Goodbye part4

status FB: melepak dan terus melepak...menghabiskan hari2 terakhir di UTP:D

msih di UTP nan indah. alone. rumet xde. may xde. dok kat umah sorang2. takpe Allah ade. nnt lps ni, kalo pegi jauh2, xde sape2 jugak kan. start berdikari wahai hati dan semoga kau tabah. aamin. pagi td, nsb bek sempat anta 4 copies report utk hardbound. alhamdulillah. cane sy boley tak tahu dieorg collect smlm. xbace emel ak ni. nasib baek tu xpernah takde. syukur. terkocoh2 anta report ngn muka tak mandi, sarung tudung itam yg bbrp ari punye. T__T

bila setel psl report, skrg tyme nk packing brg2. loker almost kosong! buku2 dh selamat masuk dlm kotak. cume meja msih bersepah2. mls nk kemas sbb suke tgk mcm tu. kahkah. bunga2 kering dalam pasu x buang lagi. masih di tempat asal. let it be. msih terfikir2 ptg ni nk buat ape. main squash? lepak kat bilik wani? nnt la dulu. ade 'keja' kena buat. yg x siap2 lagi.

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nk flash back kisah semalam

lunch dgn Pn Ainul ngn Pn Azuraein kat Taman U. maam belanja makan. yeay! i told them about 'that'. Pn Azuraein explain elok2 kat saye. tntg mse depan, which one that i need to choose. i still remember her words yg buatkan saye makin menimbang tara ape yg ade..

"neither bout to enjoy nor scholarship, the thing is r u mentally prepared to undergo it?

*** is a lonely journey. It may takes u 2, 3 months or even up to 1 year to adapt with new environment. u have to think about it..."

yup, tepat sekali ape yg die ckp tu. mmg sy agree. a LONELY JOURNEY babe~ and sy terfikir2 sst, seandainya mmg 'path' ni yg perlu saye pilih nnt, how i'm going to face this lonely journey alone?

Dear soul ,

I am patience. In stillness, I eternally wait for you to acknowledge Me, your true Self.

In timelessness, I abide. As peace, I repose.

As the sun awaits the flower to turn its face towards its warmth and light, so do I await you.

Viva Palestin

Pagi tadi, di kesempatan yg ada, saya merajinkan diri mengikuti Talk Palestine di Mainhall. Niat hati sebenarnye berbelah bahagi utk pergi atau tidak, sbb sy sudah terlewat. Waktu asal pkul 10 sepatutnye, tp saye ni pukul 10.45 bru terhegeh2 nk hidupkan enjin kereta. tp takpe, saye pujuk hati. Pergilah ke sana, mungkin ade Nur Allah di sana. siapa tahu ye? :)

Rezeki, saye ingatkan saye terlambat. Rupa2nya, sebaik saye smpai moderator bru nk memulakan acara. mungkin acara sblm tu diisikan dgn slide atau hal2 lain. Wallaualam. Syukur. 2 ahli panel jemputan, Pak Mustafa aka Pak Mus, ketua coordinator pasukan aktivis dr Malaysia ke Gaza dan saudari Ismah, coordinator mahasiswi Relawan utk Gaza (maaf jika sy tersilap info atau tersilap tulis). Setiap pengalaman yg dikongsi oleh Pak Mus cukup berkesan utk saye dan semua pendengar. dengar bukan sekadar dengar ye, tp take note dgn bagaimana muslihat musuh Islam itu.

Kisah Marvi Marmara, kisah penahanan mereka oleh tentera Israel, kisah perbualan Pak Mus dgn seorang sosialis Israel yg dihantar sms mereka dlm tahanan, kisah bagaimana nyawa mereka antara terus hidup atau mati syahid dan kisah bagaimana sukarelawan2 ini even dari bangsa2 asing membuang jauh kepentingan diri sendiri demi org sekeliling. Juga bagaimana tentera Israel menjadi lanun antarabangsa, seolah2 undang dunia mereka yg punya. Kejam dan penuh kekejian. Tapi, takpe..janji Allah itu benar. ayat2 Allah dalam Al-Quran itu benar. kerana iman yg membara dlm hati rakyat Palestine itulah yg membuatkan mereka tidak gentar utk terus berjuang. moga syahid dan syurga Allah milik mereka. aamin. :)

Dan ingatlah pada ketika hari org2 kafir dihadapkan ke neraka seraya dikatakan kepada mereka," Kamu telah menghabiskan rezeki yang baik utk kehidupan duniamu, dan kamu telah bersenang lenang menikmatinya; maka pada hari ini kamu dibalas dgn azab yang menghinakan, kerana kamu sombong di bumi tanpa mengendahkan kebenaran, dan kerana kamu berbuat durhaka, tidak taat kepada Allah."

[Al-Ahqat:20]

Goodbye part3

br balik jumpa SV. dissertation ade sikit kena baiki. sweet la SV saye ni. walaupon selalu gado n bertekak (even dlm emel pon), tp die tetap baek. syukur alhamdulillah. hehehe. tp bila nk g jumpa SV ni, mest dalam hati start nk serabut n dalam kepala susah otak. bila sembang ngn SV psl tu, mula la sy xnk pndang muka die. i noe, he put hope in me. dalam mase yg same sy terikat dn penaja saye. dan juga dalam mase yg sama, jauh di sudut hati ade keinginan utk pergi. sume ni buat jiwa saye tak tenang. ape2pon, ni semua ujian Allah utk saye, yg mane Dia nk tgk sejauh mane sy boleh berfikir secara rasional dan bergantung pd Dia. 0' Allah...

on the way balik, sy jumpa seorang lecturer ni, Ir. I agak baik dgn saye. Die tnye dh dpt keja belom? sy sengih sambil geleng. tunggu result SI. act, sy tak fikir sgt psl keja skrg ni, unless employment dgn PETRONAS je. kalo keja company len, sy tolak tepi dl. bukan bermakna saye kejar duit or tak pndang company kecik2, tp sbb bg saye selagi PETRONAS x kuarkan result SI, selagi itula sy terikat. mmg org ckp, to keep ur in save, at least u dh ade keja standby. kalo x dpt PETRONAS, then go for that job. ok, sy agree sgt2. sbb dl pon sy fikir mcm tu jugak. :)

cume, skrg ni plan saye mungkin berubah. MUNGKIN. dan saye tak tahu bagaimana corak mase depan saye sbb saye hanya merancang, tp hakikatnye perancangan Allah itu juga yg terbaik. back to my story with lecturer tu, Ir. I suggest saye utk accept that offer. he said, go for it. tp sy btaw sy berat hati unless saye dpt continue my sponsorship with ***. Then, he asked my to aply under UTP, or shoot emel to Tn. Rector, asking for his support. *ngeriii bunyi. i told him, i' m scared. Ir. I ckp, dlm hidup ni...utk berjaya ade 3 mnde yg kt kena consider. fear,guilty and ego.

fear- to gain success, u have to let go all ur FEARssss

guilty- u have to avoid having this feeling..

ego- u have to take it away...try to look for people below ur level. sbb if u kept on continuing be at ur position, smpai bile u xkan belajar.

die buat saye terpk. termenung. wut should i do??? ayah ckp if x dpt schlar ***, then u should focus on wut u have right now. cume, backup plan saye, in case xdpt employment (which i really hope Allah sediakan tempat utk saye), then i'll go to that place. psl sponsorship tu saye akan usahakan mcm mane. tgk la...

things always complicated for me....

ttb saye suke gmbr ni, tp bukan pd words tu.

gmbr tu mcm keadaan sy skrg hehe...perlukan O2 utk bernafas...hehe

Goodbye part2

ni chapter ke2. "goodbye part2"

saye tulis kali ini sambil dgr lagu Cinta Terakhir by Aiman. u see eh, dgr lagu jiwang, maka mode jiwang. ceh. erasa cepat dari melarat haha. act, saye tak pasti perlu tulis ke tak kat sini. tp cukuplah sekadar penghargaan dan terima kasih dr saye utk buku tu sbg hadiah hari jadi yg ke 21. cerita lama x payah ungkit sbb ia telah berlalu. mende2 yg dah lepas ni, bg saye bila dh jd sejarah...xkan same walau diulang kembali, even dgn pelakon yg same. maka biarkan ia menjadi sejarah selamanya. harap anda memahami, menghormati keputusan saya dan tidak lagi mengulangi perkara yg same. sekian.

baiklah, bukak subtopic baru. hee, lps present FYP, terasa sgt2 lega. syukur ya Allah. syukur sgt2. skrg, ni lps sorang2 member wish goodbye, sayonara la bla..bla..nak xnk terpaksa terima. itu kenyataan. msing2 ade haluan hidup sendiri, hala tuju. ade cita2 dan impian yg nk dicapai. mse convo nnt, insyaAllah jmpa. tp, terdetik saye pd hati...wujudkan saye pd convo nnt? sy tak janji saye akan dtg. mungkin dtg mungkin tak. wallaualam. x tahu dimana saye akan berada mse itu. moga2 Allah pnjgkan umur utk bertemu kembali. bila, di mana dan bagaimana...saye tak tahu :)

org len sibuk nk balik, sibuk packing...kepala saye sarat utk pk 3 mende ni. semua berkaitan dgn sama depan. sumenye penting. sumenye impian saye. ade satu tu, impian sejak form2, ade tu impian sejak darjah 2 dan satu lg tu sejak msuk UTP. 2 dari impian tu bertembung antara satu sama laen. perlukan saye utk buat pilihan secara waras. accept or not? yes or no? susah kan kalo soalan minta jwpn mcm ni. walaupon probability utk betul dah 50%. saye hanya ade beberapa minggu utk buat keputusan. beberapa bulan lagi utk pergi kalo saye mahu. entah...saye dalam dilema! ya Allah, tlg saye. berikan yg terbaik.

cantik x tempat ni??? ttb je letak gmbr ni. btw, saye suke... :)

Goodbye part1

*penulisan dlm bahasa melayu & bercampur english secara formalnya

kalo ikut tarikh asal, post ini ditulis pd 2june, tp keep on save as draft, arini baru betul2 tulis which on 8th June 2010 :)

Kehadapan Diari,

Sungguh saya tak sangka 5 tahun perjalanan hidup saye di UTP ini berakhir juga. Bemula pd Julai 2005, kali pertama menjejakkan kaki UTP,konon penuh lagak dan semangat berkobar2. tengok kiri kanan semua kawan2 'berabuk speaking', paksa diri speaking jugak. padahal hentam sahaja. haha. bajet budak bijak, masih ingat bila org tnye ape2, konon tahu semua mnde. tipu la sgt. ok, itu zaman kecik2 dl. zaman budak hingusan. zaman semua org mula2 masuk UTP cakap 'english dialek kalah Mat Salleh betul, dan zaman itu semua org berlagak poyo hehe. maafkan saye ye kawan2. :) :)

Dulu, hidup di Old V5, Block Tembungo. (cantik x nama?klasik gle hehe). walaupon kat situ jauh dari hiburan, agak2 terpencil, tanpa internet 24/7, tanpa cafe makanan yg best, jauh dari dewan kuliah dan terpksa menapak ari2 tapi tetap gigih juga habiskan zaman foundation dgn gembira. bila ingat balik rse seronok jugak stay situ sbb mcm satu batch kat situ. bila lalu depan Block Duyong, mesti akan dengar org nyanyi lagi Ruzana. rasenye sume girls yg lalu situ kena. rindunye nk dgr suara katak pnggil hujan lgi.ahaha. malam2 melepak dan study kat cafe beramai2 smpai 2, 3 pagi. sbb IRC bukak sampai pkul 11.30 je study week. pelik betul mse zaman foundation dulu, pointer tak pernah nak jadi gempak walaupon study tahap dewa. mungkin mase tu tak pndai lagi nk tackle care belajar yg betul. hehe dan yang paling seronok bila masuk 1st year pointer resume balik jd 0.0 :) *yeay*

Pernah merasa duduk di V1 satu semester. V1D. kat sini, xdelah istilah terperuk sgt. sbb dekat dgn dewan kuliah dan bank. cafe USM pon masakan sedap (kalo nk compare dgn old v5 dl). dan kat sini dah dpt tgk dunia luar sb ader internet daa. owh, seronok sangat!

Buat Diari,
Tahun pertama di Uni dapat merasa tinggal di Village 5 K. 3 tahun di situ. dan bermulalah hidup sbg budak jurusan mekanikal. setiap semester bermain dengan subjek2 yg 'menarik'. bermula dgn Statics & ETECH, mase ni dpt pensyarah kacak: Mr. Sanif dan Mr Fadhil. belajar dengan semangat. lepas tu sambung dengan Mechanics of Machine, Dynamic, Solid, Vibration, IMSE, haa, dah lupe subjek2 zaman dulu.hehe. pernah buat formula sendiri dulu iaitu kalo nk dapat result tinggi, mesti minat pensyarah.

lecturer ensem + lecturer cun = score exam!!!

bijak tak? tapi formula tu tak boley pakai la. buat seronok2 boleh la. hehehe. bila dah besar baru la tahu mcm mane nk dapat pointer tinggi. mest rajin. mesti fokus dalam kelas. mesti buat sendiri kerja rumah. hahaha. zaman jd 'undergrade' paling seronok walaupon cos Mechy ni byk gle kerja. project tak pernah habis. tiap sem ade. tp best sbb dari situ tambah kawan baru. dari situ belajar tak tido malam. dari situ belajar stay up kat cafe sampai sahur! seronok babe.

Diari sayang,

alahai, tipu la kan kalo sepanjang 5 tahun belajar ni tak pernah men2 dgn soal perasaan kan? mesti ade. crush situ sini. hehe. jeles sana sini. bagi saye, semua ni puppy love. cinta zaman kanak2. sbb jiwa budak2. tapi ade jugak yg kekal kan. hee, bagus2x!! apepon, saye? masih ingat pesan mak sebelum masuk UTP dulu. datang UTP mesti utk belajar. jadinye, saya hanya memandang cinta dgn rase sepi walaupon perasaan itu pernah ade dalam hati. maafkan sy. xpe, ada jodoh kt continue utk serius. (tp, dgn sape? hv no idea,agaga) hahaha. lawak lah! apepon sy menamatkan zaman undergrade dgn status 'single'. *yeay lagi*

Diari sayang,

kawan datang dan pergi silih berganti dalam hidup. yg pernah wujud, akan selamanya wujud. walaupon ade yang buat 'onar', takpe saye maafkan mereka. kenapa? sbb mereka adelah org yg pernah sama2 gelak dan menangis dgn saye. mereka adelah yg terbaik. tetap menghargai!

kalo sstgh org, zaman sekolah je ade adek2 angkat ni. tp bg saye di sini pon ade. tapi xdelah nk declare adek2 angkat ni. cukup la kt rase mereka sentiasa dekat dan sentiasa ada di sisi. adek2 ku, akak dah nk blah. belajar rajen2. ilmu semata x cukup, tapi pengalaman hidup tu yg paling bermakna. macam mana nk cr pengalaman hidup? x semestinya dgn sentiasa keluar ipoh, lepak sana sini...sbb akak xde pengalaman sebegitu sepanjang 5 tahun di sini. pengalaman dtg melalui kesusahan dan air mata. mungkin kt tak rse kt perlukan skrg, tp sebenarnya itulah yg akan kt guna pakai suatu hari nnt. :)

Diari manis,

org kata zaman belajar adelah yg paling manis. betul. x tipu. skrg, bila dah abis semua, mula rase bosan. FYP yg buat senior2 x tido malam pon dah xde. tido malam tanpa gangguan ape2. aish, dah xde mimpi ngeri. mid sem test, quiz, projects, assignment, dan final exam, register course, add drop subject, slip exam, semua dh takde. habis. sume dah berakhir. yg tinggal hanya semua kenangan yg bila imbau balik buat sengih sorang2. that's uni's life. so beautiful, so wonderful!

baiklah, cukup la kali ni. ade idea sy tulis lagi. ade lagi sebenarnya. kena buat by chapter ni. hehe. ini gmbr kelas terakhir kami. lps paper corrosion. semua muka gembira x ley blah :)

kredit to Humaizi for this pict

Mainhall...di sinilah ktorg mula2 jejak kaki 5tahun yg lalu, pada satu tarikh manis dalam bulan Julai 2005. dan di sinilah akhirnya kt menamatkan kertas terakhir pd 1 Jun 2010. 5 tahun babe, tp mainhall ni x pernah berubah. org yg keluar masuk je yg berubah dan kt adelah salah seorang dari mereka :)

friends, u create music in my life...so lovely

identity

saye tak mahu die tahu sape saye sebagaimana saye tahu die siapa...so, org yg berkenaan, pls keep my identity. hehe. tu syarat sy letak utk berkawan dgn die. NOKTAH

ayah, happy birthday!

he is my hero...

happy birthday ayah...this time, i kalah dgn my sis. sbb die dulu yg wish ayah.aaaaa T__T

tp act, sy mmg kalah tiap2 tahun sbb every year my sis akan remind me bile birthday my parents. i m not good in memorizing birthday org. nsb bek ade 2 org adek beradik je. kalo tak, jenuh sy nk hafal sume birthday.hehe.

i noe my dad tak kan bace blog. i noe my dad tak penh tahu ape yg sy tulis kat sini. but m pretty sure my dad faham dan tahu perasaan anak dara die ni walaupon sy tk pernah btaw die ape2. agak2 kalo sy tgh dilamun cinta, ayah ley detect tak? i guess yes he can cume, die buat tak tahu sje. tunggu sy bgtau die sndiri secara officialnye. :) :)

act, honestly, frankly, ayah la semangat sy nk belajar. with mak by his side. having both of them, sudah cukup buat sy utk rse disayangi dan dihargai. yes, i admit, sometimes i feel lonely without having bf, tp dgn adenye mrk ni, sy rse sudah cukup kasih syg. sudah cukup buat sy bersemangat utk belajar di saat org len dh rase mls. alhamdulillah.

ayah, jarang berkata2. tp setiap patah ayat yg dikeluarkan mmg berkesan di hati. sy xperlu teguran secara formal. ape yg sy perlu hanyalah keikhlasan dalam luahan tu. dan ayah ade sume tu. ayh seorang yg perfectionist, very cerewet dlm soal kekemasan, very strict dlm bab2 smyg, very strict dlm bab2 pakaian...but he's so gentle in the way he raised both of us. ayah jrg marah, tp sekali die marah, abis laa gunung berapi. sume tu saye warisi dalam diri saya. beware!hehehe

ayah, my PA sejak dr kecik smpai besar. org yg selalu teman sy shopping kat kbmall (smpai skrg), org yg selalu pilihkan jeans utk saye, org yg selalu pilihkan kain utk baju raye saye, org yg pilihkan kemeja (utk interview) dan org yg akan sy rujuk dlm ape2 hal. having ayah dlm setiap mase, tak bermkna sy adelah org yg tak reti nk buat keputusan sendiri. cume, sy mahu belajar dy ayah. bagaimana ayah buat keputusan. ayah, adelah org yg tak kan sy belakangkan dlm ape2 jua hal. :)

jiwa sastera dlm diri ayah, yes did inherit them. sifat ayah yg ley buat semua mnde, tu yg sy jeles. ayah bley lukis plan rumah, ayah bley buat wiring, ayah ley buat rumah batu, ayah ley beki n jd mechanic beki kereta, ayah ley ajar sy psl mechanical even ayah bukan blajar engineering sbb ayah ajar sastera, ayah ley latih sy smpai jd best pidato negeri, ayah ley sumenye. dan sy berharap sy dpt jd mcm ayah. sy tk kisah ayah sy bukan Dato' , menteri, Tan sri, org kaya...sy tak kisah. sy tak kisah rumah kami kecil. rumah kami rumah kampung bse je. sy tak kisah sy pakai kereta lama ayah pegi keja (wpon mcm2 org kate), sume sy tak kisah sbb bg sy ape yg ayah bagi, itulah yg sy akan terima. rumah kami kecil, tp besar dgn kasih syg. rumah kami rumah kayu, tp tiangnye bertongkatkan dgn seribu harapan.

thanks ayah. sbb jd ayah kah selama ni. terima kasih utk segalanya. moga Allah tunaikan impian ayah nk tgk kah dpt yg terbaik mase grad nnt. insyaAllah. moga Allah pnjgkan umur ayah, spy kah dpt belikan sst utk ayah bl dh kerja. moga Allah bg ayah kesihatan spy kah dpt bwe ayah ngn mak jalan2 bl kah dh keja nnt. moga kt terus bahagia, smpai ke syurga ALLAH.

special note: jika kah jumpa org mcm ayah nnt, then at that time i will tell u dad that i m ready to have my own family :)

dia dan..study to the fullest!~

i dun noe, betol ke ayat title my blog tu. study to fullest. men cekup jek..rsenye selama ni dgr org ckp life to the fullest (ye ker..m not sure gak la) -___-"

seyes, so penat ok, exhausted! study dr kol 9 smpai 6 smbung lagi mlm. behnti sbb tido or g kaco org. spend the whole time kat library. ni sume pasal gara2 test 2 yg sgt la x memuaskan. sudahnye kena study tahap ape ntah. mcm skrg! petang bekejar cr lecturer, awal2 pgi gelabah beki report FYP. x siap2 lagi. ahaha. life, u'r such 'beautiful' :) :) mlm ni pon i dh takde selera nk makan nasi. hilang nafsu makan. myb too tired! at last beli roti planta 2 biji ngn roti john. ngn minum milo panas. tula dinner saya mlm ni.

ok, kuar topik jap, td, mse study, ttb saye rse sungguh sedy. nasib baek x menitik air mata. ceeh, eh betul sbb depan tu adelah ssorg. mula nye otak saye ok jek. tp up to 1 point, gle sayu. mcm2 perasaan wujud. ntah bape kali saye bace doa mse study. mst kalo org tgk, pehal la minah ni. kejap2 bace doa. taw sy mintak ape? minta Allah bg kekuatan. sy x kan tukar utk g study meja len. sbb tu menunjukkan sy ni coward. n sy xnk kalah dgn perasaan. mcm2 sy buat psg lagu kuat2 la...buat2 busy la. sume x berjaya. sehingga la, sy pasang surah sajadah. sy dgr berulang2 kali. smpai sy rse boley senyum. dan saye mmg senyum sbb hati time tu mmg tiba2 jek tukar jd kuat. x rse sedey, tp rse happy. hebatkan kuasa ALLAH ni. alhamdulillah :)

lps tu, ntah la ape nye perasaan bertukar jd mcm nk tolong die. nk tolong ape tak taw.haha. pelik2. mmg sy x suke die dl. DULU. skrg, sy mintak Allah pusingkan hati sy utk sayangkan die. pelik? mmg saye pelik. KA ckp reverse psychology. kalo org x suke kt, kt jgn la x suke org tu. mest reverse. then, sbb tu la mst sayang dan suke die. make sense tak? hahaha. kalo korang x faham ape yg sy merapu2 ni, then anggaplah ni terkuar topik jap :)

die ade paper ptg ni. then i asked someone utk convey my regards and wish that person goodluck. i dunt noe impression that person if die tahu saye...ntah, sy tak kisah. mse nk kuar ptg td, g makan, sy pndang CH. dalam hati ttb terdetik, "dik, akak doakan awk boley jawab. yes u can do it. insyaAllah.." huu, jarang nk ada terdetik mcm ni kecuali pd certain2 org yg rapat dgn saye. dan tuan empunya diri tak pnh tahu bila kt buat mcm tu. haha, it just a way that i want to do and yet it make me happy. hehehehe...

owh yer, i jumpa satu buku best kat library, A step to Nowhere. sy nk pnjam tp rse dh terlmabt sbb sy nk buat clearance dah. so sume mnde tak ley pnjam. saye jap bl sebut psl ni. mse dh tak lama....T___T okla, sy rse sy kena stop. sbb almost 8.13pm. need to go to irc. till then papai~

Her

just entered the back door with nad and suddenly realised that 'tudung' already berbasuh. masih menitik2 lagi. i smiled as i thought she was here. and i was looking for her small slippers, but its nowhere. ???

then, i pm her rumet...asking for that question.

me: ur rumet dh balik?

that girl: lom esok katanye

me: nape tudung die mcm berbasuh? T__T

that girl: haha, sy yg basuhkan. nape? akak rindu die ker?hikhik

me: T___T

owh, yet, she's not around. again...it just a hope, wanna share with her something. xpelah, that's what i told myself. somehow, i realised 1 thing; i dont have much time left for her...even she'll be ere tomorrow since most of my time- in irc! but, i'll always remember her all the time.insyaAllah..that's all. pen off. wslm...

5i's......

Starfish...its have 5 legs. legs ke hand??i think both incorrect.haha..rays la darling. forgive me ok? 5rays represent us. 5 of us. this is my last study group. and i enjoyed having them around. so do u guys aite? Nad, fikri cikgu, fikri wahi and pijan...thnks for being here, together with me. i used to call them our 5 i's. hehe..ni gara2 pengaruh cte 3 idiots. :D

and, we tried to implement ape yg ktorg dpt dr that movie tu during our discussion ni. i noe its late already, but at least we tried. cthnye:

somebody are trying to memorize the answer..the some other will say,

"weh, weh, ko nk jadi Chatur kaa??kamon2, jgn memorize...try to understand babe!kang kalo ko memorize, ak tukar ayat jd mcm speech Chatur tu baru tahu...hahahahah"

when somebody try to ask,

" weh, yg ni k xkuar exam kan..xyah r bace r..."

then, some other guy will said,

" 3 idiots, are u? haha" :P

some sort of conversation and jokes are playing in the air....full of excitement, must i say. if there is anything yg ktorg x fhm, akan kuarla demo2 (still mcm Racho buat kat dlm cte tu), and one of the using my tumbler which they used to name as resevoir! we used it as an analogy for suction and discharge in Facilities studies.

one thing that i cant forget, last nite..i was too sleepy after having 2 round jog at tasek-alone! mlm tu mse dicussion, we used to discuss psl types of corrosion and past year exam. it almost 11 plus plus as my eyes dh merah2. at that time, i was trying to explain psl galvanic corrosion. sekali without i realive, terkuar psl intergranular corrosion :D (see, how i dh mix up all those thing) dak2 ni wat bodo jee, lps tu baru dieorg ckp, " ko dh kuar topik weeei...hee" -___-

all of us :)

hurm, wut i did tell here is not like to bangga or riak ape2 psl ape yg ktorg buat. pls dun misunderstood eh. it just some part in the last chapter of my stories. wut i learnt, somehow we can never imagine what will happen in our future, whose gonna be our friends, whose gonna be close to our heart. neither of us can tell or predict. we just hope for the best. insyaAllah and THANK YOU Allah for giving me these people in my life. hoping for the best in win-win situation. may Allah grant us with success. aamin.

5i's, we are on our road to success~

apart of 3 idiots...

today, i went to IRC- alone! haha, but i doesn't bother me at all. sorang pon ok pe. mayb dulu berdua. but if one is better than two, why should i choose for two? (ayat sarcastic di sini) :) ;)

library quite cold. for me its is freezing sbb xdak sweater. so, i cant focus sgt. next tyme i should bring all stuff dtg library.

honestly, its not about cold or freezing yg membuatkan sy x ley fokus. but, spirit and courage yg ntah mcm dh pudar sikit2 ni. gap 8 hari ni supposedly dilihat as one advantage tuk fokus, study sume. but, trust me babe, its not easy. otak ke lain, mata ke lain. pendek kata susah sgt nk fokus. 12.30 sy balik. plan to come again ptg nnt for discussion.

meet fikri utk amik notes facilities. i just nk check mine. rse mcm quite incomplete jek. again, i m not really in good mood to study. T__T. somehow, ttb ade satu intention dr dalam: 3 IDIOTS!!! ok, gerak hati mahu tgk cerita ni. sambil taking lunch, ape salahnye layan muvie. fyi, sy jenis tak setia kalo bab2 layan series or muvie ni. as i mentioned in previous2 post, sy suke skip2 cte which means sy x kan tgk one by one. so, even kalo filem tu adelah 23 episode mcm Adamaya, i can simply finish it in 1hours! hehe...sbb i byk skip...malas nk layan sgt. next tyme bila tak buzy boley la kot. hehehe

ok, talking about this movie: 3 idiots. rating sy bagi 5/5. amik ko. kali ni, sy tak skip any part. tgk smpai habis hingga sy cancelkan my plan nk g irc, (kebetulan nad ade keja td, so study grp cancel). sy suke movie ni, really inspired me. haa, Allah ni hebat la. tgh2 sy down, xde mood nk study...Dia bg sy intention layan cte ni. Alhamdulillah. Sy selalu berdoa spy Allah kurniakn hidayahNya dlm setiap langkah. tgk movie pon ley dpt hidayah???haaa, part yg tak elok tu xyah la tgk! heee....hidayah Allah boley dtg dlm mcm2 cara...insyaAllah. ok, back to the movie.

Life is all about listening to your heart and chasing your dreams. That's the essence of 3 idiots. the rest of synopsis, ley bace kat sini. dan yg penting sekali, belajar bukan utk jawab exam semata.

"Rancho said, knowledge is increasing verywhere-where ever you get it, gain it!!!"

Hey Raju, we'll study, with complete dedication we will study, but not only to pass the exam...

some great scholar has said, never study to be successful, study for self efficiency. Dont run behind the success, follow behind excellence..success will come all way behind you..

**********

then, i think that's the root...where we should begin and where we should end. Allah, thanks for this intention...ade 2 papers lagi utk saye realisasikan impian. May Allah bless me....and friends.

i asked my rumet...can i be apart of 3 idiots??? then she said, "awaklah.." and she laughed...hehehe ^__^

a day i need u

1st view i did have this morning. is it nice, isn't it? Maha Suci Ya Allah dlm menciptakan setiap sesuatu dgn penuh kesempurnaan. Semuanya indah dan terbaik. Subhanallah...i wish to be in this pace...all the time. ^__^

2 papers down, with 8 days gap buatkan sy jd nak maen2 plak. rse mcm dah grad fasa 1. pdhal 2papers coming ni subject major n minor saye. both 3 credit hours. ops, ade FYP presentation lgi 4th June. sgt la terbaik. agak2 nye..ape yer perasaan bila dh grad nant? is that feeling tu mcm abis SPM 5tahun yg lalu? or abis UPSR 10 tahun lalu? i bet they wont be da same. heee.. btw, seronok dgr kawan2 yg dh present FYP. most of dak2 mechy dh siap sume. i mean, dh present, even ade yg dh siap hardbound dissertation lagi, tunggu nk submit kat SV je. owh...ape jugak yg mereka rase yer bila dh siapkan semua FYP? haha. apepon, jujurnya sy tak pernah nyesal utk present plg lambat. biarlah grad lmbat sbb sy mahu buat yg terbaik spy sy tak nyesal. definitely sy tak nyesal lngsung pilih utk lmbatkan sume ni. thanks Allah for listening my wish. :) :)

haha, dlm tempoh ni...sempat lg melayan series korean2. ahaha...gle, sungguh gle la perangai. addicted dgnPersonal Taste. sbb nye i like the actor. Lee Min Ho berlakon ramai kot org suke. dak pompuan sume suke, including me. pastu layan cte Adamaya. asalnye layan cte ni sbb ramai org pakat dok sebut nk husband mcm Adam. so, tergerak la hati, pesal la dieorg ni nk sgt kat org mcm Adam tu. so layan la sepam dua. Watak Adam tu sweet, gentleman. patutla dak pompuan sukerr. saye? owh, bg saye biasa shj. mmg admit watak die nice, tp he's not my taste la. *ceeh* bg kat saye yg mata sepet, mungkin i melekat. org syed2 ni sy tak suke sgt.. haha. kidding saje. :S

ade sst yg terbuku dlm hati. psl impian dan harapan. antara keinginan dan keyakinan yg kdg2 pudar. perlukan kekuatan tanpa bergantung pd org laen. hanya perlukan Allah sbg teman. tanpa Dia, sy terlalu lemah. tp cube berlagak setenang mungkin insyaAllah. dan satu lg saye perlukan keluarga di sisi. sbg org2 kuat yg memberi semangat.

"Jaga dirimu baik2 ya sayang"

Ayah melakukan itu semua agar saya KUAT..kuat utk pergi dan menjadi dewasa...

p/s: title mcm xde kaitan kalo tgk sekali imbas.... -___-"

i love i care

hidup perlu terus...

dan langkah perlu terus...

impian juga perlu terus

semuanya perlu terus...

esok ade paper OM. semalam mimpi hantu. eei, xbace doa ni. kantoi. or myb sblm tido smlm merapu2 ngn rumet, berbicara psl mase depan. ceeet..hehe. tp, ok gak mimpi hantu, bangun pagi ni dgn rase bersemangat nk study.huh, xtahu di mane interrelationnye. kihkih. :)

bape ari lagi? how many days left? singkatnye mase. UTP, selamat tinggal. T__T

berat sungguh hati nk tinggalkan semua. bilik..org2 tepi bilik ni. adek comey saye yg balik rumah die arini. dan semuanya. sempat ker nk tunaikan hajat2 terakhir di UTP ni?sempatkah???

bila berbicara psl mase, begitulah situasi nye.

i just closed my eyes when all those feelings come cross and try to forget semuanya. mungkin saye bukan jenis yg show off how do i feel, bukan jenis yg tunjukkan secara nyata bila sy sayang ssorg, bukan jenis tayang feeling bl menghargai ssorg sehingga mereka x sedar betapa mereka sgt bermakna buat saya. T__T

betul lah kata2 kawan baek saya dulu dlm surat akhir b4 ktorg tinggalkan zaman skolah menengah dl.

" tkah, pls shows to others how u love them, how u appreciate them.."

Raja, sampai skrg ak tak pandai nk tunjukkan semua tu. wut should i do?

sometimes, i love to keep in silent..buat dunno je mcm xde perasaan. ignore je rumet kat sblh. smpai die selalu confius is she did mistake. nope dear, u x buat silap, i jek yg choose to be silent sbb bl diam ni byk mnde yg berlaku..utk dipikirkan

saye mmg sukar utk difahami...hehe

************

"spring summer fall in winter dreams

those are shinning like a star....

i remember when we were angels

when we dreamed about us

all my days were happy

just like a snowy Christmas

i wish i'd have them always

every step i make writes a story

it is full of the heart

feeling love of my life

and missing friends of my time

i wish i'd have them all... "

p/s: sory rumet x kejut u bukak puasa n x masak spagetti utk u smlm. haha...

marriage seems so interesting!

for ages, i have been asking myself..is that married is just as nice as how most ppl believe? i kept wandering about it, but of cos i ask no one about it coz i know they definitely will replied YES. ahaha, such a naive idea la saye ni! -___-"

tonite, while having OM in front of my lappy... i scroll down and found this interesting blog. link? dun need lorh. i wont share here. i do read it some of the entries (not all of for sure, xde mase nk bace sume), it made me smiled with such a big heart. i found a nice solid answer for my question. owh, dear...it such a lovely day u have. *envy* || *evil grin*||

thanks for answering my question about marriage. well, i think this is my 1st step towards the real life. ahaaa, dun misunderstood ckp ak nk kawen lak. kang tak pasal2 kuar rumors psl ni. it such a long way to go and surely because i just havent meet u yet, my soulmate :) , n insyaAllah this time i wont pick up org-tepi-jalan lagi to be my soulmate. he must be somebody..insyaAllah. jgn alien sudeyyy~ T__T

ceeh, mode jiwang dah. bek off sebelum taman bunga makin besar. haha. nite peeps!

love, tkah~

IRC ku di dapor

like i said before, sem ni kureng pg IRC. cam malas je nk pg walaupon dl zaman xde keta, pasrah gle menapak ke sana. malam2 pon. sorang2 pon.haha. skrg ni, walaupon ade kereta sendiri, terbalik lak perangai. forgive me dad!

mom pon tnye x gi library ke? i said NO sbb i tak suke tandas die. ehehe, n mls nk turun solat kat undercroft coz it takes time. a good reason kot. btw, i prefer to be in my hostel jek. kat maner? hee, kat dapor. presented my new IRC.wheee...woo, ade fridge lgi babe. siap ley jemur kain. irc mande ade tempat jemur kaen :S

and of cos i love to be alone. x suke ade org bl sy study. sbb nye: sy akan bercakap n bersembang n x ley fokus. i feel serabut bl ade org sekeliling. (study dlm gua la tikah weiii). xpe2 sabar. x lama daa nk abis ni.hehehe. dl, sy suke study ramai2. skrg dah x suke. ape punye byk gle perangai berubah. aigooo!

kat sini la sy dok melepak sorang2, plus pasang2 angan2. makan ape2 yg ade dlm fridge tu, bosan layan muvie sat tyme study (kantoi) n tersengguk2 sorang2. haa, semakin besar makin berubah. makin rse want to be alone. erk, adekah ini gara pengaruh cerita CInderall Sister yg sy tengok tu? when she says " i dont need anyone!!" +___+

siap ade bantal utk tidooo.. :D

makanan pon kat sebelah jek, pak guard x saman sbb ley bwe makanan heee :)

so in love

thnx darl for giving me this pict. lurve it so much. dpt je mnde ni terus gugel kat tenet MARA/JPA scholarship for MASTER.Ceeh, ttb je intention ni sbb die ckp "u kan nk g study harvard"

T__T..yup, suatu ktk dahulu impian tu melangit ade. tp bukan havard la, somewhere in oversea. but now, seems to fade away.tsk.tsk.

dh ler angan2 tu. zaman study pn nk abis daa unless if i cont for MA mcm my SV suruh. tp die soh g oversea. so, that's why la i gugel cr scholarship MARA or JPA. ntah, tu dlm perancangan lg. Allah lebey mengetahui ^__^

back to this pict, sy suke sgt lirik lgu tu. meaningful ok bila hayati. the person said, for u to have it whenever rase letih mse study. thnx lurve for understanding me. mse kat SCIPP dl, ramai yg support my aim utk bljar oversea. tp bl kat utp ni, no one else till i meet this person. haha...thnx alot~

pict dr PGB

ttb emel masuk dr PGB. hehe...terima kasih for ur concern. dalam emel tu ade attach gmbr ni, erosion dekat steam pipe GPP4. org yg send tu bg gmbr ni sbb die tahu sy suke photography.

terima kasih yg tak terhingga. terima kasih sbb buat sy tersenyum dgn serabut2 study n meja bersepah2 ni. i like this pict!!! ade seni di situ...^___^

moga kt bersua lg di kerteh yer. doakan sy spy dpt kembali ke sana.aamin

o dear!

o' dear,

thanks for sharing with me dear...

thanks for trusting me all the time...

thanks for calling me with that name...

thanks for being there whenever i need someone

o' dear,

like i told u earlier,

why should i bother about my past where everything has gone,aite?

why must i consider about others feeling when they easily scratched mine easily

why do i need to care about both parties as they are apart from my life

o' dear,

if it is true,

then it is not what i asked Allah as a return

i just hope He grants both of them wif Nur

all the wounds; leave it as scars

and i will try to heal it myself

enough!

o' dear,

seeing u in such pain...

i felt so sorry T___T

what can i do to help u?

to cheer u?

to make u 'forget' the past?

all i can do, spending my time accompanying u study in ......

and laugh with u, shed ur tears...

be strong...pls!

" sesetia malam pd siang...."

pls be strong

" hey lady, i miss you..."

"hey romeo, shut up ler.."

adapted from Ked's story- Hlovate

~please be strong~

adapted from Personal Taste :)

u guys awesome

alhamdulillah...

syukur pd Allah sbb dh present project faci yg ke 2. all our hard works paid in the best way. wut else should i said except praise to Allah. nothing less. ^____^

supposed our group 6 ppl, tp last minute turn to be 5. so kerja quite burden lah. tmbh lg bila ade project 2nd ni. project 1st berakhir dgn jayenye jugak. same goes to 2nd project. for me, i really appreciate this project works sbb kt sume berusaha, we started our work awal2 and last2 tu keja edit sane sini hehe. mmg byk dugaan tru the whole days back then, but its ok. apepon thnks sbb same2 nek turun jumpa lecturer tak kire mase. we did this project bukan stkat utk siap, tp we knew wut we did. and i think we can use it during kerja nnt. insyaAllah.

yosh, left final exam jek nnt. so, lets do our best utk paper facilities. lets make our dreams come true guys. FACILITIES = A...nothing is impossible with Allah by our side :P

nite before presentation

after presentation ^___^

"abg Man, nape xde org recycle flare tu eh? mcm membazir jek dok kuar mcm tu..."

i asked Abg Man mase intern dl...sbb my desk menghadap flare.

"haha, xde org nk take care psl tu...xde org nk buat..tkah la yg buat.."

"tikah???asal tkah plak..."

"tkah la jd org pertama kat M'sia yg buat mnde tu...nnt kaya r..sbb ley reuse balik flare tu"

i still remembered my conversation with Abg Man, once upon tyme before...in 2009. who noes, arini i managed to calculate something bout flare. sbb mase cabut undi aritu, sy dpt flare..night mare kejap sbb i really dun have any idea cane nk dptkan electricity but just having 1 figure which is mass flow rate. well, what i have today bukan bermksd sy dh berjaya nk reuse flare tu cane. the thing is, at least i noe the concept or burning flare using .......... which for this project i try to make it simple as i can yet still can produce some figure yg kalo nk compare dgn technology US pakai tu mmg almost there. alhamdulillah.

to Fikri,

i cant imagine u managed to do ur part very well. siap ader drawing lg for platform. nice job dude! lecturer pon amazed dgn ape yg awk buat. chaiyyok ah. *two tumbs up*

to Pjan,

ko pon same. bl dgr ko nye explanation td, i start to noe that u really understand wut u did. u can provide all explanations from the fact that u have. nice one!

to Azmal,

same goes to u. ak mmg puas hati r dgn ape2 yg ko buat. mmg complete r even dr theory, report, calc, slide sume. haa, ak pon x fhm ape yg ko buat sbb ak x go tru sgt ur part. ceh, mentang2 la ak rse ko nye dh mantap, so x yah nk check.hehe...jgn marahh dow~

last but not least, Azreen...

yeah, thnks alot for teaching me everything. myb awk x sedar, but u really teached me tru the whole period we did these projects. with ur knowledge and experience, u provide us some extra understanding. btw, x sangka ade org ley 'copy figure' awk kan? hehe, tp dieorg kantoi gak ngn lecturer. thnks again and SORRY!!!

korang jgn pk bila sy tulis mcm ni saye nk boost up dgn ape yg ktorg dpt arini. mmg xde langsung niat mcm tu. saye tulis ni sbb if can sume mnde yg berlaku sy nk ltk dlm blog. come on guys, bape ari lg ade utk stay kat UTP. sume2 ni akan left behind jd kenangan kot. that's why saye tulis evrything that we did. spy on one sweet day, i can read this post again and smile sorang2 bl ingat hardwork buat sume ni. one more, i want to say sorry to sape2 yg tnye grp ktorg tp ade yg ktorg x dpt jwb. fyi, mcm for my case, time org kalut2 tnye psl project faci ni, tyme tu saye tlh saket kepala pk for my fyp. huh, i guest u all understand kot sbb when it came to FYP...mnde len tolak tepi r. huhu...

last but not least...thnx guys...thnx alot~