patah hati? nope!!!

Dear diary

i m sory for ignoring you...for a few days/ months probably! life is so busy. even it's already past 6 months but i still have alot of thing to do. so many and so many until i can be head wire for sometime! i learnt alot try the exercises. report-hantar-reject-buat balik is a normal thing for me! it reminded me to my FYP those days. hahaha. i submitted the report and kena buat balik. even for a paragraph it might took a week!muahaha... but than, i should thanked to my SV for his ketegasssness in turning me to be a somebody.

yes, reaching out the stars, taking thousand of initiatives and be as creative in everything u do! i used to patah hati sometimes, and always to come to those silly thought," why not i just went to ohio last sept? why not i just resigned? why not i be somewhere else?" i m sorry boss for making it these way. tp actually all of these happen bl rse terlalu tertekan! T___T

but then, bl paras glukosa come to normal balance, i start to realize how lucky i am. Allah answers my prayers thru His best way. i found good people here, i meet the right persons who can teach and develop me to be a good person in future. cume, everything depends on me. sejauh mane saye mahu melangkah dan to where i wanna go.

dear diary,

i will always remember those good words. always putting somewhere in my special box. not heart yeaa, sbb ni psl kerja. hahaha. erm, if company ade road map for 5 years projection...i used to have it too! br develop smlm. hehe. but it is for 7 years. i always told my boss that by the end of 7 years, i wanna be a TP. why 7 years? that's a story behind it. since skrg ni mase berlalu mcm in the blink of eyes, i wanna persiapkan diri dgn sst in future, i have to work efficiently. mayb, ape yg sy buat 3 years ago akan berulang where i double up my efforts. org pegi lecture sekali, but i went for lecture twice in a day for a same subject but different lectures. because yg ajar adelah foreigner, so its quite hard to understand their ascent as well as nk fhm subject itself. ppl say i m crazy, haha..who cares...because i have a target to be the best for that subject at the end of the semester. alhamdulillah, i got it...lecturer choosed me as representative for commenting/evaluating their lecturer where the comments will be submitted to the board of international examiners..and ppl pernah depend on me to settle one question. soalan tu susah sgt2..everybody dah give up n time tu we all plan to do it at cafe untill 3 am (if not mistaken)...everybody is waiting for me to solve it...alhamdulillah, Allah helped me...make it easy for me...and at the end of the semester...yes, i achieved my KPI! thank to Allah.

but then all those wonderful moments happened zaman jd student. skrg i m staff. life will never be the same. tp hidup perlu ada cita2 dan impian which will boost up everything. sy akan cube utk menjadi yg terbaik. yes, smlm sy patah hati... semalam saya kalah, but doesn't mean tomorrow pon sy akan kalah. we learnt from the mistake...n insyaAllah, dr ape yg berlaku, kebergantungan sy kpd Allah semakin kuat. alhamdulillah :)

update b4 g KL

bape hari lg tinggal dan esok akan ke KL. pegi awal sikit sbb ade brg2 nk beli di sana. and selasa ke melaka dan RABU...status bertukar. opps, bukan cik kpd puan eh. hahaha..itu belom lg maa. no longer a student or jd tukang jual durian yg berjaya. ceehwah, mcm bangga lak plak. owh tidak TIDAK. mmg sy menidakkan perkara tu. bila status bertukar, maknanya tanggungjwab pon bertambah. amanah yg digalas dan yg Allah swt nk tanye kat akhirat pon akan bertambah. dan am i ready for that, am i?

tp, takpe. ape2pon jalan yg dilalui sy harap sy istiqamah dgn ape yg saye ade skrg. dan di mana je berada, masih meletakkan Dia di barisan plg utama dan selebihnya di belakang. insyaAllah. and sprt yg sy ckp sblm ni, di melaka mahu bina hidup baru. maka mende2 kisah lampau sila tinggalkan di belakang. yg dh lepas tu lepas lah. sy selitkan sepotong ayat dr Surah Taha: 111-112 buat renungan sesiapa yg berkaitan :)

" Dan tunduklah semua muka (dgn merendah diri) kepada Tuhan Yang Hidup Kekal lagi sentiasa mengurus (makhluknya). Dan sesungguhnya telah merugilah org yg melakukan kezaliman. Dan barangsiapa mengerjakan amal2 yang soleh dan dia dalam keadaan beriman, maka dia tidak khuatir akan perlakuan yang tidak adil (terhadapnya) dan tidak (pula) akan pengurangan haknya.

[Surah Taha: 111-112]

ok, done psl ni. btw, sy masih sibuk membuat checklist utk semua brg2 yg nk dibawa ke sana. aish, bila mak xde ni, seolah2 takde PA lak. kelam kabut jugak. haaa, dan br la sedar bahawasanye pot pet pot pet mak selama ni sejak nk masuk asrama tu byk faedahnya. at least xde la tertinggal ape2 kan. mak, how i wish u r 'ere...T__T

hurm, dalam pada mak takde ni, mcm tak caye gak sy percaya urus diri n masak2 utk bukak pose for ayah n me. ni mmg kire dh berdikari la ni. n i rase ley dpt sijil lulus la walaupon nk dptkan kepujian tu jauh lagi.hehe. nnt xde la org kebulur kat melaka dan mak xde la susah hati tinggalkan anak die yg mcm-semua-mende-x-ley-makan which need her to cook on her own! hehe. mak, i've grown up!!! i have grown up!!!

and being home with ayah is the best wut i can say. seyes. kami belajar wat ondeh2 (buah melaka) dgn jayanya wpon ade je yg tak kena. bselah 1st trial kan (",) pls dun expect me to be an expert babe. dan dad mmg awesome. da sekali tu sy tak g terawih sbb sakit kepala sgt. i left alone with baby (my cat) kat umah. sy soh je ayah pg terawih even i noe ayah berat hati nk tinggalkan sy sorang2. dad, i'm not alone lah, Allah with me all the time and baby too hee! lps isyak, i terus tersadai atas katil and baby teman sy tido kat alas kaki. x sedar pape. sekali bukak mate dgr ayah tnye dh isyak ke? tgk jam kol 9.30, and ayah blik awl mlm tu xsmyg 20 rakaat sbb bimbang sy dok sorang2. owh dad..dan dan lps tu mcm2 cerita kelakar bl dok ngn ayah. surely and surely i will remember these momets till the end of life. SURE ok? and ur grandkids pon akan sy cerita betapa sweet dan caringnye tok ayah die to their mom satu mase dl. hehehe...

and yes, i've finish jd tukang jahit smlm. alhamdulillah. perlu menamatkan perkhidmatan laa since nak sambung kontrak baru lak ni. abis sakit2 badan asek dok jahit. hee, lame dh tinggal kan. suke2. hurm, wut else...?

owh ni antar bende2 yg sy mmg akan bwe ke melaka nnt:

-Tafsir, almathurat (xley tinggal ni.compulsory babe!!!)

-La Tahzan (bace bl nk tido mlm)

-sketch book (bakal engineer ni mmg jenis suke melukis & tQ kpd yg menghadiahkannye hee)

-my 0ld-pinky-reused-notebook as my diary hehe

-some color papers for origami ( i do love origami ok)

-a potrait/frame mse ayah grad dl when at the time sy kecil lgi hehe (as pengubat rindu n pembakar smangat)

-my Solusi's collection (do lurve it much2)

-teddies? ermm, i dun need these creatures lorh. bek bawe bantal besar tu hehe. so just left them kat umah shj ok? (sory rumet, i tinggalkan teddies yg u bagi tu T___T)

ni yg wajib ade lah utk g melaka..hehe..yg len2 tu xley tulis, berjela2 pnjg nntnye *wink2x*

dah le, byk keja lg nk wat. owh, doakan sy moga tabah selalu, tidak riak, tidak takabbur dan patah hati dgn ragam manusia. dan juga bejaya dlm setiap ujian qanaah Allah bg. insyaAllah

"jadilah seperti resam padi, makin berisi makin tunduk"

p/s: utk kawan2 yg msh tunggu placement, berdoalah dgn penuh yakin. Allah swt Maha Mendengar, Maha Penyayang, Maha Mengetahui...dan Maha Semuanya...insyaAllah, i will pray for you as well..ingat Allah tu dekat dgn kita..He hears & noes our whispers and dreams as well as intention. maaf, jgn pk post ni riak ke, bangga ke hape, its not for that, just update for my life 0' wut i did now k :)

2 paths

we do have two different paths now dan tak mungkin akan menjadi satu lg.

sblm ni we might see each other again and again

tp skrg,

kau punye jalan sendiri

dan ak punye jalan ak sendiri

dan ak hanya akan tertoleh kebelakang bl ade rindu

pd kenangan2 lalu

bersama kau yg dahulu

we will never cross again

sbb jalan ak masih jauh utk smpai ke penghujung

dan destinasi akhir kt tak same

jalan kau?

ak tak pasti krn itu pilihan kau

Kebun kecik

it was my time to lepak2 dpn lappy, surfing and chatting and enjoying every single moment as org yg tak bekerjaya lg. so lepaking is the best thing lah forsure. tanpa gangguan dr seekor nyamuk pon dan semut2. hahaha. but, all o' sudden si ayah...

"dik,meh kt g chabang 3, kait buah langsat ngn dokong"

dan si anak pon mulala.." haaaa???skrg ke???.."

"yelaaaa...."

maka, bangun la si anak dgn malasnye sambil tarik tudung n bersiap ala kadar. g kebun je pon. bukan ade org nk tgk, kena jd mangsa nyamuk adelah.huh. tp, dlm mse tu sempat lg si anak tarik Nikon die. dh lame Nikon tu bersawang dlm loker. dh berhabuk pon. mmg lah bertuahnye tuan die heee.

pokok langsat

Chabang 3 tu refer kat our kebun sbb it is located dkt ngn chabng 3. senang, letak je nama tu. act, smlm lg ayah nk g kait buah2 tp since ujan lebat gle,so xdpt la. maka arini kena la kait jugak sbb takut dok kat pokok lame2 nnt buah tu pecah dan luruh sbb ujan. fyi, dokong tu adelah adek beradik langsat. dipendekkan cerita, ade 3 siblings la which are langsat, duku dan dokong. rambai tu adek beradik len mak len ayah mungkin sepupu sepapat kot theee heee. i tak tahu kalo org belah luar dr kelantan pnggil ape dokong ni. rasenye lg manis dr buah duku n langsat, tp the smell tak sekuat duku. dan buah dokong ni quite besar. hurm, act, smpai ke arini pon saye x berapa arif sgt psl 3 beradik ni. asek tertukar jek. ni pon sbb ayah selalu betulkan bila sy tersasul sbut nama len buah len :)

ini buah dokong, tp mcm rupe langsat adeh, buat sy keliru

lps dh abis kutip2 langsat, dokong sume tu, sy pegi men2 tepi baruh. haa, ni satu lg istilah yg kena translate dlm bhs standard. baruh tu mean sawah pagi yg dh tak digunakan lgi. so, kire mcm ade lalang, rumput2, n even bila ujan ade air. kalo musim kemarau ley men wau dlm tu. n ley buat rumah dlm rumput2 pnjg2. pergh, gle best ingat zaman dulu. balik umah kena sental ngn dettol la sbb gatal2 dok men dlm rumput. wheee...*wonderful childhood memories lol* :)

sy p men kat tepi baruh tu sbb nk cr buah berangan. BUAH BERANGAN. haaa, rupa2nye kampung sy dpt nama dr pokok ni la. dan pokok ni lak ade dlm tanah kami. terharu kejap. x sangka dlm zaman2 skrg ade lg pokok berangan. jap2, kalo korang nk tahu ni la address umah sy,

Nooratikah Saari @ Awang

Kg Chabang 3 Berangan

16200 Tumpat, Kelantan

haa, nk highlight kat perkataan Berangan tu. no wonder la sy ni kuat berangan. dr kecik smpai besar hidup dlm angan2 jek. ok2, back tu buah berangan plak. buah ni mcm kacang la. kalo x silap sy dlm english myb used to call as walnut, ke hazelnut (eh bukan2 hazelnut) tp mmg ade la nama yg ade nut2 tu kat belakang. kalo tgk cartun chipmunks, tupai kecik tu selalu bwe buah berangan ni masuk umah die dlm batang kayu.

buah berangan yg msh dlm kulit, on my palm

buah berangan ni disebarkan mcm buah getah jugak, iaitu melalu mekanisme letupan. korang jgn lak tnye saye buah getah tu ape. kang ketuk ngn senduk kang hehe. terbongkok2 sy kutip buah berangan dlm daun2 kering. nsb bek tak tersangkut ngn duri pokok salak. adeh. since sy x bawe plastik, maka buah berangan tu pon terpaksa la dimasukkan or lebih tepat wordnye dikilass dlm baju (sprt gmbr di bwh hee). mmg x senonoh perbuatan itu. tp nk wat cane. jalan jekkk.

ops, korang might tnye cane nk makan buah ni kan? kena goreng or rebus dl. biji luar die tu keras kak. xley gigit, nnt gigit yg tercabut. kena goreng dgn pasir. rse die besttt. tp sbb mak xde kat umah, so simpan la dl tunggu mak balik utk buat. sy tak tahu cane process selanjutnye buah berangan ni. tau makan jek! (",)

ok, done talking about buah berangan and will be off juge utk this post. sbb dh mls nk tulis. hehehe. but, b4 tu nk share 2 gmbr about my kebun yg kecik ni. its like a black n white photo sbb pencahayaan kureng sikit. so here it goes...

dan last sekali gmbr buah rambutan yg susah nk kait sbb tinggi sgt. just ley tgk jek dr bawah. gle sedey dow... tupai je yg makan T___T

and it was THE END of the story for my kebun ni. motip die, saje2 nk cte psl kebun yg selalu jd tempat saye lepak2 mse kcik2 dl. now, sume pokok dh besar, just like me. dh grown up pon. dan juga, di kebun ni la i called KLCC asking either i was recomended or not for SI. mse tu dgn mak, tgh tunggu durian. i will alwys remember that moment when i hugged my mom with joy and happiness,pluss ngn tears sekali hehe. thnks Allah for that bless :)

Bila hanya ak dan ayah

pesanan awal2, this entry maybe sound like a diary to be or it can be said will be x mature sikit. but, pk punye pk still nk tulis jugak sbb i bet these moments will be precious and mmg akan diingat smpai bila2 hehe...then, here we go :)

skrg ak kat umah, dgn ayah. mak kat kl, jage kaklong. puasa mak xde, mmg xtahu la nk ckp. ari2 ak kena pk nk masak ape. susah jugak eh nk ambil alih tempat mak.ngaku awal2, mmg tak qualified la. hukhuk. dan dgn ilmu masakan yg mcm xcukup semua perasa, ak xtahu nk kategorikan ape die ak nye style masak. tp org kate, kalo x try, smpai bila pon x pndai. dan ak rse ni 1st training ak bfore g dok melaka. sbb di melaka ade cencaluk ngn belacan yg ak mmg kem salam allergik beratus petala dunia ak tak ley sentuh. so, ak xley nk beli food kat kedai mcm ak selalu buat kat paka mse intern. yg pasti ak kena masak sendiri!*pengsan*

ok, back to the story. ley dikatakan ari2 ak akan masak ngn ayah. hehe. comey je bunyi kan.

"ayah, nak makan ape arini?"

" ayah, nak masak ape?"

" ayah, kah masak eh. jap, call mak tnye cane nk buat..."

"ayah, ikan singge' mak letak garam yg ade kunyit la"

"ayah, asal siang ikan mctu. mak buang la yg tu.."

" ayah, sayur kicap letak asam tak?"

....bla blaaa..bla...x abis soalan2 ak tnye ayah dan ayah mmg jd pnjawab yg setia. cume kdg2 ak confius dgn jwpn ayah sbb bertentangan dgn skill memasak mak.heeee. dan sekali tu kan ade something happen yg ktorg masak terhangit sbb tyme tu ktorg tinggal 'lauk' tu atas dapur n sibuk uruskan psl borang2 yg PETRONAS nak tu...sekali, aaaa

"dik, lauk kt hangit laa, adeiii.."

"waa, pastu nk makan ape berbuka ptg ni?"

"ntah..."ayah garu kepala..

" xpe, biar kah masak lak" muka confident tahap dewa heee :)

mmg kelakar bila ak ingat semua peristiwa men masak2 ngn ayah. bila ktorg malas masak, maka kami berdua akan ke bazar mencari lauk. beli la ape2 yg menarik di mata. owh, menjadi anak manja ayah la ak ni, asek mengekooor je kat belakang. sekali rse mcm bdk kecik br belajar puasa pon ade bila si ayah nk makan ape? nk air ape? kadang2 air tu berjenis2 beli. ceeeh, mcm2...heee, kadang2 ayah bising

" drpd buang mase masak, bek kt beli jek.kt ni bukan pakar pon masak..."

"alaa, kalo asek beli bila kah nk pndai? nnt g melaka nk makan ape???"

kdg2 ak terpk sst mcm best jek lalui saat ni walaupon ssh sgt bila mak takda. dan bila ak dh berkeluarga nnt, sure2 ak akan rindu saat mcm ni. tyme bila org manjakan ak n layan ak cam budak2. yela pg bazar ngn ayah, buat sume surat2, g medical check up, g shopping baju2, shopping groceries sume ngn ayah. anak ayah betol la ak ni -__-"

talking about current life, ak rse mcm life is getting more challenging. ngn dok melaka nye nnt, kat sane keja mmg hectic. engnr kat sane mmg buzy. pastu ngn ak yg tak reti masak lagi ni (bukan x reti lngsung, tp masih merangkak laaa), then kena sesuaikan diri ngn tempat baru, suasana keja yg pasti menekan ngn menyesakkan serba mak nenek dlm perut. owh...T__T

this is the real battle in my life...but melaka, here i come :)

Darling bud

my darling May

my darling bud...

she is my....

and i will alwys remember this....

Goodbye part6-last episode

ok, kali ini mmg btol2 goodbye. dah xde daa chpter goodbye len slps ni. hehe. semua dh setel, report dh officially submitted to SV ngn dprmt, clearance sume dh beres, barang ade sikit lg nk kemas. dan sgt2 x sabar nk loading sume brg2 dlm kereta. sbbnye nk tgk cukup space ke tak :P

ayah selalu perli dl, kalo nk balik kena sewa treller pnjang. sbb brg serba mak nenek ade. sume mnde kat bilik umah tu nk angkut. hee, well i need them la dad spy dpt bg inspiration utk study. *kening double jerk* tang mane inspiration pon tak tahu la. nyemak kat pndangan act. erm, nk buat bilik kat UTP ni rase homey sikit. ahaha...

btw, ade sedikit terkilan sebenarnye dgn report yg disubmit. silap letak pages kat dpn. aisey, gle tak tenteram jiwa satu ari ni. td g mintak balik dgn SV, pasti SV ckp xpe la...saje die nk kenakan ak td. gado2 sikit dgn SV, lps die meyakinkan ak bahawa, xde mslh pon dgn report yg ak submit tu, barulah ak mengalah. kalo tak, forsurenye mintak balik beki kat kelantan. pastu pos laju ke alamat rumah SV.ahaha...

tak caye bila diri sendiri dh mampu produce hardcover thesis. rse cam mimpi2 jek. sbb selama ni bersengkang mata nk siapkan report yg maha agung ni. nk siapkan FYP, nk siapkan coding bgi jalan. dan terpaksa bergado2 dgn ssorg hmba Allah yg kat UTM skudai tu..smpai terpaksa pekakkan mata ngn butakan telinga semata2 nk belajar dr beliau. kena kutuk kaw2...hoho. kena bukak dictionary bila tak fhm english die yg berhabuk tahap dewa tu. fius ak dah bape kali terputus dgn beliau, aci bley smbung balik je nsib baek. lps tu, scr geram bl tak mampu nk kawal rse marah, i said i hate u dkt beliau. huh, phrase membunuh betul. tujuh ke sepuluh keturunan pon tak penah hayat terfikir nk keluarkan perkataan tu even dgn x-bf yg menyakitkan jiwa tahap garam selama ni pon.ahaha... bertuah sgt la ak dpt bg ayat tu kat die. kalo dulu ak selalu kaco die kat gtalk...lps dr tu, ak dh tak tgk muka die daa. x nmpak die online daa. die block ak kot? hahaha...xdehal laa. lagi ak suke mcm tu. tenteram hidup. bahagia jiwa. ak ley bet r pasni die akan kutuk ak lagi kalo die bce post ak ni. aaa, lantak la die nk ckp ape pon. yg pasti, die sudah pon berakhir bersama2 dgn report FYP yg ak submit td. kire tutup buku. noktah!!!

td, lps submit report, ak g merayau ke bilik lecturers. saje jek ni nk say goodbye. at least la kan. kalo kt nk tinggal org tu, kena la ckp bye2 dl. mcm kurang asam jawe jek kalo blah cmtu jek. tp sedey plak sbb xde bilik2 lecturer sume kosong. br ak teringat sume dh g KL sbb da conference. alaa, so niat baek ak nk wave hand ngn mintak halal ilmu dr lecturer pon x kesampaian.

last part yg ak nk cerita sekali psl co-SV ak. Pn Ainul. ak sayang die, betul x tipu. gle best dpt SV camni. blur, sempoi habis. ak kenal die mse intern sbb die die dtg PGB, amik data n utk fyp ak. takyah cte pnjang. we shared same hobby- photography. so, bl weekend, ktorg g photoshoot kat Tanjung Jara. petang2 balik dr ofis, lepak kat pntai makan keropok lekor. kisah ak zaman jd student sume die tahu. pastu td, mse nk blah...die ckp ape kat ak??? ak ingatkan die nk say goodluck dlm future life cam standard sume org ckp kat ak. tapi sekali die ckp..

"atikah, goodluck in finding your boyfriend...!! Ingat, jgn cr org PETRONAS..."

dan ak hanya sengih mcm kerang busuk, xtau nk ckp ape daa...hehe... :)

life kat Uni ni act lagi best..jauh lg best dr zaman sekolah menengah. betul x tipu. sbb zaman ni kt bebas, xde la bebas sgt. kena pndai2 jage diri, jage smyg, bace Al-Quran selalu. pergaulan kena jage jugak. ak dok UTP ni pon, end up bukan msuk geng2 yg alim2 and bukan jugak msuk geng yg lagi satu..org kate atas pagar. tu lah ak. msih mencari2 arah hidup. msih cari identiti sape sebenarnye ATIKAH SAARI ni. tp sikit sebanyak ak tahu la kemana arah tuju ak. Allah tlg sepanjang jalan, kalo nk harap ak sorang2, sah2 terjun lombong awal2. kahkah. itu hanya hiperbola. ak kuar UTP ni ak xtahu la sape jd bestfriend ak. haa, ade kot..insyaAllah ade. walaupon ak x pernh declare dia tu sape. xyah la declare2, cukup sekadar ko tahu, ak tahu, kita kawan baek. abis cte! ok, dh laa berakhir kisah hidup ak selama 5 tahun kat UTP. nmpak best n bunyi yg glamer je dpt msuk UTP, sponsor PETRONAS..haha..mai la dok sini, then u will noe how is it. Tp ak ttk suke UTP sbb tempat ni la byk ajar ak jd org...bukan hantu.

p/s: mr Xxx, sy maafkan awk sbb buat sy mcmtu. awk maafkan saye tak???hehe (gle sengal ayat ak ni, mak aihh)..buang tebiat 4otahun ak tulis ayat cenggini~

Goodbye part2

ni chapter ke2. "goodbye part2"

saye tulis kali ini sambil dgr lagu Cinta Terakhir by Aiman. u see eh, dgr lagu jiwang, maka mode jiwang. ceh. erasa cepat dari melarat haha. act, saye tak pasti perlu tulis ke tak kat sini. tp cukuplah sekadar penghargaan dan terima kasih dr saye utk buku tu sbg hadiah hari jadi yg ke 21. cerita lama x payah ungkit sbb ia telah berlalu. mende2 yg dah lepas ni, bg saye bila dh jd sejarah...xkan same walau diulang kembali, even dgn pelakon yg same. maka biarkan ia menjadi sejarah selamanya. harap anda memahami, menghormati keputusan saya dan tidak lagi mengulangi perkara yg same. sekian.

baiklah, bukak subtopic baru. hee, lps present FYP, terasa sgt2 lega. syukur ya Allah. syukur sgt2. skrg, ni lps sorang2 member wish goodbye, sayonara la bla..bla..nak xnk terpaksa terima. itu kenyataan. msing2 ade haluan hidup sendiri, hala tuju. ade cita2 dan impian yg nk dicapai. mse convo nnt, insyaAllah jmpa. tp, terdetik saye pd hati...wujudkan saye pd convo nnt? sy tak janji saye akan dtg. mungkin dtg mungkin tak. wallaualam. x tahu dimana saye akan berada mse itu. moga2 Allah pnjgkan umur utk bertemu kembali. bila, di mana dan bagaimana...saye tak tahu :)

org len sibuk nk balik, sibuk packing...kepala saye sarat utk pk 3 mende ni. semua berkaitan dgn sama depan. sumenye penting. sumenye impian saye. ade satu tu, impian sejak form2, ade tu impian sejak darjah 2 dan satu lg tu sejak msuk UTP. 2 dari impian tu bertembung antara satu sama laen. perlukan saye utk buat pilihan secara waras. accept or not? yes or no? susah kan kalo soalan minta jwpn mcm ni. walaupon probability utk betul dah 50%. saye hanya ade beberapa minggu utk buat keputusan. beberapa bulan lagi utk pergi kalo saye mahu. entah...saye dalam dilema! ya Allah, tlg saye. berikan yg terbaik.

cantik x tempat ni??? ttb je letak gmbr ni. btw, saye suke... :)

Goodbye part1

*penulisan dlm bahasa melayu & bercampur english secara formalnya

kalo ikut tarikh asal, post ini ditulis pd 2june, tp keep on save as draft, arini baru betul2 tulis which on 8th June 2010 :)

Kehadapan Diari,

Sungguh saya tak sangka 5 tahun perjalanan hidup saye di UTP ini berakhir juga. Bemula pd Julai 2005, kali pertama menjejakkan kaki UTP,konon penuh lagak dan semangat berkobar2. tengok kiri kanan semua kawan2 'berabuk speaking', paksa diri speaking jugak. padahal hentam sahaja. haha. bajet budak bijak, masih ingat bila org tnye ape2, konon tahu semua mnde. tipu la sgt. ok, itu zaman kecik2 dl. zaman budak hingusan. zaman semua org mula2 masuk UTP cakap 'english dialek kalah Mat Salleh betul, dan zaman itu semua org berlagak poyo hehe. maafkan saye ye kawan2. :) :)

Dulu, hidup di Old V5, Block Tembungo. (cantik x nama?klasik gle hehe). walaupon kat situ jauh dari hiburan, agak2 terpencil, tanpa internet 24/7, tanpa cafe makanan yg best, jauh dari dewan kuliah dan terpksa menapak ari2 tapi tetap gigih juga habiskan zaman foundation dgn gembira. bila ingat balik rse seronok jugak stay situ sbb mcm satu batch kat situ. bila lalu depan Block Duyong, mesti akan dengar org nyanyi lagi Ruzana. rasenye sume girls yg lalu situ kena. rindunye nk dgr suara katak pnggil hujan lgi.ahaha. malam2 melepak dan study kat cafe beramai2 smpai 2, 3 pagi. sbb IRC bukak sampai pkul 11.30 je study week. pelik betul mse zaman foundation dulu, pointer tak pernah nak jadi gempak walaupon study tahap dewa. mungkin mase tu tak pndai lagi nk tackle care belajar yg betul. hehe dan yang paling seronok bila masuk 1st year pointer resume balik jd 0.0 :) *yeay*

Pernah merasa duduk di V1 satu semester. V1D. kat sini, xdelah istilah terperuk sgt. sbb dekat dgn dewan kuliah dan bank. cafe USM pon masakan sedap (kalo nk compare dgn old v5 dl). dan kat sini dah dpt tgk dunia luar sb ader internet daa. owh, seronok sangat!

Buat Diari,
Tahun pertama di Uni dapat merasa tinggal di Village 5 K. 3 tahun di situ. dan bermulalah hidup sbg budak jurusan mekanikal. setiap semester bermain dengan subjek2 yg 'menarik'. bermula dgn Statics & ETECH, mase ni dpt pensyarah kacak: Mr. Sanif dan Mr Fadhil. belajar dengan semangat. lepas tu sambung dengan Mechanics of Machine, Dynamic, Solid, Vibration, IMSE, haa, dah lupe subjek2 zaman dulu.hehe. pernah buat formula sendiri dulu iaitu kalo nk dapat result tinggi, mesti minat pensyarah.

lecturer ensem + lecturer cun = score exam!!!

bijak tak? tapi formula tu tak boley pakai la. buat seronok2 boleh la. hehehe. bila dah besar baru la tahu mcm mane nk dapat pointer tinggi. mest rajin. mesti fokus dalam kelas. mesti buat sendiri kerja rumah. hahaha. zaman jd 'undergrade' paling seronok walaupon cos Mechy ni byk gle kerja. project tak pernah habis. tiap sem ade. tp best sbb dari situ tambah kawan baru. dari situ belajar tak tido malam. dari situ belajar stay up kat cafe sampai sahur! seronok babe.

Diari sayang,

alahai, tipu la kan kalo sepanjang 5 tahun belajar ni tak pernah men2 dgn soal perasaan kan? mesti ade. crush situ sini. hehe. jeles sana sini. bagi saye, semua ni puppy love. cinta zaman kanak2. sbb jiwa budak2. tapi ade jugak yg kekal kan. hee, bagus2x!! apepon, saye? masih ingat pesan mak sebelum masuk UTP dulu. datang UTP mesti utk belajar. jadinye, saya hanya memandang cinta dgn rase sepi walaupon perasaan itu pernah ade dalam hati. maafkan sy. xpe, ada jodoh kt continue utk serius. (tp, dgn sape? hv no idea,agaga) hahaha. lawak lah! apepon sy menamatkan zaman undergrade dgn status 'single'. *yeay lagi*

Diari sayang,

kawan datang dan pergi silih berganti dalam hidup. yg pernah wujud, akan selamanya wujud. walaupon ade yang buat 'onar', takpe saye maafkan mereka. kenapa? sbb mereka adelah org yg pernah sama2 gelak dan menangis dgn saye. mereka adelah yg terbaik. tetap menghargai!

kalo sstgh org, zaman sekolah je ade adek2 angkat ni. tp bg saye di sini pon ade. tapi xdelah nk declare adek2 angkat ni. cukup la kt rase mereka sentiasa dekat dan sentiasa ada di sisi. adek2 ku, akak dah nk blah. belajar rajen2. ilmu semata x cukup, tapi pengalaman hidup tu yg paling bermakna. macam mana nk cr pengalaman hidup? x semestinya dgn sentiasa keluar ipoh, lepak sana sini...sbb akak xde pengalaman sebegitu sepanjang 5 tahun di sini. pengalaman dtg melalui kesusahan dan air mata. mungkin kt tak rse kt perlukan skrg, tp sebenarnya itulah yg akan kt guna pakai suatu hari nnt. :)

Diari manis,

org kata zaman belajar adelah yg paling manis. betul. x tipu. skrg, bila dah abis semua, mula rase bosan. FYP yg buat senior2 x tido malam pon dah xde. tido malam tanpa gangguan ape2. aish, dah xde mimpi ngeri. mid sem test, quiz, projects, assignment, dan final exam, register course, add drop subject, slip exam, semua dh takde. habis. sume dah berakhir. yg tinggal hanya semua kenangan yg bila imbau balik buat sengih sorang2. that's uni's life. so beautiful, so wonderful!

baiklah, cukup la kali ni. ade idea sy tulis lagi. ade lagi sebenarnya. kena buat by chapter ni. hehe. ini gmbr kelas terakhir kami. lps paper corrosion. semua muka gembira x ley blah :)

kredit to Humaizi for this pict

Mainhall...di sinilah ktorg mula2 jejak kaki 5tahun yg lalu, pada satu tarikh manis dalam bulan Julai 2005. dan di sinilah akhirnya kt menamatkan kertas terakhir pd 1 Jun 2010. 5 tahun babe, tp mainhall ni x pernah berubah. org yg keluar masuk je yg berubah dan kt adelah salah seorang dari mereka :)

friends, u create music in my life...so lovely

dia dan..study to the fullest!~

i dun noe, betol ke ayat title my blog tu. study to fullest. men cekup jek..rsenye selama ni dgr org ckp life to the fullest (ye ker..m not sure gak la) -___-"

seyes, so penat ok, exhausted! study dr kol 9 smpai 6 smbung lagi mlm. behnti sbb tido or g kaco org. spend the whole time kat library. ni sume pasal gara2 test 2 yg sgt la x memuaskan. sudahnye kena study tahap ape ntah. mcm skrg! petang bekejar cr lecturer, awal2 pgi gelabah beki report FYP. x siap2 lagi. ahaha. life, u'r such 'beautiful' :) :) mlm ni pon i dh takde selera nk makan nasi. hilang nafsu makan. myb too tired! at last beli roti planta 2 biji ngn roti john. ngn minum milo panas. tula dinner saya mlm ni.

ok, kuar topik jap, td, mse study, ttb saye rse sungguh sedy. nasib baek x menitik air mata. ceeh, eh betul sbb depan tu adelah ssorg. mula nye otak saye ok jek. tp up to 1 point, gle sayu. mcm2 perasaan wujud. ntah bape kali saye bace doa mse study. mst kalo org tgk, pehal la minah ni. kejap2 bace doa. taw sy mintak ape? minta Allah bg kekuatan. sy x kan tukar utk g study meja len. sbb tu menunjukkan sy ni coward. n sy xnk kalah dgn perasaan. mcm2 sy buat psg lagu kuat2 la...buat2 busy la. sume x berjaya. sehingga la, sy pasang surah sajadah. sy dgr berulang2 kali. smpai sy rse boley senyum. dan saye mmg senyum sbb hati time tu mmg tiba2 jek tukar jd kuat. x rse sedey, tp rse happy. hebatkan kuasa ALLAH ni. alhamdulillah :)

lps tu, ntah la ape nye perasaan bertukar jd mcm nk tolong die. nk tolong ape tak taw.haha. pelik2. mmg sy x suke die dl. DULU. skrg, sy mintak Allah pusingkan hati sy utk sayangkan die. pelik? mmg saye pelik. KA ckp reverse psychology. kalo org x suke kt, kt jgn la x suke org tu. mest reverse. then, sbb tu la mst sayang dan suke die. make sense tak? hahaha. kalo korang x faham ape yg sy merapu2 ni, then anggaplah ni terkuar topik jap :)

die ade paper ptg ni. then i asked someone utk convey my regards and wish that person goodluck. i dunt noe impression that person if die tahu saye...ntah, sy tak kisah. mse nk kuar ptg td, g makan, sy pndang CH. dalam hati ttb terdetik, "dik, akak doakan awk boley jawab. yes u can do it. insyaAllah.." huu, jarang nk ada terdetik mcm ni kecuali pd certain2 org yg rapat dgn saye. dan tuan empunya diri tak pnh tahu bila kt buat mcm tu. haha, it just a way that i want to do and yet it make me happy. hehehehe...

owh yer, i jumpa satu buku best kat library, A step to Nowhere. sy nk pnjam tp rse dh terlmabt sbb sy nk buat clearance dah. so sume mnde tak ley pnjam. saye jap bl sebut psl ni. mse dh tak lama....T___T okla, sy rse sy kena stop. sbb almost 8.13pm. need to go to irc. till then papai~

5i's......

Starfish...its have 5 legs. legs ke hand??i think both incorrect.haha..rays la darling. forgive me ok? 5rays represent us. 5 of us. this is my last study group. and i enjoyed having them around. so do u guys aite? Nad, fikri cikgu, fikri wahi and pijan...thnks for being here, together with me. i used to call them our 5 i's. hehe..ni gara2 pengaruh cte 3 idiots. :D

and, we tried to implement ape yg ktorg dpt dr that movie tu during our discussion ni. i noe its late already, but at least we tried. cthnye:

somebody are trying to memorize the answer..the some other will say,

"weh, weh, ko nk jadi Chatur kaa??kamon2, jgn memorize...try to understand babe!kang kalo ko memorize, ak tukar ayat jd mcm speech Chatur tu baru tahu...hahahahah"

when somebody try to ask,

" weh, yg ni k xkuar exam kan..xyah r bace r..."

then, some other guy will said,

" 3 idiots, are u? haha" :P

some sort of conversation and jokes are playing in the air....full of excitement, must i say. if there is anything yg ktorg x fhm, akan kuarla demo2 (still mcm Racho buat kat dlm cte tu), and one of the using my tumbler which they used to name as resevoir! we used it as an analogy for suction and discharge in Facilities studies.

one thing that i cant forget, last nite..i was too sleepy after having 2 round jog at tasek-alone! mlm tu mse dicussion, we used to discuss psl types of corrosion and past year exam. it almost 11 plus plus as my eyes dh merah2. at that time, i was trying to explain psl galvanic corrosion. sekali without i realive, terkuar psl intergranular corrosion :D (see, how i dh mix up all those thing) dak2 ni wat bodo jee, lps tu baru dieorg ckp, " ko dh kuar topik weeei...hee" -___-

all of us :)

hurm, wut i did tell here is not like to bangga or riak ape2 psl ape yg ktorg buat. pls dun misunderstood eh. it just some part in the last chapter of my stories. wut i learnt, somehow we can never imagine what will happen in our future, whose gonna be our friends, whose gonna be close to our heart. neither of us can tell or predict. we just hope for the best. insyaAllah and THANK YOU Allah for giving me these people in my life. hoping for the best in win-win situation. may Allah grant us with success. aamin.

5i's, we are on our road to success~

last study week

dear all, when u r in final sem..evrything will be FINAL :P

and there again, my last study week ever, has been schdule from 8th May~16th May (cume ak nye bru nk start arini hehe) tu x consider kena prepare utk fyp lg -__-"

dh final sem babe, tgh pk nk study kat mane kali ni. will be at my room or IRC. 1 mnde yg saye x bape suke utk study kat library bila tiba waktu nk solat & makan. kena turun ke undercroft pastu kena g makan kat cfe. haa, yg ni dh cut my time lorh. one more, bl dok library ni mmg akan berlaku 'eye polution' laaa. u got wut i mean. pastu suke sgt dok usya org lalu lalang. kire xley nk fokus r. but then kalo nk wat study group tu kire ok la. sbb ktorg tempah 1 discussion room. so, mcm terbatas la dr nk usya org. hehehe

kalo study kat bilik..wah, gle best. dapor dekat, toilet dekat. yg tak tahan katil sebelah je memanggil ngn laptop internet 24/7 jek. goyah iman tol laaa! tp solat ley on time, insyaAllah. no reason utk lewatkan solat. (peringatan utk diri sendiri,hehe)

study mcm bdk kecik ni, agak2 die fhm ke bace ape tuuuu :D

but, for study week kali ni ktorg akan still g irc, insyaAllah utk study group. doakan smg berjalan dgn lancar. aamin. dan jugak memandangkan study week kali ini adalah yg terakhir, maka mst ade sessi photoshoot.hakhak. layan jek~

my exam schedule

lagi schedule...

lastly, 4th June 2010: FYP presentation...moga Allah permudahkan..aamin

guys, lets strive for excellent...!!!

mother's day, photo class, SI

alhamdulillah, SI was over. really dun noe feedback from that SI. but, what can i say, my role play tak mcm the rest. and i feel like my heart is trembling like a small paper boat in an ocean. wut does it mean? ntah, just tawakkal pd Allah. tp, sy ttp bersyukur pd ALLAH for treating in this 'special way'. x berani nk komen byk2. n pls dun ask more about it ok!-____-"

Selamat Hari Ibu utk mak.

moga pnjang umur..

moga doa mak ayah Allah makbulkan.aamin

td i call before interview, dh nangis2 dah.nsb bek x pkai make up. kalo x, x psl2 make cair dl. lps interview i call nangis2 lg. end up rse mcm nk demam. parah sungguh. dh i mls pk. i betul2 mls pk. i need sumeone to talk to, but there's no one. mane kucing smlm yg i dok sembang2 tu? (korang ckp ak x betol daa sbb sembang ngn kucing, huh, dulik la ak). inilah yg sy selalu buat kat rumah bila xde org nk ckp ngn i. bl my parents xde kat umah n at that time i was deeply in pain+ sad.

smlm, i just got some picts from Munir, our last class photos. its awesome babe. ni tyme kls facilities. spot me in the pict, a girl, standing at the back, wearing a big old skul spects!haha. saje wat kenangan pakai spec gedabak tu dlm gmbr ni. facilities was our last class after 5 years being here. ceeh, mcm sedey jek bunyi. of cos sedey. 5 years down the road. together wif friends looking the meaning of real life at teenage age. sekolah menengah tu xde apelah sgt kalau nk compare dgn life kat campus. mcm2 happen dlm tempoh lima tahun ni. got to know u guys, learnt the meaning of friendship, the beautiful of honestly and sincerity among friends, the lovely sacrificial way towards foe (yg ni pelik kan,hehe but yes mmg ader) and last but not least of cos the meaning of naughty & dotty puppy ;D

like azmi said in his blog, after this; no most tests, no more asgmts, no more projects, no more worries for cosmarks, no more dgr lecturer membebel pagi2 isnin..no more kecut perut anythime wnt to seat for final exam. no more stay up study last minutes. no more chances utk amik slip exam. no more quarrel with pak guard psl saman kad matrix ngn parking. sumenye dah tak ade. evrything will be wrapped up in memory. everything will end up soon. right now, dh study week... -__-"

i will miss this place much much after this. i will remember every precious time for being here. huh, nk start ayat jiwang daa. okeh, dun wory i will keep those ayat2 jiwang for the last post in last day at UTP. hehe

all in all, thank you Allah, for giving me this opportunities to feel how life is all about. one again like the previous post, may our dreams come true. aamin.

ZOFFAN, SI, zombie

its has been a while i put ZOFFAN as my status for fb as well as gtalk. and ppl kept asking me wut ZOFFAN is all about? act, i love to use this word long2 tyme ago. at the beginning when i noe zoffan tu ape. in shorts, sejak form 5 slps terjumpa this word dlm buku sejarah. zoffan tu maksd die dasar berkecuali. so whenever sy rse mahu hidup dlm dunia saya sahaja tnpa gangguan mane2 pihak, i will put mode: ZOFFAN! bukan sy taknk org ganggu jek, tp it seems like word tu bg border kat saye utk buat mnde len. spnjg 4 hari ni, mmg sy tak layan fb (unless kalo ade nk wish kat sumeone for their final exam ONLY), x tulis blog, x chat ngn org (layan kalo mnde tu penting je), the rest mmg sy tumpukan pd kerja yg sy buat.

hee, ape yg sy buat act? sy telah pulun buat draft tuk report final year project. smlm tido2 ayam je, pastu g kls FACI pg ni dgn blur2. i try my best utk fokus dlm kls. tp terasa otak lmbt gle utk pick up. mcm hapee jek! that's my weakness bl x cukup tido. hidup sgt tak terurus bl dlm keadaan mcm ni. mcm zombie pon ade.wheee. itulah life final year final sem babe! nice gle~

owh yer, my name was included for PETRONAS SI (2nd batch). tp kategor 'waiting list'. huh, mse mlm briefing tu dh konfirm2 nama ktorg tak kan naek tuk interview kali ni. dan honestly sy mmg xnk lg la intervw sbb serius mmg mentally not prepared. so, skrg kata putus diberi kami yg dlm waiting list ni akan SI after final exam (which i prefer most!)

tapi kannnn, pagi td around 9.30 la i got a call from akak HR, asking me for SI at 10am! huh, mcm nk putus urat seketika. gle ke ape ingat sy ni robot eh? i was given 3o mins to prepare sume mnde. dh la baju x iron lg. kasut xde lgi. all docs pon x susun lgi. even borang utk employee tu pon x fill in lg. tertimbus dgn my FYP paper work. mmg sy terkaku seketika kot td. then finally i call her back btaw i cant make it today dgn alasan bla...bla..act, sy takut jugak in case sy buat wrong decision pagi td. yela kot2 my decision may affect their impression towards me. tp logik la sikit. daripada sy pegi dgn otak blank sdgkan interview ni adelah percaturan mase depan sy. pergi ke tak? haa, think wisely dude!~

at the end, sy rse ape yg saye buat tu mmg betul sbb ape yg sy perlu yakin satu je..

hati manusia ni Allah yg pegang. walaupon dieorg yg buat keputusan utk amik sy berkerja or tak, the decision tu act comes from Allah. Allah yg gerakkan hati mereka. so, ape nk takut? Allah kan ade. jgn berputus asa dr rahmat Allah dan yg penting, just do ur best all the way!~

i think i should stop for now. later cont. btw, mayb my turn for SI adelah esok. aish, tula nasib org dlm waiting list ni. standby all the time. dh ler 3 4 ari lps life mcm zombie. rse nk je mlm ni lepak2 layan muvie kejap. sekali kena prepare utk SI lak...huh, nk makan ice-cream r cani ^__^

update!

time: 8.00am (start)

i m just taking almost 10 mins before pg mandi pagi ni utk update blog. task after this, i want to continue for my write up : dissertation. insyaAllah. hopefully, idea akan mencurah2 slps kepala disejukkan dgn wudhuk solat dhuha nnt. aamin.

btw, today is submission date for project Facilities, EIS as well as OM. amik ko, 3 project gedebuk anta. act, draf dissertation pon should be submitted today jugak, but since my SV bg kelonggaran sikit, then xyah lg submit lg arini. alhamdulillah. apepon, i just want to say "thousands & millions" and token of appreciation to all those grp mmbers yg same2 contribute utk same2 completekan all those projects above. fyi, project yg plg tough adelah FACILITIES which took us almost more than a month to complete the calculation flow esp for each of the renewable sources. which book yg ktorg tak selak, buku thermo mane yg i x go tru? even lecturer mane yg ajar thermo zaman freshie dl pon we all pergi ngadap. nmpak sgt basic thermo x kukuh. but, its not about the basic guys. try to imagine that u r only given with one value which is mass flow rate. then question asked u to produce electricity in order to match demand n supply for offshore facilities requirement! goshh....heheh...

but, again.ALHAMDULILLAH, nightmare has gone. waiting for presentation plak mse study week. pray for me and my friend. :)

left 2 mins. ok, FYP! its too bothered me. aish.. for those yg xde probs ok la kan. tp, i wont berputus asa dr rahmat ALLAH. never. coz i really noe, ALLAH xkan bg sst yg hmbaNYA tak mmpu nk hadapi. anyway, i have 2 tests this week which are OM (tomorrow) and corrosion (weds). ok, time's up since its 8.10 alrdy!

p/s: thanks May for men2 UNO with me last nite, smbil2 study for test. i noe i kalah smlm sbb material i pakai x betul n design tak ok, so x stable la that UNO tu.hahah. u punye system dh ok kot.haha..love you sis & goodluck for ur test!~

Interviewku~

selesai lg satu interview. alhamdulillah. usaha saya seterusnya, saye serahkan kpd ketentuan Allah. berdoa dan yakin dgn setiap yg Dia ingin berikan kepada kita. itu yg saye selalu ingatkan pd hati walaupon ade ktk, terasa terlalu berat sbb kdg2 ape yg kt nk sgt2 tu, kt tak dpt. kecewa kan? sedey kan? tp Allah punya perancangan yg terbaik utk kita :)

Kadang2 Allah patahkan kita, utk selamatkan jiwa kita :)

cerita di sebalik intervw td? ttb nk share kat sini. mungkin berguna pd sape2..

td ade assessment yg mmg sln technical. saye bajet senang.cheewah, bajet kott. sekali soalan buat saye gigit jari. ade jugak la lompang2 air yg ditinggalkan. hehe. bukan IQ test pon. mmg technical. drawing ader 2 sln (autocad). otak dh lame x buat drawing, so tepu la sikit. punye la lama sikit nk translate bentuk ape yg die nk kan. 1 drawing sempat siap.1 lg half way. sumenye kerana nk pulun sln2 blkg yg byk kena calculate. aiseh...

then mse intevw tu plak, bos die yg berbangsa Jepun tu bley plak tertukar pointer ak. adeh, nsb bek yg cina tu betulkan. bila dieorg tgk pointer ak kan, dieorg relate dgn test ak jwb td.

"your pointer is very good, but why your test ....."

smbil menunjukkan kertas test tu kat ak. hahah

ak senyum, dalam hati....mula la nk back up diri sendiri kan. xnk ngaku x reti jawab. dlm hati....saye kutuk2 sln yg die bagi...dan dalam hati:

" sir, u give me only 30mins, but there so many part (A,B,C,D,E,F,G..) which some of them we used to learn during standard 1 (analogy ni) ..bla..bla"

(pls jgn tiru bab ni dan jgn la luahkan. biar setakat dlm hati shj. nnt silap ari bulan kena fire terus) hehe

dierong gelak2 je kat saya. pehal laa?? ade ke tnye sln conversion unit yg dok kat blkg buku bdk drjh satu tu. kalo yg beser guna tu tahu la jugak. ni yg tak pernh guna sepanjang hayat kott. sah2 la saye x jeling pon kat buku latihan zaman sekolah rendah dl. lesson learn, len kali before gi intervw tu prepare lah semua mnde ok? hehe

stil berkait psl pointer, tgk pointer saye tu, bos die yg Jepun tu tnye xnk sambung MASTER ke?hehe, saye tibai la jwb mcm En Win nasihatkan saye dl. cakap nk kerja cr experience dl spy research nnt akan lagi mantap dgn technical experience yg ko ade. pdhal, kalo dh start keja, sah2 la xnk bljar dah..hehe

lps tu, ni adelah kisah benar which used to happen to my friend (nama dirahsiakan :P ) len kali, jgn la sekali2 ltk mnde2 yg tak berkait ngn academic dlm folder cert tu. HANYA sijil dan transcript jek. kalo x, sekali dpt interviewer yg mata tajam mcm helang ni, even dh selip belakang sijil2 len...die nmpak. then die bg case study psl mnde tu. CONTOH: kawan saye td dpt case study psl kawen gara2 die letak sijil kursus kawen (even dh sembunyikan kat blkg2 page dah). Si interviewer tarik bwe kuar sijil tu, renung lama2 dan sekali die reka case study psl wedding planning. haaa, never expect kan sln mcm tu. but that's the reality. dunia interview ni mcm2. saye yg dgr hanya gelak2 shj bila member tu cite. tp, dlm gelak pon, sy tetap doakan yg terbaik utk member sy tu. mungkin sbb case study die len dr org, die yg terpilih. who noes kan?

disebabkan pegi interview td, maka saye telah ponteng kelas FACILITIES td. sem ni byk kenangan ponteng kls la. walaupon sblm ni tak pernh2 buat perangai. tp sesungguhnya, dlm byk2 intervw ni, saye tak tahu kat mane ALLAH nk letakkan saye. semestinya saye harapkan yg terbaik. tp kalo ALLAH takbgi tu, mknanya Dia ada la yg lagi baek utk kita. cume mase belum tiba. dan Dia tahu kt mampu hadapi dan terima sume ni. janji, kita meletakkan Dia di tempat plg tinggi yg kt boley gantungkan harapan.

meja study yg quite berselerak dgn notes Faci, tgh stdy balik sbb dh tertinggal 1 lcture. Y__Y

td, saye blank bl pk utk jwb sln intervw ni. dh lama saye left dunia bahas, almost 5 years. bakat loyar buruk yg sedia ade dh gone n makin berkurang scr jujurnya. ditambah lak dgn kemalasan saye utk bace isu semasa....bila saye blank tu, ttb saye teringat pd emel yg sy kirim tuk ssorg adek di Cairo. die ckp die blank nk exam. dalam emel tu..saye tulis...

"..jgn takut, put trust in ALLAH dgn sepenuh jiwa...tanpa berbelah bahagi.kalo blank, tgk langit yg tinggi tu...kosong gak....tp mcm2 yg turun dr situ...sumenye kuasa Allah. same goes to our mind. if we think they r blank, think of ALLAH. dgn izinnye, all amazed & wonderful ideas boley dihasilkan.insyaAllah :) ...

sy buat mnde yg same td. saye pndang langit biru yg cantik dan tinggi tu. dan saye cari kekuatan di situ. and alhamdulillah, it works!

p/s: mak call ckp makcik sy adiah handbag utk saye. waaa, katenye utk intevw. hehe. saye ni bukan jenis girlish sgt nk pakai mnde2 cmtu. tp bl org bg, alhamdulillah :)

diner with adekss

take 10 mins jap hehe...update blog smbil breakfast with macaroni n spagetti sos. ari2 breakfst ngn western je life saye ni. bse la bdk nk cepat siap tp nk kenyang. ok pe...but makan macaroni ni sgt muak, er, xlarat nk telan. normally i used to have spaggetti je for breakfst. xde la muak.seyes.best! aigoo, pnjg leher nk abiskn breakfst kali ni @_@

updating bout yesterday. Sadiq buat lawak ttb sms saye ajak dating! buang tebiat tol la adek sy sorang ni. dh ler kol 12 lebey mlm2 sms org cmtu. nsb bek sy tak tido lg. i tot he is mamaing, smsing me asking for dating. haha. yela, tgh intern kot skrg pastu ajak jumpa tgh mlm. kalo tempat intern belakang utp, boley terima lgi. ni intern kat PD. make sense ke situasi tu? :P

tp sbb die nk date jugak kan dgn kakak die yg dh nk grad ni, so we make it at last! with ayu, hanis n my rumet sekali kat Taman U. dh lame tak makan mcm ni. somehow i felt i missed sumeone yg jauh kat Perlis. T___T (x cukup korum ni) but, i have to accept the fact that he will be no longer with us. tp will always close in our thoughts and doa' :)

me and intan smpai lmbt sbb pg kedai printing poster FYP. tinggalkan poster kat situ then we rushed to that kedai makan. before tu saye dh sms SadiQ soh tlg orderkan in case we late. rumet nk kuew tiaw hailan n air tembikai while saye mcm bser la..." nasi puteh ngn tomyam ayam xde belacan!" without thinking much, i just tekan button SEND.

as we reached there, dner served. hehe. arigato. tp, ayu ngn hanis...

"akak, nape ckp nk tomyam xde belacan? org kedai tu pndg pelik je kat ktorg...."

"yela, nnt dierong letak, akak x ley makan.."

"tp, org tu kate tomyam mane ade belacan.." ayu x puas hati lgi...

"ade...."

"takde la kak" Sadiq tmbah..

"kat Tganu ade!"

"akaaaak, mst org tu gelak kat ayu ngn hanis sbb mintak tomyam xde belacan. dh la kami pompuan. dlm tomyam pon x tahu ade ape...hehe"

"sbb tu la ak soh korang yg order kan...hahah..sbb 'menu' kak tkah tu pelik sikit.."

Sadiq gelak. cheesss~

"...ooo, ko tak nk malu laa ni...soh ktorg yg malu.."

gaduh la bdk2 ni. saye sengih jek. hehe. hurm, as usual if sy x buat sst pelik, mcm xsah jek. cane la nk g makan kat hotel 5 bintang pasni. my husband sila cover muka eh :P

byk cerita yg disembangkan. seemed like kedai tu kami yg punyer. restoran jd kedai kopi. bsela bila 'siblings' met! sume mnde nk cerita. gossip betul la dak2 ni. haha. alahai, sudah besar nye adek2 kesayangan saye ni. i dun noe when i come for convo by this Oct, cane dah sorang2. jgn ckp ade nk kawen sudah. finish ur studies first dik! then br spend the rest with ur beloved~

owh yer, ayu ckp muka saye tembam skrg!

"akak, berat nek eh?.."

saye angguk jek.

"tgh bahagia la tu..dgn sape kak???"

style nk korek rahsia la dak2 ni.haha

i just smile..biar lah rahsia ape yg wujud dlm kepala otak mse tu. senyum sumbing dan bermakna. what did it mean? aku pon xtahu...hahaha

p/s: thnks Sadiq for dner! btw, bear tu nmpak comey dlm keta awk ^___^

poster submission n convo 08 back

4.30pm, jam jd saksi, i stepped out from room to submit the poster. alhamdulillah,it already submitted. forgot to bring paper clips, then end up used my cute pinky kepit kain yg termasuk dlm beg sekolah tu utk clip evaluation form n poster. hehehe....that's me!~

owh, yeay seems like i did have soo many time updating my blog now..kan kan? not really dude. act, i tgh stuck dgn analysis for my fyp. last part insyaAllah. last2 ni yg quite tough sikit. sbb result fluctuate. sabar2. maam ckp, dun wory, u can do it!!! :)

anyway, thanx Eva coz u gave me a CD for picts during convo 08. i m looking for it so so long time ago, after my external crash and have no source to get it back. even akmal nye external pon crash. so, dah Head PNP pn xdek, where else could i find it? asking him? huh, say sorry for that~

syukur2 byk2. but act, i did upload some of photos from my camera kat flickrs suatu mase dulu. but it just for family day kat sungai Siput. not the whole thingy. waaa, so sad maa, terbayang2 lagi sume gmbr2 yg dh gone esp mse event2 yg saye join jd faci. T___T

btw, if sape2 nk tgk gmbr2 family day convo 08 from my camera, u r welcomed to view my FB. haha, but since sy jd photographer, sgt2 la kureng my own photo. that's why this time i upload yg ade my picts jek. kes balas dendam tak sengaja nie :)

whenever i glanced tru these old picts, i jd senyum sorang2. tgk muka sorang2, even muka sendiri yg quite tak matured jek tyme tu. n for sure flashed back all memories again. again and again. yosh..they r so wonderful babe~

at the end of family day....

dlm hutan mane ntah..junggle trekking~

hehehe...

terjumpa gmbr candid ni..bukan sengaja posing mcm tu +__+

lots of love,

Atikah Saari <3