderful childhood memories lol* :)

sy p men kat tepi baruh tu sbb nk cr buah berangan. BUAH BERANGAN. haaa, rupa2nye kampung sy dpt nama dr pokok ni la. dan pokok ni lak ade dlm tanah kami. terharu kejap. x sangka dlm zaman2 skrg ade lg pokok berangan. jap2, kalo korang nk tahu ni la address umah sy,
Nooratikah Saari @ Awang
Kg Chabang 3 Berangan
16200 Tumpat, Kelantan

haa, nk highlight kat perkataan Berangan tu. no wonder la sy ni kuat berangan. dr kecik smpai besar hidup dlm angan2 jek. ok2, back tu buah berangan plak. buah ni mcm kacang la. kalo x silap sy dlm english myb used to call as walnut, ke hazelnut (eh bukan2 hazelnut) tp mmg ade la nama yg ade nut2 tu kat belakang. kalo tgk cartun chipmunks, tupai kecik tu selalu bwe buah berangan ni masuk umah die dlm batang kayu.

buah berangan yg msh dlm kulit, on my palm

buah berangan ni disebarkan mcm buah getah jugak, iaitu melalu mekanisme letupan. korang jgn lak tnye saye buah getah tu ape. kang ketuk ngn senduk kang hehe. terbongkok2 sy kutip buah berangan dlm daun2 kering. nsb bek tak tersangkut ngn duri pokok salak. adeh. since sy x bawe plastik, maka buah berangan tu pon terpaksa la dimasukkan or lebih tepat wordnye dikilass dlm baju (sprt gmbr di bwh hee). mmg x senonoh perbuatan itu. tp nk wat cane. jalan jekkk.

ops, korang might tnye cane nk makan buah ni kan? kena goreng or rebus dl. biji luar die tu keras kak. xley gigit, nnt gigit yg tercabut. kena goreng dgn pasir. rse die besttt. tp sbb mak xde kat umah, so simpan la dl tunggu mak balik utk buat. sy tak tahu cane process selanjutnye buah berangan ni. tau makan jek! (",)

ok, done talking about buah berangan and will be off juge utk this post. sbb dh mls nk tulis. hehehe. but, b4 tu nk share 2 gmbr about my kebun yg kecik ni. its like a black n white photo sbb pencahayaan kureng sikit. so here it goes...

dan last sekali gmbr buah rambutan yg susah nk kait sbb tinggi sgt. just ley tgk jek dr bawah. gle sedey dow... tupai je yg makan T___T

and it was THE END of the story for my kebun ni. motip die, saje2 nk cte psl kebun yg selalu jd tempat saye lepak2 mse kcik2 dl. now, sume pokok dh besar, just like me. dh grown up pon. dan juga, di kebun ni la i called KLCC asking either i was recomended or not for SI. mse tu dgn mak, tgh tunggu durian. i will alwys remember that moment when i hugged my mom with joy and happiness,pluss ngn tears sekali hehe. thnks Allah for that bless :)


Happy Birthday Sweetheart


alhamdulillah, semua dh selamat dipos. fuh fuh lega. moga2 Allah permudahkan perjalanan itu. aamin. ok, 1st sekali nk minta ampun berjuta2 lemon pd ssorg, Toh Puan Sri Datin Paduka Mina yg skrg ni dh pon genap umur 23 tahun smlm. maaf la makcik, sy benar2 terlupa. adei, ni baru isi2 borang, x start keja lg. agak2nye pasni, bl dh betul2 keja, sume tarikh2 penting sy lupa. dgn plak style jenis x pnh hafal birthday org except for certain ppl. (Mina, ko nye D.O.B termsuk dlm list2 org ak hfl k hee ). so, kalo sape2 rse sy terlupa birthday die tu pls sms remind me, mcm Cik Puan Mina buat td. heee. thnks sbb ingatkan ak syg :P
Mina, ak nk ambil kesempatan ni utk wish ko:
  • Happy Belated Birthday 23 yrs!!! (dh 2 kali ak wish termasuk dgn sms td) hehe
  • ak doakan ape yg ko hajat tu Allah makbulkan. (kalo ko nk tahu ape mksd wish ak yg ni, ko bace maj. Solusi page 108 ,"Doaku utkmu"..then u will noe :)
  • jage diri, jage pergaulan, dan berusaha utk tingkatkan iman. Mati x kenal usia syg!
  • last sekali, ak mahu ko bahagia... ak bahagia, ko pon bahagia. boley???
Mina, she is my dearie bestfriend sejak darjah 1 yg jugak merangkap 2nd cousin (2pupu) belah ayah. Kenal die sejak kecik, mse tu die suke pakai selipar/kasut terbalik (jgn marah ak bukak rahsia ni) lagi dan ak selalu nek basikal ngn die n kami selalu jatuh same2 mase nk g ngaji quran. bse la ak ni bukannye tukang bwe basikal yg mahir. tp die x pnh marah ak sbb ak, die pon jatuh sekali. hehe. berkawan2 dan terus berkawan smpai besar. bila jumpa, mmg rse x cukup mase. kalo die tido umah ak, pendeknya mlm tu xtido la ktorg kalo x smpai kol 3,4 pagi dok bersembang. mcm2 cite kuar. owwh, i miss that moments dear!!! dan smpai skrg die mmg kawan ak yg terbaik. moga Allah berkati persahabatan kt. ingat tuh, mak soh ko mintak keja kat melaka gak. nnt ley dok ngn ak heheh, insyaAllah (",)


ok, THE END psl Mina....

pasal ape ak letak gmbr katil ak ni, ngn kuceng Baby ak tgh syok tido kat sini??? sbb ak xde gmbr ko Mina yg latest. malas nk curik kat fb ngn malas nk korek dlm external ak heee. so ak letak la gmbr ni. comey ape (^____^)V



Thursday, August 19, 2010

Bila hanya ak dan ayah


pesanan awal2, this entry maybe sound like a diary to be or it can be said will be x mature sikit. but, pk punye pk still nk tulis jugak sbb i bet these moments will be precious and mmg akan diingat smpai bila2 hehe...then, here we go :)

skrg ak kat umah, dgn ayah. mak kat kl, jage kaklong. puasa mak xde, mmg xtahu la nk ckp. ari2 ak kena pk nk masak ape. susah jugak eh nk ambil alih tempat mak.ngaku awal2, mmg tak qualified la. hukhuk. dan dgn ilmu masakan yg mcm xcukup semua perasa, ak xtahu nk kategorikan ape die ak nye style masak. tp org kate, kalo x try, smpai bila pon x pndai. dan ak rse ni 1st training ak bfore g dok melaka. sbb di melaka ade cencaluk ngn belacan yg ak mmg kem salam allergik beratus petala dunia ak tak ley sentuh. so, ak xley nk beli food kat kedai mcm ak selalu buat kat paka mse intern. yg pasti ak kena masak sendiri!*pengsan*

ok, back to the story. ley dikatakan ari2 ak akan masak ngn ayah. hehe. comey je bunyi kan.

"ayah, nak makan ape arini?"
" ayah, nak masak ape?"
" ayah, kah masak eh. jap, call mak tnye cane nk buat..."
"ayah, ikan singge' mak letak garam yg ade kunyit la"
"ayah, asal siang ikan mctu. mak buang la yg tu.."
" ayah, sayur kicap letak asam tak?"

....bla blaaa..bla...x abis soalan2 ak tnye ayah dan ayah mmg jd pnjawab yg setia. cume kdg2 ak confius dgn jwpn ayah sbb bertentangan dgn skill memasak mak.heeee. dan sekali tu kan ade something happen yg ktorg masak terhangit sbb tyme tu ktorg tinggal 'lauk' tu atas dapur n sibuk uruskan psl borang2 yg PETRONAS nak tu...sekali, aaaa

"dik, lauk kt hangit laa, adeiii.."
"waa, pastu nk makan ape berbuka ptg ni?"
"ntah..."ayah garu kepala..
" xpe, biar kah masak lak" muka confident tahap dewa heee :)


mmg kelakar bila ak ingat semua peristiwa men masak2 ngn ayah. bila ktorg malas masak, maka kami berdua akan ke bazar mencari lauk. beli la ape2 yg menarik di mata. owh, menjadi anak manja ayah la ak ni, asek mengekooor je kat belakang. sekali rse mcm bdk kecik br belajar puasa pon ade bila si ayah nk makan ape? nk air ape? kadang2 air tu berjenis2 beli. ceeeh, mcm2...heee, kadang2 ayah bising

" drpd buang mase masak, bek kt beli jek.kt ni bukan pakar pon masak..."
"alaa, kalo asek beli bila kah nk pndai? nnt g melaka nk makan ape???"

kdg2 ak terpk sst mcm best jek lalui saat ni walaupon ssh sgt bila mak takda. dan bila ak dh berkeluarga nnt, sure2 ak akan rindu saat mcm ni. tyme bila org manjakan ak n layan ak cam budak2. yela pg bazar ngn ayah, buat sume surat2, g medical check up, g shopping baju2, shopping groceries sume ngn ayah. anak ayah betol la ak ni -__-"

talking about current life, ak rse mcm life is getting more challenging. ngn dok melaka nye nnt, kat sane keja mmg hectic. engnr kat sane mmg buzy. pastu ngn ak yg tak reti masak lagi ni (bukan x reti lngsung, tp masih merangkak laaa), then kena sesuaikan diri ngn tempat baru, suasana keja yg pasti menekan ngn menyesakkan serba mak nenek dlm perut. owh...T__T

this is the real battle in my life...but melaka, here i come :)

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

2nd nephew


alhamdulillah...15 august 2010...have a new nephew. nama xtau lg, terlupa lak nk tnye sister sbb Usu die sgt sibuk dgn keja yg nk kena setel dlm mse terdekat ni. apepon, selamat dtg wahai khalifah kecil...

"smg menjadi hamba Allah yg soleh
dan sentiasa meletakkan Allah di hdpn dlm semua perkara..."
itu kata2 yg saye bisik kat telinga die mse mula2 jumpa... :)

p/s: Atiq, nnt jd abang yg baek ye ^___^

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Petanda org yg bertauhid

mcm kena2 jek bila terbukak buku La Tahzan, terus terbelek "Tanda2 org yg Bertauhid". mmg kena dan tertampar kat muka. dushhh. amik ko, baru pg td tulis post luahan jiwa mcm org mati katak 2 3 ekor, sekali Allah nk bagi keinsafan. syukur. tak lama terleka :)

petanda org yg bertauhid, sekadar utk sharing dgn ssp yg sudi:
  • memaafkan- sbg bukti keikhlasan terhdp perilaku org yg menyakiti. part ni hakikatnye mmg susah walaupon bibir berkali2 melafazkan maaf dan maaf. kalo lah perkara ini sesenang bicara, xkan ade org yg tikam org dr blkg. tp sbb ia susah la ganjarannya besar di sisi Allah.
" Dan sesiapa yang memaafkan (kejahatan org) dan berbuat baik kpdnya maka pahalanye ttp dijamin oleh Allah (dgn diberi balasan yg sebaik-baiknya)."
Surah Asy-Syura: 40

  • keyakinan terhdp qadha- iaitu pd dlm diri kt yakin bahawa sst itu takkan menyakiti atau terjadi tanpa izin dr Allah. dan sbg hambaNya kt mmg perlu sentiasa beriman kpd qadha' dan qadar Allah
  • penghapusan dosa- ni kt perlu sedar yang kejahatan dr org len buat terhadap kt tu bermakna dosa2 kt dihapuskan,keburukan2 kt dilenyapkan dan darjat kt diangkat. how? sila la perbanyakkan bace tafsir ye wahai hati :)
  • timbul kesedaran terhdp kekuarang diri- sbb biasanye bila situasi ini terjdi hati akan tergerak utk bermuhasabah...then..there it go...to neutralize the sins...lagi satu halplg penting kt kena bersyukur sbb Allah takdirkan kt sbg org yg dizalimi dan bukannye org yg menzalimi.
ramai ulama salaf selalu menyebut dalam doa mereka: " Ya Allah, jadikanlah ak org yg dizalimi dan bukan yg menzalimi."
  • menunjukkan sikap ramah- which is perlu bersikap ramah dgn mereka yg menzalimi kt. well, kalau kt pon buat tarik muka masam dgn depa, alkisahnya kt ni 2x5 la dgn org2 mcm tu kan???? i noe it is hard sbb sy pon kalo bley xnk pndang, xnk jumpa dgn manusia2 yg mcm ni. tp itulah kata sy td, yg susah tula besar ganjarannya di sisi Allah SWT. ^__^
dannnn, sy nk share terjemahan surah Al-Baqarah yg saye bace bbrp hari yg lalu..moga2 terbuka hati mereka2 yg mengamalkannya...

"Dan mereka mengikuti apa yg dibaca oleh setan2 pada masa kerajaan Sulaiman. Sulaiman itu tidak kafir tetapi setan2 itulah yg kafir, mereka mengajarkan sihir kepada manusia dan ape yg diturunkan kpd malaikat Harut dan Marut di negeri Babilonia. Padahal keduanya tidak mengajarkan sesuatu kpd ssorg sblm mengatakan "Sesungguhnya kami adalah cubaan bagimu, sbb itu janganlah kafir. " Maka mereka mempelajari dari keduanya ape yg dpt memisahkan antara sorg suami dgn isterinya. Mereka tidak akan dapat mencelakan ssorg dgn sihirnye kecuali dgn izin Allah. Mereka mempelajari sst yg mencelakakan, dan tidak memberi manfaat kpd mereka. Dan sungguh mereka sudah tahu, barang siapa membeli (menggunakan sihir) itu, nescaya tidak akan mendapat keuntungan di akhirat. Dan sungguh sgtlah buruk perbuatan mereka yg menjual dirinye dgn sihir, sekiranya mereka tahu. "

Surah Al-Baqarah: 102

akhir sekali, bersyukurlah menjadi org yg dizalimi. wassalam wbt.

mereka yg bernama mereka

ok, bngun pg ni mmg niat nk update blog. harap2 nye termakbul aamin. masih di kl. huh, dh jd umah no 2 kl ni agaknye. mmg rindu rumah, seyes! rindu kucing dan katil. sy budak kampung dan mmg x betah utk tinggal di bndar2 besar. nnt jiwa sakit. huhu. kalo boley nk dok dlm gua jek yg ade unggas pagi2, bunyi katak pnggil ujan...waaah, best siokkkk~

dah merapu plak heee, act jiwa baru sembuh dari luka smlm. lol. luka lgi. tu pasal status fb taram jiwang semacam jekkk. kahkah. ingat dh sembuh sekali tersangkut serpihan kace, tergores balik. dan msih di tempat yg sama, walaupon dh 2 tahun berlalu. adeeei. dan lagi satu, plg sangat tak suke bila sejenis manusia yg tak reti bahasa jugak nk faham bahasa yg saye cuba terjemahkan. selalu nk sakitkan hati. konon nk wat lawak, byk la lawak, wat saye lgi rase menyampah dan semakin nk pergi jauh ade lah. manusia manusia...(smbil geleng kepala sejuta kali) -___-"

makin saye besar ni, makin byk mnde yg kena consider. family pon byk bg suggestion as well as limitation. xnk org jauh, xnk org adek beradik ramai, xnk org luar, xnk org keja Pet, xnk tu, xnk ni. huh, last2 saye pening dan mls pk. mmg xnk pk. tp terpk jugak. terpk hikmah kenapa selama ni asek gagal jek. sbb mereka2 tu sume mmg x worth to be there dan mmg x lepas syarat2 yg diletakkan keluarga.NOKTAH. bukan nk kate memilih, TAK TAK. sbb kalo rupa mcm angelina jolie tu ok la nk pilih bulu. haha. tp sbb saye teringat petikan dari majalah Solusi latest edition, Allah x bg lg sbb mse tu Dia rase kt tak sesuai utk hadapi. which means mengikut yg saye fhm kalo Allah bg jugak, dgn keadaan kt yg tak berapa nk betul lgi, kt mungkin jd lg teruk. teruk tu luas takrifan. dari segi akidah misalnya. huh. mungkin laa...

aish, dh jd luahan perasaan plak pagi2 ni. ampun. bukan niat asal. tp terluah jugak atas rase geram. bulan puasa kena byk sabar. dan sabar itu bukan senang. itu yg selalu sy selitkan dlm doa ari2. doa sbg org yg dianiyai. doa sbg khalifah Allah yg masih mencari arah hidup. doa utk sebuah perjuangan utk melupakan kisah semalam. will do, insyaAllah ;)

harap2nya dgn kehidupan yg akan dtg ni, sy betul2 bina hidup baru. atas kaki sendiri. dan kalo bley mmg sy xnk jumpa, xnk tgk daa muka2 yg byk menoreh2 jiwa ni. laki dan perempuan. baik, itu bukan dendam. tp sprt yg sy selalu btaw mak," kah xnk jumpa mrk lgi sbb kah xnk ingat ape yg mrk pnh buat. kah nk lupakan mrk dgn hidup yg baru.." dan mereka kekal sbg sejarah! sekian...

owh, my 2nd anak buah, cepatlah kuar tgk dunia ni syg~~~~

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Blog Vs Diary

kdg2 sy terdetik jugak, ape yg ditulis dlm blog ni? dan blog ni ape sebenarnye? jurnal kehidupan ssorg yg boley disamakan diari yg x official...mcm tu ker? or sbg medan perkongsian ilmu dgn para sahabat...boley jadi jugak kot. dl ade ssorg pnh tnye saye ape beza blog ngn diari. i promised him to write about it someday dan smpai ke hari ini x tulis2 lagi. heee...since arini ade byk mase lapang, i think i will answer his quest (x ksh la die bace lg ke tak ape yg sy tulis ni)

D.I.A.R.Y
when we talk about this, most probably ppl akan ckp org yg tulis diary ni adelah a bit sentimental, jiwang, dan perahsia. owh, mungkin kot. tapi, itu hanya general idea or basic idea tntang personaliti org yg tulis diary. tak semua org mcm tu. diary is something yg u bley tulis ape2 shj, yg org len tak kan bace sbb mnde tu private! kalo bace dosaaaa :) kalo ikut pengalaman saye, i used to have diaries since form 1 smpai masuk utp. and i still kept all of them. bila bace balik, rase saket gle kepala sbb tersangatla terasa ketidak 'matured'an diri sendiri. malu pon ade bila ingat balik. hahah. mcm2 ditulis, mnde nk marah org pon tulis kat situ gak. result exam rendah pon tulis jugak. crush dan cinta monyet pon ade. wheee...

dan yg pasti saye perasan, bl tulis diary ni, we tend to write sesuka hati. tanpa tapisan. kalo dah masuk bab nk marah org tu, mak aihhh, ape mnde tak tulis??? (but sy tak tulis la mcmni, x bek doww) dan kalo bab jiwang lak..tangkap lentok ler bace. lgi2 bila zaman dl zaman gila2 kumpul majalah blues selamanya. hehe...mmg saye sakit kepala bace balik. ntah ape nye sindrom la.

tp, ade part yg sedey dlm diaries saye yg sy rase tersekat jantung bila bace. iaitu bila sy menulis psl impian dan cita2. (ni x masuk bab cinta ok? ) yup, tntang angan2 sejak zaman sekolah menengah nk pergi sambung belajar kat UK yg tak tercapai2 smpai hari ini. tp yg menarik, bl ssorg menulis diary ni dia bley nmpak flow hidup dari die kecik2 x matured smpai die besar. bagaimana setiap impian dan cita2 berubah seiring dgn peredaran masa. dan bagaimana die berusaha utk merealisasikan setiap ape yg die tulis tu.

dan itulah sebuah diary secara ringkas nye yg dpt sy tulis. takkan nk tulis kndungan diary dlm ni plak. hehe...


B.L.O.G
sy start ade blog tahun 2007. mse tu dh ade kat UTP. mase tu sy tulis blog secara suke2. dan tyme tu org tak ramai lg ade blog. segelintir je dan x mcm skrg. sy mula rse nk serius tulis blog ni lps saye terbace blog ssorg kakak ni, yg die cter perjalanan hidup die sjk die blajar, die kawen, smbung blaja balik, ade anak dan smpai skrg. mcm menarik jek. itu mungkin perkongsian hidup die yg die nk share dgn org atau pon mmg die nk rakamkan mnde tu utk die tgk and bace balik bila dh tua2 nnt. a journey of her life :)

dan bila menulis blog ni, sy mula slow utk diary. sbb sy sedar bl tulis blog, x mcm tulis dairy. sbb kt akan ade limitation. xdenye nk tulis jiwang karat meleleh or nk kutuk org bagai nk rak. ape yg kt tulis tu kt akan fikir balik sbb we noe ppl akan bce. tp kdg2 ade jugak sy tertulis mnde yg tak sepatutnya. and i m sorry for that.

apepon, blog ni can be said mcm online jurnal la. a journey of life (ceeh, mcm tajuk blog sendiri jek). ppl do talk about their life in their blogs, and some of them share a bit about ilmu2 agama, and jugak ade yg share their hobby cam photography etc. huh, blog ni luas la takrifannye. bergantung pd org tu la nk tulis ape. dan skrg sume org pakat ade blog. and mostly bercerita psl life sndiri. mcm saye jugak la lebey kurang. dan act, kalo tgk dr blog org tu, we can predict ssorg tu sifat dan perangai die mcm mane. agak2 org ley predict tak ak ni jiwa cane??haa, tau2..org akan ckp ak ni jiwang karat -__-"

well, tu terpulang la psl firasat msg2. mcm saye tulis blog ni sbb sbg ingatan (ntah bape juta kali ak dok ulang ayat ni huhu) yg mane xnk dikategorikan sbg diary sbb akan saket kepala bila bace balik akibat terlebey gula dan terkurang garam agaknye... :P

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Ramadhan kali ini

Salam Ramadhan buat semua. menginjak usia kali ini Ramadhan bukan lagi di UTP, bukan lagi sbg sorg pelajar. tanggungjawab utk belajar sudah berakhir tapi itu tak bermakna usaha utk menuntut ilmu akan berakhir. ilmu perlu dituntut sehingga ke saat2 terakhir...hingga ke liang lahad. dan mungkin ilmu yg dituntut itu bukan lgi ilmu kejuruteraan, tp mungkin lebih kepada ilmu mempersiapkan diri sebagai khalifah Allah yg bakal meniti hari2 kedewasaan. insyaAllah :)

Alhamdulillah, makin hari makin terisi. makin terasa bermakna dan makin juga mencabar. Ramadhan kali ini disambut tnpa tokki dan toksu. kehilangan keduanya cukup terasa. apa2 pon semoga Allah tempatkan mereka di kalangan hamba2Nya yg beriman. aamin. tak perlulah terus menangisi kehilangan org yg tersayang krn adakalanya apabila kt terlalu merapati pemergian mereka, kdg kala kt melupak dhan hati2 lain yg perlu dibaja, dijaga dan di sirami dgn senyuman. tidak meratapi itu bukan bermakna melupakan terus, sebaliknya senantiasa mendoakan mereka di penghujung sujud dan solat. doa2 anak2 yg soleh dan solehah, subhanaAllah :)

kali ini saye di KL, umah kaklong. waiting for her 2nd baby. tak sabar rasanye. hee, mcm Atiq lg ke mcm sape plak??? sejak baby ni dalam perut lg saye dah gatal2 jentik2 die, pnggil die spy cepat2 keluar. Usu rindulah. hehe (jahatkan kacau baby dlm perut hehe) semoga Ramadhan kali ini lebih bermakna dgn pertambahan keluarga yg baru, insyaAllah.

okla, sy rse sy perlu stop dl since si Atiq dah tekan2 laptop ni. adeh....T__Y
Selamat Berpuasa dan maaf zahir batin semua... buang yg keruh dan ambil yg jernih...insyaAllah

Thursday, July 29, 2010

suka suka menulis

Salam....it has been a long time since my last update. something happened and it killed my mood out of death! dl, rase syg sgt kat blog ni. selalu nk update ape2. mcm diari bergerak. tp skrg, dh hilang rase mcm tu. nk salahkan sape? nobody*

msh menjd penganggur terhormat. masih di KL. masih hidup single. masih malas nk maen2 game dlm FB. masih malas nk habiskan beratus2 Gb series jepun+korea+ english dlm external. masih dan masih di takuk yg same. tp dh bersara seketika dr menjadi penjual durian yg berjaya.hehe dan tak lupe skrg ligat membaca novel2 melayu kepunyaan kazen2 tersayang, Cik Izzah n adek beradek. arigatoo. mmg novel yg sy bace ni jiwang. huh, 40 karat kot. tp layan jugak sbb hanya itu yg ade. nk bace novel english, xde cerita yg saye minat. T___T

pagi2 msti makan nasi goreng. ok, mak yg masak. saye x masak pon. sbb saye bangun lambat. huh. tp saye dh pndai masak gulai lemak dan ikan masak pedas. owwh yeeah. dlm process nk belajar masak ikan singge'. mak ngn kaklong ckp yg tu plg senang. men campak je pastu tinggg SIAP!!!~

owh, sy terpk nk buat double degree. dlm masakan. betul ni x tipu. sbb sy rase nk mcm best jek tgk org ley masak mcm2. esp western. tp ntah bila la sy nk buat degree lg sekali ni. kem salam dlm mimpi kot. ngeee. tp mayb sy ley belajar masak dr my kazen yg dh jd chef tu. aritu pon menuntut half way je. basic pasta yg ade 4 jenis. rupanye2 sy baru tahu buat 1jenis pasta jek. ceeeh, tu pon nk berlagak selama ni. takpe2...nnt sy belajar lg ^^V

sy rindu kucing. rindu sgt. pada 3 kitties yg lahir awl bulan 7 aritu. nama yg dh masuk suratberanak Kimboon, Jeremy ngn MeenHo. hehe sume nama korea yg saye suke. owh, sgt rindu pd mereka2. Baby pon saye rindu. hurmmmm

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Hlovate

Hlovate...dh masuk pengaruh novel ngn idea2 si penulis ni dlm jiwa. but, i like. cume, tiap org ade taste yg berbeza, so do i. stay kat KL for a while mmg bosan kalo xde ape2 nk buat. xkan nk g berjalan je keja, duit keluar, tenaga keluar, balik penat. hehe..not a great decision i guess. so, end up bace novels, mags, surfing and lepak lepakss....

Rooftop Rant dgn aA+bB. 2 novels ni dh khatam. some ppl say Rooftop Rant bored and better aA+bB..myb sbb jalan cerita for each stories kot. dlm Rooftop Rant more on pengisian yg i rase quite berat for certain ppl which finally make the story quite bore. tp dlm aA+bB ni, more on scenarioes lovey dovey hehe..so ppl will opt for this la kot. frankly speaking, sy suke Rooftop Rant lgi n felt like the other one quite bored! dunno why taman bunga dalam hati dh kering skrg ni. kontang kot!

to live hell or live well
you choose
May Allah bless
-Rooftop Rant-

Monday, July 05, 2010

Memaafkan

Memaafkan bukan bererti melupakan kerana sejarah tak mungkin hilang ditelan zaman. sejarah Melayu akan terus mekar, terus menerus dikenang dan dijadikan pengajaran, kisah Hang Tuah dan tenggelamnye kapal Vanderwick suatu masa dahulu (hrp ejaan betol) hehe...

Namun, tidak melupakan bukan bererti dendam kerana dendam itu penyakit hati. Maafkanlah semuanya dan serahlah semuanya dibawah pengadilan Allah kerana Dia Maha Mengetahui...
^___^

Monday, June 14, 2010

Darling bud


my darling May
my darling bud...
she is my....




and i will alwys remember this....


Goodbye part6-last episode

ok, kali ini mmg btol2 goodbye. dah xde daa chpter goodbye len slps ni. hehe. semua dh setel, report dh officially submitted to SV ngn dprmt, clearance sume dh beres, barang ade sikit lg nk kemas. dan sgt2 x sabar nk loading sume brg2 dlm kereta. sbbnye nk tgk cukup space ke tak :P

ayah selalu perli dl, kalo nk balik kena sewa treller pnjang. sbb brg serba mak nenek ade. sume mnde kat bilik umah tu nk angkut. hee, well i need them la dad spy dpt bg inspiration utk study. *kening double jerk* tang mane inspiration pon tak tahu la. nyemak kat pndangan act. erm, nk buat bilik kat UTP ni rase homey sikit. ahaha...

btw, ade sedikit terkilan sebenarnye dgn report yg disubmit. silap letak pages kat dpn. aisey, gle tak tenteram jiwa satu ari ni. td g mintak balik dgn SV, pasti SV ckp xpe la...saje die nk kenakan ak td. gado2 sikit dgn SV, lps die meyakinkan ak bahawa, xde mslh pon dgn report yg ak submit tu, barulah ak mengalah. kalo tak, forsurenye mintak balik beki kat kelantan. pastu pos laju ke alamat rumah SV.ahaha...

tak caye bila diri sendiri dh mampu produce hardcover thesis. rse cam mimpi2 jek. sbb selama ni bersengkang mata nk siapkan report yg maha agung ni. nk siapkan FYP, nk siapkan coding bgi jalan. dan terpaksa bergado2 dgn ssorg hmba Allah yg kat UTM skudai tu..smpai terpaksa pekakkan mata ngn butakan telinga semata2 nk belajar dr beliau. kena kutuk kaw2...hoho. kena bukak dictionary bila tak fhm english die yg berhabuk tahap dewa tu. fius ak dah bape kali terputus dgn beliau, aci bley smbung balik je nsib baek. lps tu, scr geram bl tak mampu nk kawal rse marah, i said i hate u dkt beliau. huh, phrase membunuh betul. tujuh ke sepuluh keturunan pon tak penah hayat terfikir nk keluarkan perkataan tu even dgn x-bf yg menyakitkan jiwa tahap garam selama ni pon.ahaha... bertuah sgt la ak dpt bg ayat tu kat die. kalo dulu ak selalu kaco die kat gtalk...lps dr tu, ak dh tak tgk muka die daa. x nmpak die online daa. die block ak kot? hahaha...xdehal laa. lagi ak suke mcm tu. tenteram hidup. bahagia jiwa. ak ley bet r pasni die akan kutuk ak lagi kalo die bce post ak ni. aaa, lantak la die nk ckp ape pon. yg pasti, die sudah pon berakhir bersama2 dgn report FYP yg ak submit td. kire tutup buku. noktah!!!scuba diving

td, lps submit report, ak g merayau ke bilik lecturers. saje jek ni nk say goodbye. at least la kan. kalo kt nk tinggal org tu, kena la ckp bye2 dl. mcm kurang asam jawe jek kalo blah cmtu jek. tp sedey plak sbb xde bilik2 lecturer sume kosong. br ak teringat sume dh g KL sbb da conference. alaa, so niat baek ak nk wave hand ngn mintak halal ilmu dr lecturer pon x kesampaian. free smileys

last part yg ak nk cerita sekali psl co-SV ak. Pn Ainul. ak sayang die, betul x tipu. gle best dpt SV camni. blur, sempoi habis. ak kenal die mse intern sbb die die dtg PGB, amik data n utk fyp ak. takyah cte pnjang. we shared same hobby- photography. so, bl weekend, ktorg g photoshoot kat Tanjung Jara. petang2 balik dr ofis, lepak kat pntai makan keropok lekor. kisah ak zaman jd student sume die tahu. pastu td, mse nk blah...die ckp ape kat ak??? ak ingatkan die nk say goodluck dlm future life cam standard sume org ckp kat ak. tapi sekali die ckp..

"atikah, goodluck in finding your boyfriend...!! Ingat, jgn cr org PETRONAS..."
dan ak hanya sengih mcm kerang busuk, xtau nk ckp ape daa...hehe... :)



life kat Uni ni act lagi best..jauh lg best dr zaman sekolah menengah. betul x tipu. sbb zaman ni kt bebas, xde la bebas sgt. kena pndai2 jage diri, jage smyg, bace Al-Quran selalu. pergaulan kena jage jugak. ak dok UTP ni pon, end up bukan msuk geng2 yg alim2 and bukan jugak msuk geng yg lagi satu..org kate atas pagar. tu lah ak. msih mencari2 arah hidup. msih cari identiti sape sebenarnye ATIKAH SAARI ni. tp sikit sebanyak ak tahu la kemana arah tuju ak. Allah tlg sepanjang jalan, kalo nk harap ak sorang2, sah2 terjun lombong awal2. kahkah. itu hanya hiperbola. ak kuar UTP ni ak xtahu la sape jd bestfriend ak. haa, ade kot..insyaAllah ade. walaupon ak x pernh declare dia tu sape. xyah la declare2, cukup sekadar ko tahu, ak tahu, kita kawan baek. abis cte! ok, dh laa berakhir kisah hidup ak selama 5 tahun kat UTP. nmpak best n bunyi yg glamer je dpt msuk UTP, sponsor PETRONAS..haha..mai la dok sini, then u will noe how is it. Tp ak ttk suke UTP sbb tempat ni la byk ajar ak jd org...bukan hantu.

p/s: mr Xxx, sy maafkan awk sbb buat sy mcmtu. awk maafkan saye tak???hehe (gle sengal ayat ak ni, mak aihh)..buang tebiat 4otahun ak tulis ayat cenggini~

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Goodbye part5



dalam post Goodbye ni, sume kisah pd ari2 terahir kat UTP...so, byk chpter lg yg akan ditulis selagi tak balik umah ari sls ni. ade 2 ari lagi. *yeay* ok fine, post ni x sihat sbb semuanya pasal muvie++ series in korean & japan. mintak ampun sbb sy mmg x layan cite english sgt. disebabkan melepak sahaja kerja di utp ni, maka ni la antara 'aktiviti' yg boley dibuat.

Hana Yori Dango...cerita ni dh berkurun daa, saye bru layan. punye la lmbat gle...agak2 kalo org nk nek flight nk pg europe, saye masih kayuh basikal balik dr sekolah. tiket pon xde lgik. hehehe... btw, i like this series. sama mcm Boys Over Flowers. watak hero die yg best sbb syg gle kat awek die wpon she just a commoner. hurm, dlm cte boley la buat mcm ni. in real life...mimpi laa kot. haha ^__^


then, layan jugak cerita ni. Personal Taste. sbb Lee Min Ho jd hero. ahakz, ok fine, suke die :P tp ade jugak kan pompuan mcm ni, senang gle caye kat org. aish, lembut gle hati...Gae In...tp cte ni lawak. ley la layan time bosan2 ni :)


last one, Cinderella Sister. yg ni x tgk abis lg. cte ni best jugak, esp watak Eun Jo. agak2 kalo saye buat watak cm ni dlm daily life, sah2 kena marah ngn sume org. haha..gle annoying! tp best sbb die byk berdikari. stand on her own. OST2 cte ni best..hehe \0/


abis psl muvie. skrg tgh layan novel 5tahun 5 bulan. aritu bace skip byk2. kali ni bru nk bace balik. lps ni nk bace Cinta di Langit Gaza plak (baru beli kat Talk Palestin aritu hehe)
sekian~

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Goodbye part4

status FB: melepak dan terus melepak...menghabiskan hari2 terakhir di UTP:D

msih di UTP nan indah. alone. rumet xde. may xde. dok kat umah sorang2. takpe Allah ade. nnt lps ni, kalo pegi jauh2, xde sape2 jugak kan. start berdikari wahai hati dan semoga kau tabah. aamin. pagi td, nsb bek sempat anta 4 copies report utk hardbound. alhamdulillah. cane sy boley tak tahu dieorg collect smlm. xbace emel ak ni. nasib baek tu xpernah takde. syukur. terkocoh2 anta report ngn muka tak mandi, sarung tudung itam yg bbrp ari punye. T__T

bila setel psl report, skrg tyme nk packing brg2. loker almost kosong! buku2 dh selamat masuk dlm kotak. cume meja msih bersepah2. mls nk kemas sbb suke tgk mcm tu. kahkah. bunga2 kering dalam pasu x buang lagi. masih di tempat asal. let it be. msih terfikir2 ptg ni nk buat ape. main squash? lepak kat bilik wani? nnt la dulu. ade 'keja' kena buat. yg x siap2 lagi.

**********

nk flash back kisah semalam
lunch dgn Pn Ainul ngn Pn Azuraein kat Taman U. maam belanja makan. yeay! i told them about 'that'. Pn Azuraein explain elok2 kat saye. tntg mse depan, which one that i need to choose. i still remember her words yg buatkan saye makin menimbang tara ape yg ade..

"neither bout to enjoy nor scholarship, the thing is r u mentally prepared to undergo it?
*** is a lonely journey. It may takes u 2, 3 months or even up to 1 year to adapt with new environment. u have to think about it..."

yup, tepat sekali ape yg die ckp tu. mmg sy agree. a LONELY JOURNEY babe~ and sy terfikir2 sst, seandainya mmg 'path' ni yg perlu saye pilih nnt, how i'm going to face this lonely journey alone?


Dear soul ,
I am patience. In stillness, I eternally wait for you to acknowledge Me, your true Self.
In timelessness, I abide. As peace, I repose.
As the sun awaits the flower to turn its face towards its warmth and light, so do I await you.