ANIS, pengisiannya!

Salam wbt

Just 5 mins update before magrib ok? wut i did for past few days till this weekend?aha, weekdays toksah ckp mmg busy sgt. pg smpai mlm. keja menimbun dan projects coming! hiccups all the way itu perkara normal. nsb bek ade bos yg baek hati, ofismates yg sgt memahami, and wut can i say...having circle of wonderful people.

O my bos...
Sy cube utk jd yg terbaik di kalangan yg terbaik. everyday i count for the dayss. hehe..
n now, i already make u realized how i am differed from others...
sy x ckp, tp bos yg ckp...1st time u meet a person like me :)
a very happy go lucky, a very clumsy, a very ambitious, full of imagination
young lady!

mcm Rebecca in sunny brooke Farm!

if there's ppl kate sy perasan tulis mcm tu, owh pls: I AM NOT. those statements prove how my bos pening nk handle anak buah mcm saye huhu. SORRY!btw, thanks for making me fall in lurve with my job!

hurm, sy terbeli majalah ANIS. terbeli sbb nk pecahkan duit besar. tp ade hikmahnye. byk pengisian. buat saye senyum smpai ke telinga. psl zikir, psl al-mathurat dan psl air mata seorang mukmin. saye menangis dalam syukur. gembira. ade dua ayat yg terkesan di hati....

" kalau terlalu membeku mata, maka pohonlah kpd Allah agar ditukarkan dgn hati yg lain, kerana hati yg ada ini tersangat rosak dan terlalu membusuk...."

kedua..

"sebelum sanggup mendengar ucapan suami yg bakal menyatakan," Daku terima nikahnya..."tanyalah diri," Sudah bersediakah aku?"


dan ini, sy dpt dr seorang kawan, yg sama2 meminati dunia lensa kamera!
May Allah bless u

medal pertama

arini 1st tyme in my life sy dpt medal -___-"

cam kelakar jek... but syukur alhamdulillah. ni langkah yg pertama utk ke sejuta~
thanks Allah :)

dreams to make them true...

Salam wbt

a bit lonely bl sume dh pakat tinggalkan ak. org datang dan pegi, sekejap je kan. Mak n kaklong dh balik. tp next week mak dtg lg dgn ayah, atas urusan keluarga. so, sabar ye wahai hati, kejap je nnt mak dtg melaka lgi :)

last week agak sibuk rasenye (padahal tiap2 mase jadual ak sibuk). ade tu smpai satu mase ade 3 meeting kena attend. mula2 ak rse mcm mane blur n pening2 nyamuk jugak utk pilih. mmg rse cam sume penting, rse sume kena attend. bl consult dgn bos, plih yg plg PENTING di kalangan penting. nk pilih tu bukan suke2 je ley pilih, byk mende nk kena consider n need to think how to recover back yg tertinggal tu. n again, ak belajar tuk buat keputusan sbg seorang yg makin menuju ke dunia yg baru. *pergh*

sepanjang minggu lepas, tiap2 hari attend training. NETBALL. esok ade match lawan industri kat melaka. coach ckp die nk bg ktorg rest 1 week then continue training utk match the whole OPUs kat PERMATA nnt. at the same time, ak nk join team badminton. dl pnh main dkt UTP msuk semi final. hurm, kira ok la tu. tp ak xde raket badminton. raket squash ade la. so, need to buy anew!

x sangka bl dok sini, makin aktif plak ak bergiat. i m doing something for purposes! there's 1000 of reasons for doing so. dan skrg ak rase ak makin dpt nk fokus pd kerja bl semakin sibuk. hahaha. bos ckp, i can join anything asal kerja siap. yosssh! so, nak tak nak ak akan pulun masuk gear 5 utk siapkan sume keja n at the same time attend sume meeting n blaja mcm2 mnde baru kat sini. BUSY...

ak ade satu impian.. biarlah org ckp ak ni berangan n org selalu ckp u cant do best in ALL. mest pilih salah satu. tp ak nk buktikan jugak pd diri sendiri (xyah bukti kat org, nnt RIAK!) that one day, i can be superwoman, supermom n superwife. hehehe. HOW??? Allah kan ade. I have Him to make me strong. insyaAllah. *ckp & tulis senang, nk buat susah. i noe but i will try!*

pray for me!

"jika takdirnya PAHIT utk kita, terimalah sbg ubat"
"...Katakan pd diri bahawa itulah jalan yg ditentukan oleh Allah utk kita mendapat syurga. Maka rebutlah pahala sabar dan redha itu.."

ank kelate di melaka

i m waiting my parents from kelantan...eh silap from KL. ak pon tak tahu kat mne asal usul..ceh, xde2, kelantan tetap dijulang tinggi, xkan hilang ascent loghat pekaknye wpon ke hujung dunie ceeeh. tp org selalu silap meneka when i used "standard bhs" with them. yela, kang ak p guna bhs ibundaku tu, xde sape lak nk paham kan??aigoo..

almost 6 months ak x balik kelate, lamanye mak aih..cane la rupa umah ak tu. ade lagi ayam itik yg selalu jd ak meluahkan perasaan. ade lg ke burung kecik2 yg dok nyanyi time ak nk tido petang.. ade lg ke bunyi cengkerik bl senja malam menjelma...dan masih same ke bau bendang belakang rumah tu? yang paling paling ak rindu my BabY yg konon mak ckp asek bertukar pakwe je. aisey, tp ayah ckp xpe asal anak keturunan comey2.koof koof...ayah ni pon laaa..
*wut so ke-kampung-ngan cerita nih!*

betul rase nk balik betul2x tak tipu. nk sgt. kalaulah ade pintu doreamon tu kan, ak sanggup kilek pitu tu g mane2. x bwe handphone pon xpe.. homesick a little bit, tp perasaan tu berkurang sbb i have alot of ppl to be my new buddies in melaka. they are great, they are nice...sape btaw ak dl org melaka x best?? i dunt think so babeh~

Fly High

o tikah
someday u may fly high up to blue sky

urs truely,
ur soul :)

i dont feel regret~

dear life...

alhamdulillah...last nite, i used to tell someone:

" now, i dont feel regret x pg Ohio, xdpt SLB n xdpt Shell..coz i dpt something yg jauh lg baik..."

at first, i dont feel it suits with my taste.really! somehow bl fikir2 & hayati setiap hari yg dilalui, Allah ganti dgn sesuatu yg jauh lg baik. tak dpt nk ukur. xdpt nk nilai. kdg2 hati dan mulut merungut dan mengeluh. bad habit that i need to erase. i need some rest. and should get some rest. Only for tonite. ONlyyyy!!!

p/s: wanna read harun yahya's collection. TQ!

ketinggian...

dear diary...

weekend olready! wut's fun kan. pdhal x buat ape2 pon. ok, just 10 mins for this blog. will be ok?

scene 1
me: i wanna be a woman...
sis: so, skrg bukan woman, abis ape?
me: kanak2 perempuan yg tak cukup umur...kalo sy dressing mcm woman, ppl akan nmpak sy mcm bdk2 yg cuba berlagak dewasa!
sis: mcm2 la awak ni

scene 2

me: standing beside my sis...ala2 ukur ketinggian.. takde la rendah sgt sy ni
sis: gelak...
me: ada harapan nk tinggi tak?
sis: ada ke?
me: gigi bongsu x tumbh lagi :)
me: ada2.patutla mcm budak2 *sigh*

well, i wish to be a 'woman'. but how? cane sy nk buang perangai childish sy ada ni? adekah sbb sy dikelilingi oleh org yg lg dewasa dr sy maka sy rase plg kanak2 di situ? i really dunno.

well, back to reality..

revamp

sy nak revamp hidup saye......

patah hati? nope!!!

Dear diary

i m sory for ignoring you...for a few days/ months probably! life is so busy. even it's already past 6 months but i still have alot of thing to do. so many and so many until i can be head wire for sometime! i learnt alot try the exercises. report-hantar-reject-buat balik is a normal thing for me! it reminded me to my FYP those days. hahaha. i submitted the report and kena buat balik. even for a paragraph it might took a week!muahaha... but than, i should thanked to my SV for his ketegasssness in turning me to be a somebody.

yes, reaching out the stars, taking thousand of initiatives and be as creative in everything u do! i used to patah hati sometimes, and always to come to those silly thought," why not i just went to ohio last sept? why not i just resigned? why not i be somewhere else?" i m sorry boss for making it these way. tp actually all of these happen bl rse terlalu tertekan! T___T

but then, bl paras glukosa come to normal balance, i start to realize how lucky i am. Allah answers my prayers thru His best way. i found good people here, i meet the right persons who can teach and develop me to be a good person in future. cume, everything depends on me. sejauh mane saye mahu melangkah dan to where i wanna go.

dear diary,

i will always remember those good words. always putting somewhere in my special box. not heart yeaa, sbb ni psl kerja. hahaha. erm, if company ade road map for 5 years projection...i used to have it too! br develop smlm. hehe. but it is for 7 years. i always told my boss that by the end of 7 years, i wanna be a TP. why 7 years? that's a story behind it. since skrg ni mase berlalu mcm in the blink of eyes, i wanna persiapkan diri dgn sst in future, i have to work efficiently. mayb, ape yg sy buat 3 years ago akan berulang where i double up my efforts. org pegi lecture sekali, but i went for lecture twice in a day for a same subject but different lectures. because yg ajar adelah foreigner, so its quite hard to understand their ascent as well as nk fhm subject itself. ppl say i m crazy, haha..who cares...because i have a target to be the best for that subject at the end of the semester. alhamdulillah, i got it...lecturer choosed me as representative for commenting/evaluating their lecturer where the comments will be submitted to the board of international examiners..and ppl pernah depend on me to settle one question. soalan tu susah sgt2..everybody dah give up n time tu we all plan to do it at cafe untill 3 am (if not mistaken)...everybody is waiting for me to solve it...alhamdulillah, Allah helped me...make it easy for me...and at the end of the semester...yes, i achieved my KPI! thank to Allah.

but then all those wonderful moments happened zaman jd student. skrg i m staff. life will never be the same. tp hidup perlu ada cita2 dan impian which will boost up everything. sy akan cube utk menjadi yg terbaik. yes, smlm sy patah hati... semalam saya kalah, but doesn't mean tomorrow pon sy akan kalah. we learnt from the mistake...n insyaAllah, dr ape yg berlaku, kebergantungan sy kpd Allah semakin kuat. alhamdulillah :)