Alhamdulillah

Ya Allah, redhakanlah ak dgn ketentuanMU (T___T)

someone used to tell me
" u already have everything that u want in this life,
u have everything that others haven't"

tp ak x pnh sedar HAKIKAT tu
pls forgive me Allah
Alhamdulillah

artwork-Part1

my 1st artwork :)

lewat mlm

Sudah 1.28 am. mata masih terbukak, terkebil2 sbb tgh memikirkan & mencari idea2 utk task yg bertimbun2. masih di meja, menghadap lappy. esok, sy akan masuk ofis. hidup terlalu kejam kan?

" Mak, kenapa jalan hidup sy tak seperti org laen? kenapa susah sgt?"
" Sbb Allah tahu kamu mampu..."

Sepatah ayat mak buat sy kuat. Thanks mama for making me strong all my way! Tp yg bagi kekuatan itu adalah Allah. Alhamdulillah

Bl sy mencari ssorg utk menjadi guru dan rujukan, si die tidak sudi? kenapa? sbb kisah semalam? atau krn die pk sy mencari alasan spy dpt mendekatinya? owh tidak, betulkan cara berfikir itu. mungkin die xda kredit utk mereply. mungkin die sibuk..mungkin dan mungkin spy sy dpt membersihkan kotoran halus tentang dia yg tanpa jawapan.

atau Allah mahu sy jd lg kuat dr smlm, mahu sy berdiri sendiri utk mencari sesuatu sehingga saya berjaya? saye rase itu jawapan yg tepat. buat dia, terima kasih atas ketidaksudiaan anda yang tlh membuatkan saye lebey baik dr smlm :)

Maka malam ini akan sy akhiri dgn satu impian, spy esok sy akan bangun dan lupakan semua mereka2 yg pnh menyakiti hati, mereka yg tidak sudi dan mereka yg menggunting sy dr dalam. tp syukur sbb Allah selamatkan saye dr terluka walaupon gunting itu tajam berkilat! dan esok adalah hari baru utk sy terus melangkah dgn rase syukur dan bertemankan rase cinta Tuhan serta sabar. Emel2 dl adalah kenangan. smlm adalah pengajaran kehidupan. Esok adalah hari saya seolah2 saya tidak kenal lagi kamu. Wassalam :)

Kawen: Ape yg ak belajar?

Salam wbt

Ak balik ofis ak update blog. mcm mase tu byk. xdelah, mmg mase terhad. tp this is one way utk ak menghilangkan tekanan, rase x puas hati wpon ape yg ak tulis byknye tak berkait dgn ape yg berlaku kat ofis. melalui tulisan kepuasan terzahir!

one of my beloved sis baru balik bercuti dr cuti kawen. owh, so happy to see her smile dari jauh. aii, maklumlah dh kawen. dan skrg byk org nk kawen. dan insyaAllah bakal menyusul sorang lg akak akhir bulan april ni. tp ak xley nk attend since ak nk balik kampung :)

dan tadi kami berkongsi cerita. ok, pls exclude me coz i m not in the loop yet. tp ak nk blah, depa soh ak dgr n antara ayat2 yg ak ingat, " eh, awk kena tahu ni wpon awk bdk kecik lagik!"hehe, mmg pon. xcukup umur lg laa. tp betul la i should know about it jugak! asek pk soal keja jekkk!ok, some of isi2 yg ak bley share kat sini antaranya

ak suke bunga putih! selingan :P

• solat istikharah. owh, rupa2nya byk cara utk solat istikharah ni. dan byk yg ak kena belajar psl ni. pesan mereka, minta Allah permudahkan semuanya. dan kadang2 mnde2 sebegini adalah tak terjangkau dek akal bagaimana ia akan berlaku. Kdg2 mase kt tgh bercinta dgn org len pon kt ley wat solat istikharah, tp make sure perasaan tgh normal., tak bias mane2 pihak. Sebabnya x SURE lagi bf kt tu adelah bakal suami kt nnt. Sebab: perancangan Allah sgt sempurna. kdg2 kt amat mengharapkan org di depan mata atau org yg kt rindu2 itu sbg teman hidup, tp Allah kate BUKAN. bukan die utk kita. Dan Allah pasti akan tunjukkan seseorang yg sememangnya utk kita :)

• bl Allah nk berkehendakkan semua itu terjadi, maka ia akan terjadi dgn sgt senang. Walaupon di saat akhir mcm2 halangan berlaku yg tak terduga. tp bila sampai saat dan detik, lafaz nikah itu akan terlafaz jua. InsyaAllah
  

• Sentiasa mengharapkan bantuan Allah dlm setiap perkara. dari sekecil2 urusan sehinggalah terbina masjid bertungjangkan asas Islam yg kukuh. kalo kt awal2 lg dh buat maksiat, mcm mane Allah nk tolong? Kalo kt dah awal2 lg dah sombong dgn Allah utk minta doa, konon nk cari sendiri semua perkara dan hanya cari Allah ktk putus cinta shj..sombonglah namanya tu!

masa ak tulis ni, yg plg ak terasa sekali point no 3 tu. adeh, mcm kena tampar kat muka sendiri. tp ak akui sbg manusia mmg selalu sgt lupa. tp minta jauh dr perasaan 'sombong' tu. perasaan cinta tu mmg indah, cuma ak keliru dan takut jika perasaan yg hadir itu adalah cinta nafsu semata2. cukuplah, ak dah x tau nk explain mcm mane psl ni sbb ak pon xde pengalaman. mcm mane rase bl kawen tu eh? hahahah *soalan apekah ini%&%*@$#*

Moga satu hari nnt Allah pertemukan sesiapa shj di satu pertemuan terindah dgn cara yg halal. bukan skrg. bukan esok. bukan juga tahun depan. sbb ak pon x tau bila. hanya Allah yg tau, Hebatnya DIA....MashaAllah!ini sweeet!

Kuceng!

Salam...

Ak rase sgt2 pening. mcm2 berlaku dlm sekelip mata plak tu. kdg2 terpk mcm mane Allah nk corakkan jalan hidup ni. nk senang, just follow the flow.tp, bl pk balik xbley mcm tu. Kena ada usaha utk dptkan yg terbaik. kalo sekadar ikut arus, nnt kt pon akan dibawa arus tu. ntah sampai ke mane nnt.

ade org bgtau ak.. ak dh ade sume mnde yg ak nk selama ni. ntah, xpnh perasan pon. tp syukurlah ade org yg tlg perasankan sume tu. bila masalah kat ofis ade mcm kerja yg sgt byk, nk keja dateline sume n dealing with others... rase mcm agak saket di situ. mmg xdpt utk kt puaskan hati semua org. dan ak tak pernah kisah ape2 pon. hadapi dgn berani walaupon org yg ak berdepan tu pangkat lg tinggi dari ak. huh. xdelah, dun wory ak x gadoh dgn sape2 pon. itu hanya cerita dan hikayat.

bl masuk plak soal hati. ni lagi satu hal. kazens ak dh pakat nk kawen. so my aunt n uncle sibuk tnye (mcm post yg lepas la). ofismate pon menyuarakan mnde yg same. kawen? sape xnk kawen? tp ingat, kawen bukan penyelesai kpd masalah tp adelah permulaan kpd segala kehidupan. dan pd usia yg masih 23 ni, ak mmg betul2 x bersedia nk jd isteri org! masanya akan tiba dan persoalan sama ade ak dh jumpa ke tak Mr. Right tu, ak rase biarlah Allah shj yg tau. sbb ak sendiri pon x tau. T___T

mau yg mcm ni. konpem ak liat nk g keja nnt.lol!

ak ade impian yg dh agak lama, suatu ketika dahulu. nk bela kucing bulu parsi yg suke seret ekor lebat ats karpet tebal tuh. mcm mase intern kat PGB dulu ak ade kucing bulu lebat. ceh, berangan ni: pastu ak balik kerja si gebu bulat tu menggesel kat kaki n manja2. eeei, seyes suke. skrg ni ak ade kura2 je. tp kura2 dok dlm air. takkan ak nk masuk dlm air jugak. ak nk bela kucing. dan skrg ak xley nk bela kucing sbb housemate ak x suke kuceng. so hormat la org. tp ak rse pasni ak nk hidup sendiri n ak nk ade life sndiri. DAN AK NK BELA KUCING!tp lps ni kalo ak pg training, sape nk jage kucing ak? hurm... masuk angkut nek flight sekali la. mak ngn ayah mst bising bl ak bgtau plan ak nk bela kucing ni. but i really need something yg ley wat ak happy lps seharian kerja2 kerja. kalo dl kat umah pon mst ak kawan dgn kucing bl ak rse tensen. same gak kat UTP, tensen esemen mst ak akan kaco kucing housemate bela. hehehe

nmpak garang jek! ak nk cari yg comel heee

Note: ak dh start pk tentang mse depan ak...secara serius!

Confirm? Be Strong...

Salam

Just a quick update!

Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah..today i received my official PD as a Reliability engineer after 6 months probation period. Act, dh lebey 6 bulan pon but since our calendar year 2011 br start by this April (this month), so we do have this anew. Nk terkeluar biji mata tgk bulk of amount task that i have to complete within this CY 2011. Last day i have talked with my sis..

" i dah confirm...insyaAllah"
" so, meaning u punye social life dh xde eh?"
" sort of..hahaha"

spontan betul my sis ni buat assumption tntg ak! heheh, but ak patut mengiyakan pon act! Confirm= No social life
Erm, i want to putar that so-called equation to be like this:
Confirm= will have new life + dah bley kawen! yuuhuu~
Ngeee ^______^V

Btw, my cousins dh ade tarikh pon for their weddings. And aunty & uncle sibuk bertanyakan perihal org melaka ni. T__T.. Am I ready? Ak just buat2 x fhm psl tu coz i m not prepared mentally & physically yet! Dont wory lah, insyaAllah..some sweet day i will :)

Back to main topic, I wanna work smart. My ultimate goal: to climb TP's ladder. That's my long term strategic planning while for the short ones: I wish to manage my time well so that i will have more & more time to spend with buddies and family, beloved ones maybe :)

Alhamdulillah..Praise to Allah for everything. What can i do for this while just BE STRONG and have faith in Allah :) :)

YES & NO

its sunday peeps!

dan sume org tahu tu. dan semua org bercuti di rumah atau spending time with lovely ones. dan ak? mlm semlm ak berhempas pulas siapkan trending yg agak memeningkan kepala ak. yg membuatkan ak kepala pusing. Alhamdulillah bl Allah permudahkan semuanya terasa terlalu indah :)

smlm ade dua perkara yg berlaku. ak dpt 1 SMS yg betul2 buat ak gembira n smpai skrg ak rase x percaya. u noe who u are darling! May Allah bless u. dan satu lg, apabila bercerita psl kehidupan masa depan. antara kerjaya, keluarga dan impian. just follow the flow...

ANIS, pengisiannya!

Salam wbt

Just 5 mins update before magrib ok? wut i did for past few days till this weekend?aha, weekdays toksah ckp mmg busy sgt. pg smpai mlm. keja menimbun dan projects coming! hiccups all the way itu perkara normal. nsb bek ade bos yg baek hati, ofismates yg sgt memahami, and wut can i say...having circle of wonderful people.

O my bos...
Sy cube utk jd yg terbaik di kalangan yg terbaik. everyday i count for the dayss. hehe..
n now, i already make u realized how i am differed from others...
sy x ckp, tp bos yg ckp...1st time u meet a person like me :)
a very happy go lucky, a very clumsy, a very ambitious, full of imagination
young lady!

mcm Rebecca in sunny brooke Farm!

if there's ppl kate sy perasan tulis mcm tu, owh pls: I AM NOT. those statements prove how my bos pening nk handle anak buah mcm saye huhu. SORRY!btw, thanks for making me fall in lurve with my job!

hurm, sy terbeli majalah ANIS. terbeli sbb nk pecahkan duit besar. tp ade hikmahnye. byk pengisian. buat saye senyum smpai ke telinga. psl zikir, psl al-mathurat dan psl air mata seorang mukmin. saye menangis dalam syukur. gembira. ade dua ayat yg terkesan di hati....

" kalau terlalu membeku mata, maka pohonlah kpd Allah agar ditukarkan dgn hati yg lain, kerana hati yg ada ini tersangat rosak dan terlalu membusuk...."

kedua..

"sebelum sanggup mendengar ucapan suami yg bakal menyatakan," Daku terima nikahnya..."tanyalah diri," Sudah bersediakah aku?"


dan ini, sy dpt dr seorang kawan, yg sama2 meminati dunia lensa kamera!
May Allah bless u

medal pertama

arini 1st tyme in my life sy dpt medal -___-"

cam kelakar jek... but syukur alhamdulillah. ni langkah yg pertama utk ke sejuta~
thanks Allah :)

dreams to make them true...

Salam wbt

a bit lonely bl sume dh pakat tinggalkan ak. org datang dan pegi, sekejap je kan. Mak n kaklong dh balik. tp next week mak dtg lg dgn ayah, atas urusan keluarga. so, sabar ye wahai hati, kejap je nnt mak dtg melaka lgi :)

last week agak sibuk rasenye (padahal tiap2 mase jadual ak sibuk). ade tu smpai satu mase ade 3 meeting kena attend. mula2 ak rse mcm mane blur n pening2 nyamuk jugak utk pilih. mmg rse cam sume penting, rse sume kena attend. bl consult dgn bos, plih yg plg PENTING di kalangan penting. nk pilih tu bukan suke2 je ley pilih, byk mende nk kena consider n need to think how to recover back yg tertinggal tu. n again, ak belajar tuk buat keputusan sbg seorang yg makin menuju ke dunia yg baru. *pergh*

sepanjang minggu lepas, tiap2 hari attend training. NETBALL. esok ade match lawan industri kat melaka. coach ckp die nk bg ktorg rest 1 week then continue training utk match the whole OPUs kat PERMATA nnt. at the same time, ak nk join team badminton. dl pnh main dkt UTP msuk semi final. hurm, kira ok la tu. tp ak xde raket badminton. raket squash ade la. so, need to buy anew!

x sangka bl dok sini, makin aktif plak ak bergiat. i m doing something for purposes! there's 1000 of reasons for doing so. dan skrg ak rase ak makin dpt nk fokus pd kerja bl semakin sibuk. hahaha. bos ckp, i can join anything asal kerja siap. yosssh! so, nak tak nak ak akan pulun masuk gear 5 utk siapkan sume keja n at the same time attend sume meeting n blaja mcm2 mnde baru kat sini. BUSY...

ak ade satu impian.. biarlah org ckp ak ni berangan n org selalu ckp u cant do best in ALL. mest pilih salah satu. tp ak nk buktikan jugak pd diri sendiri (xyah bukti kat org, nnt RIAK!) that one day, i can be superwoman, supermom n superwife. hehehe. HOW??? Allah kan ade. I have Him to make me strong. insyaAllah. *ckp & tulis senang, nk buat susah. i noe but i will try!*

pray for me!

"jika takdirnya PAHIT utk kita, terimalah sbg ubat"
"...Katakan pd diri bahawa itulah jalan yg ditentukan oleh Allah utk kita mendapat syurga. Maka rebutlah pahala sabar dan redha itu.."

ank kelate di melaka

i m waiting my parents from kelantan...eh silap from KL. ak pon tak tahu kat mne asal usul..ceh, xde2, kelantan tetap dijulang tinggi, xkan hilang ascent loghat pekaknye wpon ke hujung dunie ceeeh. tp org selalu silap meneka when i used "standard bhs" with them. yela, kang ak p guna bhs ibundaku tu, xde sape lak nk paham kan??aigoo..

almost 6 months ak x balik kelate, lamanye mak aih..cane la rupa umah ak tu. ade lagi ayam itik yg selalu jd ak meluahkan perasaan. ade lg ke burung kecik2 yg dok nyanyi time ak nk tido petang.. ade lg ke bunyi cengkerik bl senja malam menjelma...dan masih same ke bau bendang belakang rumah tu? yang paling paling ak rindu my BabY yg konon mak ckp asek bertukar pakwe je. aisey, tp ayah ckp xpe asal anak keturunan comey2.koof koof...ayah ni pon laaa..
*wut so ke-kampung-ngan cerita nih!*

betul rase nk balik betul2x tak tipu. nk sgt. kalaulah ade pintu doreamon tu kan, ak sanggup kilek pitu tu g mane2. x bwe handphone pon xpe.. homesick a little bit, tp perasaan tu berkurang sbb i have alot of ppl to be my new buddies in melaka. they are great, they are nice...sape btaw ak dl org melaka x best?? i dunt think so babeh~

Fly High

o tikah
someday u may fly high up to blue sky

urs truely,
ur soul :)

i dont feel regret~

dear life...

alhamdulillah...last nite, i used to tell someone:

" now, i dont feel regret x pg Ohio, xdpt SLB n xdpt Shell..coz i dpt something yg jauh lg baik..."

at first, i dont feel it suits with my taste.really! somehow bl fikir2 & hayati setiap hari yg dilalui, Allah ganti dgn sesuatu yg jauh lg baik. tak dpt nk ukur. xdpt nk nilai. kdg2 hati dan mulut merungut dan mengeluh. bad habit that i need to erase. i need some rest. and should get some rest. Only for tonite. ONlyyyy!!!

p/s: wanna read harun yahya's collection. TQ!

ketinggian...

dear diary...

weekend olready! wut's fun kan. pdhal x buat ape2 pon. ok, just 10 mins for this blog. will be ok?

scene 1
me: i wanna be a woman...
sis: so, skrg bukan woman, abis ape?
me: kanak2 perempuan yg tak cukup umur...kalo sy dressing mcm woman, ppl akan nmpak sy mcm bdk2 yg cuba berlagak dewasa!
sis: mcm2 la awak ni

scene 2

me: standing beside my sis...ala2 ukur ketinggian.. takde la rendah sgt sy ni
sis: gelak...
me: ada harapan nk tinggi tak?
sis: ada ke?
me: gigi bongsu x tumbh lagi :)
me: ada2.patutla mcm budak2 *sigh*

well, i wish to be a 'woman'. but how? cane sy nk buang perangai childish sy ada ni? adekah sbb sy dikelilingi oleh org yg lg dewasa dr sy maka sy rase plg kanak2 di situ? i really dunno.

well, back to reality..

revamp

sy nak revamp hidup saye......

patah hati? nope!!!

Dear diary

i m sory for ignoring you...for a few days/ months probably! life is so busy. even it's already past 6 months but i still have alot of thing to do. so many and so many until i can be head wire for sometime! i learnt alot try the exercises. report-hantar-reject-buat balik is a normal thing for me! it reminded me to my FYP those days. hahaha. i submitted the report and kena buat balik. even for a paragraph it might took a week!muahaha... but than, i should thanked to my SV for his ketegasssness in turning me to be a somebody.

yes, reaching out the stars, taking thousand of initiatives and be as creative in everything u do! i used to patah hati sometimes, and always to come to those silly thought," why not i just went to ohio last sept? why not i just resigned? why not i be somewhere else?" i m sorry boss for making it these way. tp actually all of these happen bl rse terlalu tertekan! T___T

but then, bl paras glukosa come to normal balance, i start to realize how lucky i am. Allah answers my prayers thru His best way. i found good people here, i meet the right persons who can teach and develop me to be a good person in future. cume, everything depends on me. sejauh mane saye mahu melangkah dan to where i wanna go.

dear diary,

i will always remember those good words. always putting somewhere in my special box. not heart yeaa, sbb ni psl kerja. hahaha. erm, if company ade road map for 5 years projection...i used to have it too! br develop smlm. hehe. but it is for 7 years. i always told my boss that by the end of 7 years, i wanna be a TP. why 7 years? that's a story behind it. since skrg ni mase berlalu mcm in the blink of eyes, i wanna persiapkan diri dgn sst in future, i have to work efficiently. mayb, ape yg sy buat 3 years ago akan berulang where i double up my efforts. org pegi lecture sekali, but i went for lecture twice in a day for a same subject but different lectures. because yg ajar adelah foreigner, so its quite hard to understand their ascent as well as nk fhm subject itself. ppl say i m crazy, haha..who cares...because i have a target to be the best for that subject at the end of the semester. alhamdulillah, i got it...lecturer choosed me as representative for commenting/evaluating their lecturer where the comments will be submitted to the board of international examiners..and ppl pernah depend on me to settle one question. soalan tu susah sgt2..everybody dah give up n time tu we all plan to do it at cafe untill 3 am (if not mistaken)...everybody is waiting for me to solve it...alhamdulillah, Allah helped me...make it easy for me...and at the end of the semester...yes, i achieved my KPI! thank to Allah.

but then all those wonderful moments happened zaman jd student. skrg i m staff. life will never be the same. tp hidup perlu ada cita2 dan impian which will boost up everything. sy akan cube utk menjadi yg terbaik. yes, smlm sy patah hati... semalam saya kalah, but doesn't mean tomorrow pon sy akan kalah. we learnt from the mistake...n insyaAllah, dr ape yg berlaku, kebergantungan sy kpd Allah semakin kuat. alhamdulillah :)

study week kerja-Part1

Salam wbt...

weekend ni agak busy. td msuk ofis half day buat data analysis. half day jela, xlarat nk lama2 sbb perut mcm menyanyi mcm2 lagu daa time tu. balik ptg tido atas sofa dalam sejam lebey, tersadai x ingat ape2. utk makan malam masak simple2 shj, cuba resepi baru dari mak. ape name eh?entah la. rase sedap. ade sayur, ade taugeh, ade ayam dan bla bla bla...

mlm ni sambung study. ade seminggu lg sebelom 'the day'. rase mcm study week shj. teringat zaman study di UTP. mase tu study dgn kawan2. tp skrg study sorang2. dan study perkara yg lagi 'matured' sbb pakai di alam realiti. heehee. bace ISO, standard, nsb bek xde kira2 or formula. erk, jap...ade2. ade formula. kena recall balik.

mlm ni ade cter best, trilogi cinta. mls nk layan anime kat astro, layan cter rosham noor kat TV1 sekali sekala. owh, jiwa org tua saye ni. xpela. once a while :)

antara hati dan keturunan masa depan

salam wbt

really a long time saye tak tulis blog. bukan x nk tulis tp kerja mcm x penh abis (keja mmg tak kan abis pon), so blog tinggal sepi. ntah, bukan x sayang blog. sayang sgt. tp mcm skg life as student bukan lg wujud. kalo dl kena pk diri sendiri shj. skrg mcm2 nk kena fikir. kerja, proposal project, ppl around, mistake..lesson learnt. tak terpk akibatnye

satu hal lagi, kakak ofis selalu bising sbb ak ni mcm xpnh nk fikir psl mse depan. or more specific personal life la katakan. tu lg satu hal. kerja 24/7. dl, rimas gak die dok bebel, skrg msuk telinga kanan, kuar telinga kiri jekkk, hehehe :D

dulu ak perasan ak selalu luah perasaan kat blog. sampai blog ak ade stalker(s) dan sampai ape yg mereka buat kat ak. dl ak takut gak, lps pk2 secara rasionalnye...ak ade Allah kot. buat ape nk takut kan. mereka manusia. pakailah ilmu ape pon, tp ak yakin sgt2 xde satu ilmu dlm dunia ni yg bley kalahkan Allah. stay strong, hadirkan hati dlm setiap detik bersama Tuhanmu...

talking about love, dl ak nk sgt ssorg ni. ak pon x tau la nape. mungkin ak tgk luaran shj kot mse tu. mase die pergi jauh ak rse mcm gelap gle dunie, mcm sedey sgt2. i really hope he will be my mr. right. yg akan sama2 bina hidup dgn ak. but, lps almost 3 tahun berlalu, dan act skrg ni ktorg mmg keep contact, tp jujur sgt ak nk ckp... ak xnk die jd teman hidup ak. bukan sbb die pnh lukakan ak, tp ak rase die tak layak utk dpt tempat istimewa.

kwn2 selalu ckp ak high taste, ak demand...hahaha. mungkin kot. itu dulu, skrg bukan ak desperate ke ape, tp ak tgk dunia realiti. kawen sbg satu ibadat dan kt bukan nk hidup kat dunia shj. akhirat ade lg yg org selalu ingat tp buat2 lupa. ak mahukan seorang lelaki yg boley jd ayah kpd anak2 ak, boley bimbing anak2 ak jd anak2 soleh dan solehah. yg penting sekali boley bimbing ak sendiri. kalo ak tgk pd rupa paras, ok fine, ak akan dpt anak2 yg comel2...tp kalo setakat tu jeee, setakat comel, cantik handsome..tp sahsiah dan akidah tak secomel tu...ape nk jwb? org kate perlu cri keturunan yg bijak2 baru anak pndai2...itu pon ak akui, tp ade jee anak penoreh getak yg jd org hebat, bijak akademik sume. lg bijak dr anak doktor, anak engineer anak pensyarah.

ak akui semua yg ak ckp kat atas tu betul, baka yg baek maka anak2 yg lahir juga baek. tp tu gak bergantung pd didikan mak ayah nnt. kalo future husband ak x mampu nk buat semua tu how can we have such brilliant keturunan (brilliant dr segi iman, akidah, akhlak n akademik)..
sbenarnye bl berckp psl kawen ni kan, scope terlalu luas. bukan hanya nk seronok dua tiga hari, tp more kepada tanggungjawab utk masa depan. tu yg ak nmpak skrg ni.

akhir sekali, ak x kate ak sempurna utk berckp mcm angkuh gle je ni (sstgh org might pk mcm ni), tp ak nk ckp ari ni ak dah tak rase ak perlukan lelaki yg ak pernah jatuh hati 3 tahun lalu. wpon ktorg keep contact each other, tp ak xde hati utk smbung balik ape yg pernh putus antara ak dan die suatu ktk dl...unless die boley fulfill utk jd lelaki yg ley jadi ayah utk anak2 ak suatu hari nnt. ak x ksh laki tu xensem mcm die, xsweettalker mcm die...x romantik mcm die...yg penting....yes he fulfill ape yg ak ckp kt atas tu....

mak kate ak bdk kampung....dan ak akan dpt org sophisticated gle nnt...m(~.~)m

Hikayat

the hikayat was started here...
Sultan Mansur Syah, Hang Li Po,Tuan Puteri, Hang Tuah, Tun Teja and....Laksamana..and the journey continues. Thanks for everything!


credit to Nad, took from her FB :)

new year 2011

Dear Diary,

friday, saturday, sunday and monday- 4 days off. i wish i can go home not in KL but in kelantan. almost 4 months i've been here in melaka, and caused me separuh lemas rindu rumah. just browse plane ticket for airasia and MAS, since last minutes the prices were so much higher. even they are affordable (puasa 2 minggu hehe) but i don't think is a good choice. so, i made up my mind, pujuk diri utk just stay back in Melaka n study on the coding since i need to master those subject! but then, this February ni mmg i nk balik. keja byk ke sikit, who cares? heheh

again, time flew fast as tomorrow i m gonna be 24 (unofficially lah kan). talking about age, by 24 i start to think that i can be called as young lady. even not married yet! i love no. 4 and when it comes to combination of 2 and 4=24....i feel so "heigh ho miss atikah!~" i dont believe how much i've grown up especially when i am walking together with other engineers in yellow suit for a meeting. i felt so alive. thanks Allah.

talking about new year, let me note down some of my wish (azam tahun baru wheee)

1. all my projects will be succeed. sesusah mane pon, i still wish that i can fulfill it till end. InsyaAllah
2. i can be a good muslimah, consistent with my good deeds even i dont have much time to perform yg sunat2 tu. i m still hoping that i can do it. esp puasa every isnin n khamis!insyaAllah
3. i can be a solehah daughter to my parents. will alwys call them even time tu tgh peak ngn kerja n projects. i wish i can as i alwys wish!
4. i may complete my chartered journey as TP or custodian (ni utk jangka masa pnjng-10 years from this moments. but still need first step from beginning.
5. last but not least, i may find my true love...that's a wish and only wish which i dont know how it ends......?

i end with a pict, something precious that i kept in the best place..in my own world. btw, jgn salah sangka, other gifts ( yg korang bagi mse convo tu i kept in some other place, at ofis, atas katil..etc) hehe.. and now, Happy New Year 2011 peeps! May Allah bless.