happy

lately...having life with great mode.
bgun pagi mst rase happy. i met new people everyday...lurve it :)
alhamdulillah

saye rabun lah

haih lately terasa mata makin kabur...adekah sudah semakin tua hehe??? power spect tak g check2 lg. kalo dl, without spect i still can see people. but right now, rase mcm sume blur. i really cant figure out who's standing in front of me. tp still berlagak taknk pakai spect. adeh2... ni msuk plant bahaya nih. sure2 kena marah ngn bos...T___T

so i gugel spect td. ops, bukan nk cr spect baru k. saje je nk usya mane2 pattern. tp kan last2 mst tngan gatal nk click kat yg old skool nye. yg bingkai tebal jugak. hee hee. i noe2, mom n sister will marah2 n bising bl tgk i pakai spect ni. i noe i noe...tp i tak plan n tak terpk nk pakai lenses, sbb mcm cerewet jek. dah le sy ni jenis pelupa suke letak merata2...not suit me at all lah pakai menda alaah tuuu. dan lg satu org pkai lense ni adelah org yg mementingkan penampilan jek kot, which is i m not in that type hoho....

i found these....

tp mcm x sesuai sbb i dun like blue hoho..reject~

i like this one, seyes...mcm my current spect. but i think mine nye bingkai lg tebal dan besar :)
tp this one mmg gle2 captured my eyes...*drool*
mcm nk tukar spect amk yg ni jek.seyes2...ESCADA, i m in lurve~

sy rse mmg kena pg check power ni. mcm gle2 ade increment jek, so no wonder la asek sesat jalan jek. even dok PIPE ni pon, sesat jugak. ish, kalo sehari x sesat kat tempat baru mmg xSAH la org nama atikah ni. parah btui~

bila la saye nk jd cam org len eh, yg jalan x sesat. yg buat ape2 selalu betul, yg teratur, neat n smart. bila eh???dan sampai bila sy akan sentiasa blur bl org ckp ape2?muka cool cam xde ape2...cool la sgt. hehe...

Raya...

Salam...selamat hari raya utk semua dan maaf zahir batin, dunia akhirat. mane2 yg ade berhutang ngn saye tu, kalo utang duit sy halalkan shj. hehe...tp kalo rm 50 above sile jelaskan yerrr...heee. dan sape yg saye berhutang dgn die, sila la tuntut jgn segan2 eh.

alhamdulillah, raye tahun ni sgt bermakna. sbb saye dh keja, tp x dpt gaji lgi. so xdpt lg nk bg duit raye kat bdk2 dtg raye kat umah. sedey2. insyaAllah next yr, dh bley dah mampu utk impian tu. erm, dan raye tahun ni dah xdpt duit raye sbb semua org ingat bl dh keja xyah dpt daa. pdhal gaji xdpt lg n still ask for duit mak ayah T___T. hehe, xksh la semua tu sbb tu dh standard la. tp kan...ade jugak org bg duit raye bl sy pakai alasan gaji xmsuk lg. wheee~

ops, lupe siyes lupe. raye tahun ni special sbb org ramai wish dgn 2 ucapan kat saye. Selamat Hari raya tikah && Happy Birthday...cam menarik dpt ucapan bekembar nih. hoho. 9th September, one day before raye genap umur 23. owh, dh 23 tahun hidup bernafas berjalan atas bumi Allah. cepatnye mase kan? my wish tercapai juga utk start keja at the age of 22. segala puji itu milik Allah. Dialah yg selayaknye dan kt sbg hamba tak mempunyai ape2. we have nothing in this life coz we belong to HIM till end.

wish tuk birthday kali ni tak tersenarai. sama ade byk atau tkde lngsung.hehe. dasyat2. sibuk keja smpai lupa nk pasang angan2 sempena birthday sendiri. kalo ade pon, jdkan sbg rahsia shj. simpan sorang2 is better than sharing wif others coz experience teached me; trust nobody. sbb kdg2 kawan bek sendiri pon tikam kawan dr belakang. tnpa sedar dan tak sngka. tu la jd lgi bendul...hehe. oklah, dh mls nk tulis pnjg2..sbb idea gone. owh, enjoy ur life selagi berpeluang....dan jdlah hmba Allah yg bertaqwa..aamin

my happy family after all. suke sgt pic ni....nk print ltak kat ofis la :) :)

randomness of raye~

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri buat semua. kali ini kt beraya bukan lagi sebagai seorang yg bergelar pelajar kan? mayb ade antara kt yang dah keja, dah ley bg duit raya pon kat adek2, anak2 buah and sape2 jela. wah, mest best perasaan ley bg duit raya kat org len...teringat kt zaman dahulu when sibuk hulur tngan minta duit raya dgn org yg lagi tua. pergi beraya umah org, bukannye nk mkan biskut raya pon, tp nk duit raya! (",)

hurm, just a random update sblm bertolak balik ke rumah mlm ni. balik dgn kak dah, she used to be my sister kat sini. senior UTP dan act ktorg ade pertalian darah belah mak. so kat sini dgn die la tempat menumpang kasih hehe. die pon keja same tempat dgn saye jugak. learnt alot drpd die psl keja, cane nk adapt ngn new life n so on. arini die dh cuti, bselah staff lame kan ley amik cuti. org baru mcm saye ni xde sape nk bg cuti T___T. die tunggu saye balik ofis, then br ktorg gerak. dan mse nk berbuka td pon die yg masakkan lauk. owh, sungguh terharu. g smyg terawih dgn die pon nk lintas jalan, siap pimpin tangan lagi. terasa sungguh dimanjakan ade kakak mcm ni. eh2, xkate plak kaklong sy x manjakn saye. my sis kat umah tentulah lebey lagi care die manjakan saye. huh, ok ok, stop talking about this.

ofis td mmg dh lengang. ley kire ngn jari je sape yg ade. mostly dh amik cuti semlm. lps tu next week straight smpai ahad. tp saye, rse k3 dh kena dtg sini. nilah penangan msuk keja before raya. hehe...td jumpa bos, ade tnye sln tak fhm psl task given. alahai dpt bos yg jenis bg semangat, rase cam best jek wpon bukan senang nk survive kat sini. haha. mcm2 gelaran dh dpt. clerk la, praktikal student la..staff ganti org nk bersalin la..mcm2. hehe. mayb muka 'muda n x mature' sgt kot. bos bg inspiration, he guides me in every way that i need to possesses, ideas, till rase cam kenyang jek dgn nasihat2 die. He trusts me well, so do i kan? ape mksd ayat ak ni???hehe. biar sy jela yg fhm maksud tersiratnye :)

dan dgn muka tak malu, sy timbulkan balik psl sln2 yg die tnye mse chit chat aritu. die kate mmg sln2 yg die tnye tu HR pon marah, pasal ape susah sgt. hehe. he said tu la 1st time die tnye sln mcm tu. saye pon ngadu saying that the questions so and so TOUGH!!! but praise to Allah sbb finally i am here! sume tu kerja Allah swt and sy xnk komen ape2. (its not a riak or ape2 yg sewaktu dgnnye, but i just want to let ya noe that this time interview was much2 harder than SI babe!) mase belajar kt mmg berjoli dgn duit yg PETRONAS bg rm500 per month. lps tu bila dh x belajar, sbb dh terbiasa tersuap dgn duit, kt akan rse mcm kering abis since scholar dh tak masuk. nk cr keja skrg ni susah. mmg bergantung atas nasib tp pd mase yg same academic kena strong jugak. u play play kat U, u kuar nk keja susah la...competition really tough! but again, ingat ALLAH ade. academic saje x cukup. really tak cukup. sbb ape yg kt plan sume Allah yg akan tentukan. how ur day ahead only He noes the pattern of it. you zalimkan org hari ni, esok lusa u tak tahu how Allah akan balasnye nnt kat u. jgn ingat u akan terlepas dr semua tu. never! lagi2 bila dh syirik dgn kuasa selain Allah. cane la nk jawab kat akhirat? u ade wajah cantik skrg belom tentu esok luse mnde tu akan remain. Allah nk balas in a blink of eyes babe. rosak sume yg u ade tu...menangis la br nk insaf...keep it strong tikah. this people will die. u too as well~

ok, i noe i melalut. hehe. sorry! back to story..at the end of session ngn bos i told him..

"Bos, esok sy cukup umur.." dgn muka tak malu.

"Haa, ye ker? Rugila cuti esok, if not bley celebrate..." he smiled saying that, bukan dibuat2 k

"Owh, xpe...xperlu pon sume tu. Bos doakan saye eh, spy BERJAYA!!!~" I made double jerk kat bos dan sengih broadly hoho :)

"InsyaAllah....boley2.."

dan tadi sume org berjalan balik, mengatur langkah dgn rase gembira. everybody was smiling.sbb esok start cuti raya..so do I, without exception. *big smile*

things about raye...randomness:

1. i dun have baju raye this time. i mean baju yg khusus org jahit utk raye. so pakai jela baju yg tak pakai lgi zaman dok UTP dl. jdlah jugak bju raye..huhu
2. i tak terima gaji lagi utk raye kali ni. rse frust sbb br nk plan bg duit raye kat bdk2 T__T
3. raye k2 or k3 dh kena balik melaka sbb raye k4 dh keja
4. 1st tyme parents kasi balik raye ngn kawan, gerak tgh2 malam sbb nk elak jammed. alhamdulillah parents dh start bg kelonggaran. praise to Allah
5. x bli ape2 kuih raye pon utk bawe balik rumah, cume bawe1 kotak kecil dpt mse nk kuar ofis aritu. wat balik yg tu jela...
6. even tak dpt gaji jugak, tp still nk bg duit raye kat anak buah. xkire....hoho
7. raye pertama nnt, umur i jd 23 tahun 1 ari...owhhh~
8. 1st time raye sume org sekeliling wish selamat jalan sbb nk balik jauh. sume org tnye bertolak, balik ngn sape...wah, so so caring la dieorg ni :)
9. i ade 2 org anak buah daa this time raye (",)

"like a jewel in the night's velvet sky, a beacon of hope..."

its ur PRIDE

its about pride...lately mnde ni selalu came across. pride tu ape sbenarnye? where u put your pride? pride and prejudice...tajuk novel as well as movie (if not mistaken lah). mybe right after this i wont let ppl pijak2 my pride, i wont let ppl anggap betapa 'low'nye sy meletakkan maruah yg ade. NOT SUCH WAY!!!

being silent doesnt mean you have nothing to say. it just when u r waiting for a right time to spill out everything. but, promise that it wont turn to be a volcano again. hahaha. such a lame thou. one more thing, bosan tahap petala ke sepuluh pon, i wont text anyone saying how bored i m (just how i did recently). dah2, no more lah perangai lame2. goodbye is goodbye. kang ppl used to say 'terhegeh' which i hate much2. well, ppl never noe our intention, salah buat faham len. then new trouble will come. then i should think bout doing something instead of texting ppl. a new hobby would be nice, ayte?

if Hlovate used to say 'putus fius' then i will used putus jugak. but not fius la for me, prefer putus wayar n fius terbakar.. igniting the spark and flame. burst out.THE END (",)

memoirs of geisha

Memoirs of a Geisha...i used to have this novel previously. but then i lost it as ade org pinjm x anta2. geram jugak but then it is ok. after this i will buy anew lorh since mls nk saket2 hati ngn org. my kazen yg recommended this novel to me, at that time movie tak kuar lg. honestly this is the 1st novel i ever ever fall in love! gle angau bace novel ni. every words written are meaningful. but then i dun want to review the whole plot as u can get it here.

if u read the novel, the plot will be more interesting compare to movie. tp standard la mcm tu. ngn ayat2 penuh bunga n ropol2 mmg wat sy cair di alam fantasi laa. mlm ni layan lagi sekali muvie tu ngn utube. so beautiful, so sweet -____-". citer tu dh gulakan saye nmpaknye.

"..she has been given is not what she wants, as she is forbidden to pursue her own personal desires - namely that of a kindly older man who she has secretly been in love with for years, and goes only by the name of The Chairman..."

"i will lock my heart and saved it for u.."

desires, dreams, and love come together tru out the plot till end. sumeone who lives with it may never feel gives up in every single way he/she encounters. life is about a battle for someone u love, for something u long for...and for something precious that we call as dream.

bekerjaya

sungguh saye tak sedar bape hari lgi Ramadhan akan berlalu. pejam celik tengok langit pndang sekeliling semua muka len yg wujud. dah tak de lg kawan2 yg selama ni ari2 dok gadoh, study same2, g kelas same2...dan x lama lg nk raye~

tp this post, sy tak nk cerita pasal raye lg. sbb itu mende yg 'soon'.masih tak pasti bagaimana ia akan berlalu. sy nk tulis psl current life, current mode, current feeling bla bla...hehe. wktu dok UTP dulu, sy selalu bayangkan and tertanya where am i next Ramadhan???x sangka kan kali ni berpuasa jauh dr keluarga. mula2 puasa ade mak dan ayah. pastu puasa ngn ayah jek(mase ni mak kat KL) dan tyme ni sy belajar masak huuu. lps tu puasa 1 family utk beberapa hari dan skrg puasa sorang2. bukak pose pon sorang sbb akak senior yg stay ngn sy ni keja balik kol 12 mlm tiap2 ari. so, alone la tiap2 ari balik keja. dan kena masak utk diri sendiri jugak. that's my life so far.

bekerjaya? mmg best jd org yg dh keja coz u r no longer stay under ur parents's money hehe. tp skrg pakai duit mak ayah lg sbb gaji xdek lagi.hukhuk. lps ni xde dah laaa. insyaAllah. bila dh keja, semuanye kena berdikari. nk g bazar pon sorang2. nk g shopping pon sorang2. myb utk sstgh org yg stay ngn geng, yg bernasib bek dpt tempat keja sama dgn kawan2 still dpt rase ade kawan utk rely on. but for me? sume tu dh tak wujud. pegi keja sorang. balik keja sorang. kalo sesat pon sesat lah. macam my 1st day keja, i bley sesat utk smpai rumah. dah le terlajak jauh lak tu. nsb bek jumpa jalan balik haha. dan nsib bek keta pakai plat kelate, so kalo drive sekejap ke kiri pastu ke kanan, masuk simpang kuar simpang, org tau dah leeer. huh.

bila di ofis plak...dah x sama mcm jd student when u have friends yg working utk tasks, asgmts yg same dgn ape yg u buat. dan juga tak same mse jd praktikal student when mase tu u takde amanah nk kena pikul. u just buat keja yg SV suruh, assist technician g plant. tlg2 fotostat docs. pendeknye wat keja simple2 jek. dan juga tak same if u jd seeding engnr. sbb u xde specific task yg u kena buat. erm, maksd sy u r not really in that position coz task tu mmg ade surelah kan hehe. like wut i face now, amanah yg quite berat, tp insyaAllah akan cube pikul dan laksanakan sebaik mungkin. sst yg mmg bos suruh u buat utk kesejahteraan sejagat. HAHAHA. ayatku skema tahap apee~

xyah la cte pnjg, tp begitulah scr kesimpulannya. tp kan, 1 masalah yg saye face skrg, bl boley dikatakan hmpir setiap mase sy kena remind diri bahawa saye bukan bdk praktikal! aish, susah betul nk twist status tu. asek terbawa2 keadaan mse intern dl, dan lg satu rse cam susah nk serius. owh, it takes time babe! nk kena pusing balik, ketatkan balik mane2 skru dlm kepala ni spy sedar diri bahawa u r now an exect! ni betul, sy x tipu. seyes. reasons why i'm being this way are: u r the youngest in the club, u r the only 'girl' surrounded with all matured guys, the way u dress up x mcm org yg keja haha coz u still bwe gaye student zmn dok UTP, u talk like a student, u love and laugh for any reason (muka susah nk serius) tp ntah cane ak ley serius mse intervw ngn chit chat tuh....T___T

but, there are some other reasons yg buat u rase u ni act dh keja when all ppl address and respect ur each words, ur welfare sgt2 terjage, when dlm meeting bos asek2 sebut nama u ckp pls take note ur task bla bla...bos reminds other exects soh ajar mcm2 mnde baru, soh bwe u pegi mane2 meeting utk kenalkan u pd sume org, bila GM ckp "that's a big challenge for u atikah as a fresh grad"...bila bos terpksa minta org custom made coverall ngn kasut hahaha awalnye. sbb size comel sgt (",) mcm kelakar jek sbb tula 1st tyme pecah rekod org nk custom-made kat situ. tp nsb bek ade rezeki muat size plg kecik! hoho

tp itulah kenyataannye (ntah ape hakikatnye) bl dh keja. kdg2 rse seronok, kdg2 rse mcm sedey terkenang zaman belajar sbb mse jd student cuti byk. bl dh keja, mne ade mid sem, akhir sem. xde daaah. nk balik jumpa mak ayah pon susah. tp bl keja seronok sbb dpt duit....

i miss this adorable friend kat umah...T___T