study week kerja-Part1

Salam wbt...

weekend ni agak busy. td msuk ofis half day buat data analysis. half day jela, xlarat nk lama2 sbb perut mcm menyanyi mcm2 lagu daa time tu. balik ptg tido atas sofa dalam sejam lebey, tersadai x ingat ape2. utk makan malam masak simple2 shj, cuba resepi baru dari mak. ape name eh?entah la. rase sedap. ade sayur, ade taugeh, ade ayam dan bla bla bla...

mlm ni sambung study. ade seminggu lg sebelom 'the day'. rase mcm study week shj. teringat zaman study di UTP. mase tu study dgn kawan2. tp skrg study sorang2. dan study perkara yg lagi 'matured' sbb pakai di alam realiti. heehee. bace ISO, standard, nsb bek xde kira2 or formula. erk, jap...ade2. ade formula. kena recall balik.

mlm ni ade cter best, trilogi cinta. mls nk layan anime kat astro, layan cter rosham noor kat TV1 sekali sekala. owh, jiwa org tua saye ni. xpela. once a while :)

antara hati dan keturunan masa depan

salam wbt

really a long time saye tak tulis blog. bukan x nk tulis tp kerja mcm x penh abis (keja mmg tak kan abis pon), so blog tinggal sepi. ntah, bukan x sayang blog. sayang sgt. tp mcm skg life as student bukan lg wujud. kalo dl kena pk diri sendiri shj. skrg mcm2 nk kena fikir. kerja, proposal project, ppl around, mistake..lesson learnt. tak terpk akibatnye

satu hal lagi, kakak ofis selalu bising sbb ak ni mcm xpnh nk fikir psl mse depan. or more specific personal life la katakan. tu lg satu hal. kerja 24/7. dl, rimas gak die dok bebel, skrg msuk telinga kanan, kuar telinga kiri jekkk, hehehe :D

dulu ak perasan ak selalu luah perasaan kat blog. sampai blog ak ade stalker(s) dan sampai ape yg mereka buat kat ak. dl ak takut gak, lps pk2 secara rasionalnye...ak ade Allah kot. buat ape nk takut kan. mereka manusia. pakailah ilmu ape pon, tp ak yakin sgt2 xde satu ilmu dlm dunia ni yg bley kalahkan Allah. stay strong, hadirkan hati dlm setiap detik bersama Tuhanmu...

talking about love, dl ak nk sgt ssorg ni. ak pon x tau la nape. mungkin ak tgk luaran shj kot mse tu. mase die pergi jauh ak rse mcm gelap gle dunie, mcm sedey sgt2. i really hope he will be my mr. right. yg akan sama2 bina hidup dgn ak. but, lps almost 3 tahun berlalu, dan act skrg ni ktorg mmg keep contact, tp jujur sgt ak nk ckp... ak xnk die jd teman hidup ak. bukan sbb die pnh lukakan ak, tp ak rase die tak layak utk dpt tempat istimewa.

kwn2 selalu ckp ak high taste, ak demand...hahaha. mungkin kot. itu dulu, skrg bukan ak desperate ke ape, tp ak tgk dunia realiti. kawen sbg satu ibadat dan kt bukan nk hidup kat dunia shj. akhirat ade lg yg org selalu ingat tp buat2 lupa. ak mahukan seorang lelaki yg boley jd ayah kpd anak2 ak, boley bimbing anak2 ak jd anak2 soleh dan solehah. yg penting sekali boley bimbing ak sendiri. kalo ak tgk pd rupa paras, ok fine, ak akan dpt anak2 yg comel2...tp kalo setakat tu jeee, setakat comel, cantik handsome..tp sahsiah dan akidah tak secomel tu...ape nk jwb? org kate perlu cri keturunan yg bijak2 baru anak pndai2...itu pon ak akui, tp ade jee anak penoreh getak yg jd org hebat, bijak akademik sume. lg bijak dr anak doktor, anak engineer anak pensyarah.

ak akui semua yg ak ckp kat atas tu betul, baka yg baek maka anak2 yg lahir juga baek. tp tu gak bergantung pd didikan mak ayah nnt. kalo future husband ak x mampu nk buat semua tu how can we have such brilliant keturunan (brilliant dr segi iman, akidah, akhlak n akademik)..
sbenarnye bl berckp psl kawen ni kan, scope terlalu luas. bukan hanya nk seronok dua tiga hari, tp more kepada tanggungjawab utk masa depan. tu yg ak nmpak skrg ni.

akhir sekali, ak x kate ak sempurna utk berckp mcm angkuh gle je ni (sstgh org might pk mcm ni), tp ak nk ckp ari ni ak dah tak rase ak perlukan lelaki yg ak pernah jatuh hati 3 tahun lalu. wpon ktorg keep contact each other, tp ak xde hati utk smbung balik ape yg pernh putus antara ak dan die suatu ktk dl...unless die boley fulfill utk jd lelaki yg ley jadi ayah utk anak2 ak suatu hari nnt. ak x ksh laki tu xensem mcm die, xsweettalker mcm die...x romantik mcm die...yg penting....yes he fulfill ape yg ak ckp kt atas tu....

mak kate ak bdk kampung....dan ak akan dpt org sophisticated gle nnt...m(~.~)m

Hikayat

the hikayat was started here...
Sultan Mansur Syah, Hang Li Po,Tuan Puteri, Hang Tuah, Tun Teja and....Laksamana..and the journey continues. Thanks for everything!


credit to Nad, took from her FB :)

new year 2011

Dear Diary,

friday, saturday, sunday and monday- 4 days off. i wish i can go home not in KL but in kelantan. almost 4 months i've been here in melaka, and caused me separuh lemas rindu rumah. just browse plane ticket for airasia and MAS, since last minutes the prices were so much higher. even they are affordable (puasa 2 minggu hehe) but i don't think is a good choice. so, i made up my mind, pujuk diri utk just stay back in Melaka n study on the coding since i need to master those subject! but then, this February ni mmg i nk balik. keja byk ke sikit, who cares? heheh

again, time flew fast as tomorrow i m gonna be 24 (unofficially lah kan). talking about age, by 24 i start to think that i can be called as young lady. even not married yet! i love no. 4 and when it comes to combination of 2 and 4=24....i feel so "heigh ho miss atikah!~" i dont believe how much i've grown up especially when i am walking together with other engineers in yellow suit for a meeting. i felt so alive. thanks Allah.

talking about new year, let me note down some of my wish (azam tahun baru wheee)

1. all my projects will be succeed. sesusah mane pon, i still wish that i can fulfill it till end. InsyaAllah
2. i can be a good muslimah, consistent with my good deeds even i dont have much time to perform yg sunat2 tu. i m still hoping that i can do it. esp puasa every isnin n khamis!insyaAllah
3. i can be a solehah daughter to my parents. will alwys call them even time tu tgh peak ngn kerja n projects. i wish i can as i alwys wish!
4. i may complete my chartered journey as TP or custodian (ni utk jangka masa pnjng-10 years from this moments. but still need first step from beginning.
5. last but not least, i may find my true love...that's a wish and only wish which i dont know how it ends......?

i end with a pict, something precious that i kept in the best place..in my own world. btw, jgn salah sangka, other gifts ( yg korang bagi mse convo tu i kept in some other place, at ofis, atas katil..etc) hehe.. and now, Happy New Year 2011 peeps! May Allah bless.

fish

Dear diary,

whenever i felt so depressed with my work, here i come. throwing out every single thing that i can. i know, doing programming is not as easy as how i looked trough book. yea, yea...people kept questioning me, how i am going to finish these..*sigh*

somehow, i take this as a big challenge. for me, myself n my future. just like a simple code If Else, if i manage to do this coding my future will be bright Else i may loose such a great oppurtunity to customize my legacy. Or i can use array function here when everything goes in loops. up and down for thousand of iterations. i always put the best and highest trust in everything i do. even people say i cant do it, i kept telling myself that i can do it, succeed in any path i may undergo.

btw, i bought an aquarium today. it is not un-schduled budget kay since i already put this as "something to be done in future". There is small cottage inside which i think looks so cute heee, and 4 little guppies (Leo, Simba, Kurt and xde nama lg sekor). i wish i can upload it here but a bit lazy to transfer from my phone. huh~

Wedding May

sometimes i still can't believe that she already married. time flew fast, like yesterday we are talking about the word "marriage" and all sort of thing about it. well, girl's talk. shhhh~

owh, feel want to get married too!hee, mcm men masak2 je bl ckp camtu. for me marriage is more on responsible while putting aside lust and sexual matters. they are just apart from it. aish, thinking about marriage is too complicated. better kumpul duit tunggu anak raja masuk minang :P hehehe.kidding.

btw, i m so happy for her, Darling May. so happy and so happy..ting tong! May Allah bless ur life day after. even u already married, u still my darling May..and u look so beautiful in purple.

money

Dear Diary,

Today, i start to know..how to appreciate the word of MONEY. long time ago, when i was a kid, i dont even understand the meaning of word, "susahnye nk nk cari duit ni". cause, anything comes from mak and ayah. every morning mak will left me with coins (70 sen),if fardhu ain (tambah lagi 20 sen). well, my parents never teach me to spend so mewah2. mak will provide me with nasi bekal. if ade bekal nasi duit belanja jd 50sen shj. nothing more, nothing less. yet, i dont feel any hardship with money. mak and ayah never fail to satisfy me.

but now, when i was being employed... already have my own slip gaji, already have to think wisely on how to spend money antara kehendak and keperluan, those made me sick! previously, RM 500 is more than enough. maybe at that time, takde sewa rumah, duit minyak pon xbyk, maintenance keta pon setakat low level je. then everything seems ENOUGH! but now, with current income, feel like air mengalir masuk sungai. laju jeee. takde sekat2. hehehe

then i start to realise. makin banyak duit masuk, makin banyak duit keluar. agak2 account bank balance la mcm ni kot heee. makin tinggi taraf hidup, makin lah tinggi maintenancenye. all in all, nk cari duit is not easy. and i felt so grateful to be in Melaka. at least dont have to think about daily working suit (baju kurung ke ape) coz what i do have only that yellow suit! m(-___-)m

projects

Dear Diary,

Today, i m acting like a mother, so busy with her two sons. satu tgh dukung, satu dlm troli. hehe. well, that's how life will be. org laen pg MidValley, enjoy dgn kawan2 window shopping suka ati. but me? hurm, i m happy with my life. pedulikan org ape nk kater. only Allah knows yeahh!

wut can i say, life is miserable. i got a new project which is more on programming. wosh, i not an IT engineer to do all sort of coding in fact i dont even know how coding works! heee, but then...dear friends, this is the place that turn atikah saari into "somebody". somebody that learn to know everything. from IT engineer, analysist, leader, follower until a happy go lucky young lady. i just bought a programming book which cost me RM 159. erk, tercekik rase. luckily, i can use that receipt to cut down my income tax later. so, right after this i m gonna spend my nite with this book and make sure the coding works. may Allah bless!

2 outstanding projects are 50-50 done. total projects = 3 (analyzer and developer for RCFA methods, technical work on visual management and programming for database and user interface). these are the projects that kills my joy and freedom. tu tak include day to day basis job yg mmg technical. ting tong sungguh la lately. apepon, sy sudah jatuh CINTA!~

i'm back uols~

Assalamualaikum

Yes, i made it. br re-open my blog for public. tp, this time sorry i will not allow for any comments. just for u to read, just for me to keep on writing and just for me to rewind all these journals some other days. i just decorate my room, with purple theme. with dried roses and teddies, doing some art at the wall as well as handy-made frame for my convocation. make sure my room smell good. air freshner must be available. and for that i'm choosing peach+honey. btw, i wish to put some picts here somehow, i left the charger in office m(-___-)m SORRY

next week, insyaAllah i'm going to IKEA. hehe, looking for some stuffs (lampu tido and carpet yg soft n bulu2 tu) hee, but i cant promise sticking to those stuff jek. sekali angkut mcm2 wat balik melaka. budget2...nsb bek x pakai kad kredit lg. i should avoid using that 'merbahaya card" hehe. but then again mende tu necessary during outstation. *sigh*

life...they are so different now. dlu buzy dgn study and academic's matters. sampai lupe dunia luar. currently buzy dgn kerja yg bertimbun2 xpnh abis. pegi pagi balik malam, esok ulang mnde yang sama. weekend dtg, sambung keja kat umah. sometimes spending time at ofis. harunye hidup. but act, i m giving myself two years utk jd dewasa, utk focus pd kerjaya n to be a young lady. and within that time, i wish i can find my truly atikah saari. i need to stop sbb nk smbung kerja ofis. have reports to be submitted. see, my weekend pon spend utk keja. alahai tikah sayang heee

Summarize of 2010

after berkurun lamanye sy menghilangkan diri..for a very P.R.I.V.A.T.E reasonsss, now i m back. talking about life, currently so many changes. n alhamdulillah i can adapt it well. well done tikah, you're doing good in your job! heeee m(-___-)m

i love to repeat and reuse ayat ni
"people come and go...leaving footprint atas hati" ok, i starting to be jiwang balik...auuw, nope. i wish i can stop being this way again2 and again. traffic light merah! btw, i dont want to talk about the past, just summarize 2010 in a very precise way (",)

January

starting my final semester at UTP. FYP make me crazy

February~May

struggling for study till very END (minit terakhir jwb paper Corrosion kat MH

June

i spent 2 weeks at UTP, completing and wrapped up all student life there

July

PPM called for chit chat session (Alhamdulillah), 1 week later i got that position

August

Away to KL, jd penjual durian tegar kat umah (kelantan)

September

PPM: Here I come! PIPE 65 was amazing...

October

My Graduation, alhamdulillah with 1st class honour Bachelor in Mechanical Engineering (major Material)

Till Now

Struggling here day and night. 24/7 working days...sampai lupe sume mnde. kerja kerja...zzZZ

and the journey continues.

p/s: i noe its too early to tulis psl sume ni sbb tak akhir tahun lg. but, i love it!~

happy

lately...having life with great mode.
bgun pagi mst rase happy. i met new people everyday...lurve it :)
alhamdulillah

saye rabun lah

haih lately terasa mata makin kabur...adekah sudah semakin tua hehe??? power spect tak g check2 lg. kalo dl, without spect i still can see people. but right now, rase mcm sume blur. i really cant figure out who's standing in front of me. tp still berlagak taknk pakai spect. adeh2... ni msuk plant bahaya nih. sure2 kena marah ngn bos...T___T

so i gugel spect td. ops, bukan nk cr spect baru k. saje je nk usya mane2 pattern. tp kan last2 mst tngan gatal nk click kat yg old skool nye. yg bingkai tebal jugak. hee hee. i noe2, mom n sister will marah2 n bising bl tgk i pakai spect ni. i noe i noe...tp i tak plan n tak terpk nk pakai lenses, sbb mcm cerewet jek. dah le sy ni jenis pelupa suke letak merata2...not suit me at all lah pakai menda alaah tuuu. dan lg satu org pkai lense ni adelah org yg mementingkan penampilan jek kot, which is i m not in that type hoho....

i found these....

tp mcm x sesuai sbb i dun like blue hoho..reject~

i like this one, seyes...mcm my current spect. but i think mine nye bingkai lg tebal dan besar :)
tp this one mmg gle2 captured my eyes...*drool*
mcm nk tukar spect amk yg ni jek.seyes2...ESCADA, i m in lurve~

sy rse mmg kena pg check power ni. mcm gle2 ade increment jek, so no wonder la asek sesat jalan jek. even dok PIPE ni pon, sesat jugak. ish, kalo sehari x sesat kat tempat baru mmg xSAH la org nama atikah ni. parah btui~

bila la saye nk jd cam org len eh, yg jalan x sesat. yg buat ape2 selalu betul, yg teratur, neat n smart. bila eh???dan sampai bila sy akan sentiasa blur bl org ckp ape2?muka cool cam xde ape2...cool la sgt. hehe...

Raya...

Salam...selamat hari raya utk semua dan maaf zahir batin, dunia akhirat. mane2 yg ade berhutang ngn saye tu, kalo utang duit sy halalkan shj. hehe...tp kalo rm 50 above sile jelaskan yerrr...heee. dan sape yg saye berhutang dgn die, sila la tuntut jgn segan2 eh.

alhamdulillah, raye tahun ni sgt bermakna. sbb saye dh keja, tp x dpt gaji lgi. so xdpt lg nk bg duit raye kat bdk2 dtg raye kat umah. sedey2. insyaAllah next yr, dh bley dah mampu utk impian tu. erm, dan raye tahun ni dah xdpt duit raye sbb semua org ingat bl dh keja xyah dpt daa. pdhal gaji xdpt lg n still ask for duit mak ayah T___T. hehe, xksh la semua tu sbb tu dh standard la. tp kan...ade jugak org bg duit raye bl sy pakai alasan gaji xmsuk lg. wheee~

ops, lupe siyes lupe. raye tahun ni special sbb org ramai wish dgn 2 ucapan kat saye. Selamat Hari raya tikah && Happy Birthday...cam menarik dpt ucapan bekembar nih. hoho. 9th September, one day before raye genap umur 23. owh, dh 23 tahun hidup bernafas berjalan atas bumi Allah. cepatnye mase kan? my wish tercapai juga utk start keja at the age of 22. segala puji itu milik Allah. Dialah yg selayaknye dan kt sbg hamba tak mempunyai ape2. we have nothing in this life coz we belong to HIM till end.

wish tuk birthday kali ni tak tersenarai. sama ade byk atau tkde lngsung.hehe. dasyat2. sibuk keja smpai lupa nk pasang angan2 sempena birthday sendiri. kalo ade pon, jdkan sbg rahsia shj. simpan sorang2 is better than sharing wif others coz experience teached me; trust nobody. sbb kdg2 kawan bek sendiri pon tikam kawan dr belakang. tnpa sedar dan tak sngka. tu la jd lgi bendul...hehe. oklah, dh mls nk tulis pnjg2..sbb idea gone. owh, enjoy ur life selagi berpeluang....dan jdlah hmba Allah yg bertaqwa..aamin

my happy family after all. suke sgt pic ni....nk print ltak kat ofis la :) :)

randomness of raye~

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri buat semua. kali ini kt beraya bukan lagi sebagai seorang yg bergelar pelajar kan? mayb ade antara kt yang dah keja, dah ley bg duit raya pon kat adek2, anak2 buah and sape2 jela. wah, mest best perasaan ley bg duit raya kat org len...teringat kt zaman dahulu when sibuk hulur tngan minta duit raya dgn org yg lagi tua. pergi beraya umah org, bukannye nk mkan biskut raya pon, tp nk duit raya! (",)

hurm, just a random update sblm bertolak balik ke rumah mlm ni. balik dgn kak dah, she used to be my sister kat sini. senior UTP dan act ktorg ade pertalian darah belah mak. so kat sini dgn die la tempat menumpang kasih hehe. die pon keja same tempat dgn saye jugak. learnt alot drpd die psl keja, cane nk adapt ngn new life n so on. arini die dh cuti, bselah staff lame kan ley amik cuti. org baru mcm saye ni xde sape nk bg cuti T___T. die tunggu saye balik ofis, then br ktorg gerak. dan mse nk berbuka td pon die yg masakkan lauk. owh, sungguh terharu. g smyg terawih dgn die pon nk lintas jalan, siap pimpin tangan lagi. terasa sungguh dimanjakan ade kakak mcm ni. eh2, xkate plak kaklong sy x manjakn saye. my sis kat umah tentulah lebey lagi care die manjakan saye. huh, ok ok, stop talking about this.

ofis td mmg dh lengang. ley kire ngn jari je sape yg ade. mostly dh amik cuti semlm. lps tu next week straight smpai ahad. tp saye, rse k3 dh kena dtg sini. nilah penangan msuk keja before raya. hehe...td jumpa bos, ade tnye sln tak fhm psl task given. alahai dpt bos yg jenis bg semangat, rase cam best jek wpon bukan senang nk survive kat sini. haha. mcm2 gelaran dh dpt. clerk la, praktikal student la..staff ganti org nk bersalin la..mcm2. hehe. mayb muka 'muda n x mature' sgt kot. bos bg inspiration, he guides me in every way that i need to possesses, ideas, till rase cam kenyang jek dgn nasihat2 die. He trusts me well, so do i kan? ape mksd ayat ak ni???hehe. biar sy jela yg fhm maksud tersiratnye :)

dan dgn muka tak malu, sy timbulkan balik psl sln2 yg die tnye mse chit chat aritu. die kate mmg sln2 yg die tnye tu HR pon marah, pasal ape susah sgt. hehe. he said tu la 1st time die tnye sln mcm tu. saye pon ngadu saying that the questions so and so TOUGH!!! but praise to Allah sbb finally i am here! sume tu kerja Allah swt and sy xnk komen ape2. (its not a riak or ape2 yg sewaktu dgnnye, but i just want to let ya noe that this time interview was much2 harder than SI babe!) mase belajar kt mmg berjoli dgn duit yg PETRONAS bg rm500 per month. lps tu bila dh x belajar, sbb dh terbiasa tersuap dgn duit, kt akan rse mcm kering abis since scholar dh tak masuk. nk cr keja skrg ni susah. mmg bergantung atas nasib tp pd mase yg same academic kena strong jugak. u play play kat U, u kuar nk keja susah la...competition really tough! but again, ingat ALLAH ade. academic saje x cukup. really tak cukup. sbb ape yg kt plan sume Allah yg akan tentukan. how ur day ahead only He noes the pattern of it. you zalimkan org hari ni, esok lusa u tak tahu how Allah akan balasnye nnt kat u. jgn ingat u akan terlepas dr semua tu. never! lagi2 bila dh syirik dgn kuasa selain Allah. cane la nk jawab kat akhirat? u ade wajah cantik skrg belom tentu esok luse mnde tu akan remain. Allah nk balas in a blink of eyes babe. rosak sume yg u ade tu...menangis la br nk insaf...keep it strong tikah. this people will die. u too as well~

ok, i noe i melalut. hehe. sorry! back to story..at the end of session ngn bos i told him..

"Bos, esok sy cukup umur.." dgn muka tak malu.

"Haa, ye ker? Rugila cuti esok, if not bley celebrate..." he smiled saying that, bukan dibuat2 k

"Owh, xpe...xperlu pon sume tu. Bos doakan saye eh, spy BERJAYA!!!~" I made double jerk kat bos dan sengih broadly hoho :)

"InsyaAllah....boley2.."

dan tadi sume org berjalan balik, mengatur langkah dgn rase gembira. everybody was smiling.sbb esok start cuti raya..so do I, without exception. *big smile*

things about raye...randomness:

1. i dun have baju raye this time. i mean baju yg khusus org jahit utk raye. so pakai jela baju yg tak pakai lgi zaman dok UTP dl. jdlah jugak bju raye..huhu
2. i tak terima gaji lagi utk raye kali ni. rse frust sbb br nk plan bg duit raye kat bdk2 T__T
3. raye k2 or k3 dh kena balik melaka sbb raye k4 dh keja
4. 1st tyme parents kasi balik raye ngn kawan, gerak tgh2 malam sbb nk elak jammed. alhamdulillah parents dh start bg kelonggaran. praise to Allah
5. x bli ape2 kuih raye pon utk bawe balik rumah, cume bawe1 kotak kecil dpt mse nk kuar ofis aritu. wat balik yg tu jela...
6. even tak dpt gaji jugak, tp still nk bg duit raye kat anak buah. xkire....hoho
7. raye pertama nnt, umur i jd 23 tahun 1 ari...owhhh~
8. 1st time raye sume org sekeliling wish selamat jalan sbb nk balik jauh. sume org tnye bertolak, balik ngn sape...wah, so so caring la dieorg ni :)
9. i ade 2 org anak buah daa this time raye (",)

"like a jewel in the night's velvet sky, a beacon of hope..."

its ur PRIDE

its about pride...lately mnde ni selalu came across. pride tu ape sbenarnye? where u put your pride? pride and prejudice...tajuk novel as well as movie (if not mistaken lah). mybe right after this i wont let ppl pijak2 my pride, i wont let ppl anggap betapa 'low'nye sy meletakkan maruah yg ade. NOT SUCH WAY!!!

being silent doesnt mean you have nothing to say. it just when u r waiting for a right time to spill out everything. but, promise that it wont turn to be a volcano again. hahaha. such a lame thou. one more thing, bosan tahap petala ke sepuluh pon, i wont text anyone saying how bored i m (just how i did recently). dah2, no more lah perangai lame2. goodbye is goodbye. kang ppl used to say 'terhegeh' which i hate much2. well, ppl never noe our intention, salah buat faham len. then new trouble will come. then i should think bout doing something instead of texting ppl. a new hobby would be nice, ayte?

if Hlovate used to say 'putus fius' then i will used putus jugak. but not fius la for me, prefer putus wayar n fius terbakar.. igniting the spark and flame. burst out.THE END (",)

memoirs of geisha

Memoirs of a Geisha...i used to have this novel previously. but then i lost it as ade org pinjm x anta2. geram jugak but then it is ok. after this i will buy anew lorh since mls nk saket2 hati ngn org. my kazen yg recommended this novel to me, at that time movie tak kuar lg. honestly this is the 1st novel i ever ever fall in love! gle angau bace novel ni. every words written are meaningful. but then i dun want to review the whole plot as u can get it here.

if u read the novel, the plot will be more interesting compare to movie. tp standard la mcm tu. ngn ayat2 penuh bunga n ropol2 mmg wat sy cair di alam fantasi laa. mlm ni layan lagi sekali muvie tu ngn utube. so beautiful, so sweet -____-". citer tu dh gulakan saye nmpaknye.

"..she has been given is not what she wants, as she is forbidden to pursue her own personal desires - namely that of a kindly older man who she has secretly been in love with for years, and goes only by the name of The Chairman..."

"i will lock my heart and saved it for u.."

desires, dreams, and love come together tru out the plot till end. sumeone who lives with it may never feel gives up in every single way he/she encounters. life is about a battle for someone u love, for something u long for...and for something precious that we call as dream.

bekerjaya

sungguh saye tak sedar bape hari lgi Ramadhan akan berlalu. pejam celik tengok langit pndang sekeliling semua muka len yg wujud. dah tak de lg kawan2 yg selama ni ari2 dok gadoh, study same2, g kelas same2...dan x lama lg nk raye~

tp this post, sy tak nk cerita pasal raye lg. sbb itu mende yg 'soon'.masih tak pasti bagaimana ia akan berlalu. sy nk tulis psl current life, current mode, current feeling bla bla...hehe. wktu dok UTP dulu, sy selalu bayangkan and tertanya where am i next Ramadhan???x sangka kan kali ni berpuasa jauh dr keluarga. mula2 puasa ade mak dan ayah. pastu puasa ngn ayah jek(mase ni mak kat KL) dan tyme ni sy belajar masak huuu. lps tu puasa 1 family utk beberapa hari dan skrg puasa sorang2. bukak pose pon sorang sbb akak senior yg stay ngn sy ni keja balik kol 12 mlm tiap2 ari. so, alone la tiap2 ari balik keja. dan kena masak utk diri sendiri jugak. that's my life so far.

bekerjaya? mmg best jd org yg dh keja coz u r no longer stay under ur parents's money hehe. tp skrg pakai duit mak ayah lg sbb gaji xdek lagi.hukhuk. lps ni xde dah laaa. insyaAllah. bila dh keja, semuanye kena berdikari. nk g bazar pon sorang2. nk g shopping pon sorang2. myb utk sstgh org yg stay ngn geng, yg bernasib bek dpt tempat keja sama dgn kawan2 still dpt rase ade kawan utk rely on. but for me? sume tu dh tak wujud. pegi keja sorang. balik keja sorang. kalo sesat pon sesat lah. macam my 1st day keja, i bley sesat utk smpai rumah. dah le terlajak jauh lak tu. nsb bek jumpa jalan balik haha. dan nsib bek keta pakai plat kelate, so kalo drive sekejap ke kiri pastu ke kanan, masuk simpang kuar simpang, org tau dah leeer. huh.

bila di ofis plak...dah x sama mcm jd student when u have friends yg working utk tasks, asgmts yg same dgn ape yg u buat. dan juga tak same mse jd praktikal student when mase tu u takde amanah nk kena pikul. u just buat keja yg SV suruh, assist technician g plant. tlg2 fotostat docs. pendeknye wat keja simple2 jek. dan juga tak same if u jd seeding engnr. sbb u xde specific task yg u kena buat. erm, maksd sy u r not really in that position coz task tu mmg ade surelah kan hehe. like wut i face now, amanah yg quite berat, tp insyaAllah akan cube pikul dan laksanakan sebaik mungkin. sst yg mmg bos suruh u buat utk kesejahteraan sejagat. HAHAHA. ayatku skema tahap apee~

xyah la cte pnjg, tp begitulah scr kesimpulannya. tp kan, 1 masalah yg saye face skrg, bl boley dikatakan hmpir setiap mase sy kena remind diri bahawa saye bukan bdk praktikal! aish, susah betul nk twist status tu. asek terbawa2 keadaan mse intern dl, dan lg satu rse cam susah nk serius. owh, it takes time babe! nk kena pusing balik, ketatkan balik mane2 skru dlm kepala ni spy sedar diri bahawa u r now an exect! ni betul, sy x tipu. seyes. reasons why i'm being this way are: u r the youngest in the club, u r the only 'girl' surrounded with all matured guys, the way u dress up x mcm org yg keja haha coz u still bwe gaye student zmn dok UTP, u talk like a student, u love and laugh for any reason (muka susah nk serius) tp ntah cane ak ley serius mse intervw ngn chit chat tuh....T___T

but, there are some other reasons yg buat u rase u ni act dh keja when all ppl address and respect ur each words, ur welfare sgt2 terjage, when dlm meeting bos asek2 sebut nama u ckp pls take note ur task bla bla...bos reminds other exects soh ajar mcm2 mnde baru, soh bwe u pegi mane2 meeting utk kenalkan u pd sume org, bila GM ckp "that's a big challenge for u atikah as a fresh grad"...bila bos terpksa minta org custom made coverall ngn kasut hahaha awalnye. sbb size comel sgt (",) mcm kelakar jek sbb tula 1st tyme pecah rekod org nk custom-made kat situ. tp nsb bek ade rezeki muat size plg kecik! hoho

tp itulah kenyataannye (ntah ape hakikatnye) bl dh keja. kdg2 rse seronok, kdg2 rse mcm sedey terkenang zaman belajar sbb mse jd student cuti byk. bl dh keja, mne ade mid sem, akhir sem. xde daaah. nk balik jumpa mak ayah pon susah. tp bl keja seronok sbb dpt duit....

i miss this adorable friend kat umah...T___T

update b4 g KL

bape hari lg tinggal dan esok akan ke KL. pegi awal sikit sbb ade brg2 nk beli di sana. and selasa ke melaka dan RABU...status bertukar. opps, bukan cik kpd puan eh. hahaha..itu belom lg maa. no longer a student or jd tukang jual durian yg berjaya. ceehwah, mcm bangga lak plak. owh tidak TIDAK. mmg sy menidakkan perkara tu. bila status bertukar, maknanya tanggungjwab pon bertambah. amanah yg digalas dan yg Allah swt nk tanye kat akhirat pon akan bertambah. dan am i ready for that, am i?

tp, takpe. ape2pon jalan yg dilalui sy harap sy istiqamah dgn ape yg saye ade skrg. dan di mana je berada, masih meletakkan Dia di barisan plg utama dan selebihnya di belakang. insyaAllah. and sprt yg sy ckp sblm ni, di melaka mahu bina hidup baru. maka mende2 kisah lampau sila tinggalkan di belakang. yg dh lepas tu lepas lah. sy selitkan sepotong ayat dr Surah Taha: 111-112 buat renungan sesiapa yg berkaitan :)

" Dan tunduklah semua muka (dgn merendah diri) kepada Tuhan Yang Hidup Kekal lagi sentiasa mengurus (makhluknya). Dan sesungguhnya telah merugilah org yg melakukan kezaliman. Dan barangsiapa mengerjakan amal2 yang soleh dan dia dalam keadaan beriman, maka dia tidak khuatir akan perlakuan yang tidak adil (terhadapnya) dan tidak (pula) akan pengurangan haknya.

[Surah Taha: 111-112]

ok, done psl ni. btw, sy masih sibuk membuat checklist utk semua brg2 yg nk dibawa ke sana. aish, bila mak xde ni, seolah2 takde PA lak. kelam kabut jugak. haaa, dan br la sedar bahawasanye pot pet pot pet mak selama ni sejak nk masuk asrama tu byk faedahnya. at least xde la tertinggal ape2 kan. mak, how i wish u r 'ere...T__T

hurm, dalam pada mak takde ni, mcm tak caye gak sy percaya urus diri n masak2 utk bukak pose for ayah n me. ni mmg kire dh berdikari la ni. n i rase ley dpt sijil lulus la walaupon nk dptkan kepujian tu jauh lagi.hehe. nnt xde la org kebulur kat melaka dan mak xde la susah hati tinggalkan anak die yg mcm-semua-mende-x-ley-makan which need her to cook on her own! hehe. mak, i've grown up!!! i have grown up!!!

and being home with ayah is the best wut i can say. seyes. kami belajar wat ondeh2 (buah melaka) dgn jayanya wpon ade je yg tak kena. bselah 1st trial kan (",) pls dun expect me to be an expert babe. dan dad mmg awesome. da sekali tu sy tak g terawih sbb sakit kepala sgt. i left alone with baby (my cat) kat umah. sy soh je ayah pg terawih even i noe ayah berat hati nk tinggalkan sy sorang2. dad, i'm not alone lah, Allah with me all the time and baby too hee! lps isyak, i terus tersadai atas katil and baby teman sy tido kat alas kaki. x sedar pape. sekali bukak mate dgr ayah tnye dh isyak ke? tgk jam kol 9.30, and ayah blik awl mlm tu xsmyg 20 rakaat sbb bimbang sy dok sorang2. owh dad..dan dan lps tu mcm2 cerita kelakar bl dok ngn ayah. surely and surely i will remember these momets till the end of life. SURE ok? and ur grandkids pon akan sy cerita betapa sweet dan caringnye tok ayah die to their mom satu mase dl. hehehe...

and yes, i've finish jd tukang jahit smlm. alhamdulillah. perlu menamatkan perkhidmatan laa since nak sambung kontrak baru lak ni. abis sakit2 badan asek dok jahit. hee, lame dh tinggal kan. suke2. hurm, wut else...?

owh ni antar bende2 yg sy mmg akan bwe ke melaka nnt:

-Tafsir, almathurat (xley tinggal ni.compulsory babe!!!)

-La Tahzan (bace bl nk tido mlm)

-sketch book (bakal engineer ni mmg jenis suke melukis & tQ kpd yg menghadiahkannye hee)

-my 0ld-pinky-reused-notebook as my diary hehe

-some color papers for origami ( i do love origami ok)

-a potrait/frame mse ayah grad dl when at the time sy kecil lgi hehe (as pengubat rindu n pembakar smangat)

-my Solusi's collection (do lurve it much2)

-teddies? ermm, i dun need these creatures lorh. bek bawe bantal besar tu hehe. so just left them kat umah shj ok? (sory rumet, i tinggalkan teddies yg u bagi tu T___T)

ni yg wajib ade lah utk g melaka..hehe..yg len2 tu xley tulis, berjela2 pnjg nntnye *wink2x*

dah le, byk keja lg nk wat. owh, doakan sy moga tabah selalu, tidak riak, tidak takabbur dan patah hati dgn ragam manusia. dan juga bejaya dlm setiap ujian qanaah Allah bg. insyaAllah

"jadilah seperti resam padi, makin berisi makin tunduk"

p/s: utk kawan2 yg msh tunggu placement, berdoalah dgn penuh yakin. Allah swt Maha Mendengar, Maha Penyayang, Maha Mengetahui...dan Maha Semuanya...insyaAllah, i will pray for you as well..ingat Allah tu dekat dgn kita..He hears & noes our whispers and dreams as well as intention. maaf, jgn pk post ni riak ke, bangga ke hape, its not for that, just update for my life 0' wut i did now k :)

2 paths

we do have two different paths now dan tak mungkin akan menjadi satu lg.

sblm ni we might see each other again and again

tp skrg,

kau punye jalan sendiri

dan ak punye jalan ak sendiri

dan ak hanya akan tertoleh kebelakang bl ade rindu

pd kenangan2 lalu

bersama kau yg dahulu

we will never cross again

sbb jalan ak masih jauh utk smpai ke penghujung

dan destinasi akhir kt tak same

jalan kau?

ak tak pasti krn itu pilihan kau

Kebun kecik

it was my time to lepak2 dpn lappy, surfing and chatting and enjoying every single moment as org yg tak bekerjaya lg. so lepaking is the best thing lah forsure. tanpa gangguan dr seekor nyamuk pon dan semut2. hahaha. but, all o' sudden si ayah...

"dik,meh kt g chabang 3, kait buah langsat ngn dokong"

dan si anak pon mulala.." haaaa???skrg ke???.."

"yelaaaa...."

maka, bangun la si anak dgn malasnye sambil tarik tudung n bersiap ala kadar. g kebun je pon. bukan ade org nk tgk, kena jd mangsa nyamuk adelah.huh. tp, dlm mse tu sempat lg si anak tarik Nikon die. dh lame Nikon tu bersawang dlm loker. dh berhabuk pon. mmg lah bertuahnye tuan die heee.

pokok langsat

Chabang 3 tu refer kat our kebun sbb it is located dkt ngn chabng 3. senang, letak je nama tu. act, smlm lg ayah nk g kait buah2 tp since ujan lebat gle,so xdpt la. maka arini kena la kait jugak sbb takut dok kat pokok lame2 nnt buah tu pecah dan luruh sbb ujan. fyi, dokong tu adelah adek beradik langsat. dipendekkan cerita, ade 3 siblings la which are langsat, duku dan dokong. rambai tu adek beradik len mak len ayah mungkin sepupu sepapat kot theee heee. i tak tahu kalo org belah luar dr kelantan pnggil ape dokong ni. rasenye lg manis dr buah duku n langsat, tp the smell tak sekuat duku. dan buah dokong ni quite besar. hurm, act, smpai ke arini pon saye x berapa arif sgt psl 3 beradik ni. asek tertukar jek. ni pon sbb ayah selalu betulkan bila sy tersasul sbut nama len buah len :)

ini buah dokong, tp mcm rupe langsat adeh, buat sy keliru

lps dh abis kutip2 langsat, dokong sume tu, sy pegi men2 tepi baruh. haa, ni satu lg istilah yg kena translate dlm bhs standard. baruh tu mean sawah pagi yg dh tak digunakan lgi. so, kire mcm ade lalang, rumput2, n even bila ujan ade air. kalo musim kemarau ley men wau dlm tu. n ley buat rumah dlm rumput2 pnjg2. pergh, gle best ingat zaman dulu. balik umah kena sental ngn dettol la sbb gatal2 dok men dlm rumput. wheee...*wonderful childhood memories lol* :)

sy p men kat tepi baruh tu sbb nk cr buah berangan. BUAH BERANGAN. haaa, rupa2nye kampung sy dpt nama dr pokok ni la. dan pokok ni lak ade dlm tanah kami. terharu kejap. x sangka dlm zaman2 skrg ade lg pokok berangan. jap2, kalo korang nk tahu ni la address umah sy,

Nooratikah Saari @ Awang

Kg Chabang 3 Berangan

16200 Tumpat, Kelantan

haa, nk highlight kat perkataan Berangan tu. no wonder la sy ni kuat berangan. dr kecik smpai besar hidup dlm angan2 jek. ok2, back tu buah berangan plak. buah ni mcm kacang la. kalo x silap sy dlm english myb used to call as walnut, ke hazelnut (eh bukan2 hazelnut) tp mmg ade la nama yg ade nut2 tu kat belakang. kalo tgk cartun chipmunks, tupai kecik tu selalu bwe buah berangan ni masuk umah die dlm batang kayu.

buah berangan yg msh dlm kulit, on my palm

buah berangan ni disebarkan mcm buah getah jugak, iaitu melalu mekanisme letupan. korang jgn lak tnye saye buah getah tu ape. kang ketuk ngn senduk kang hehe. terbongkok2 sy kutip buah berangan dlm daun2 kering. nsb bek tak tersangkut ngn duri pokok salak. adeh. since sy x bawe plastik, maka buah berangan tu pon terpaksa la dimasukkan or lebih tepat wordnye dikilass dlm baju (sprt gmbr di bwh hee). mmg x senonoh perbuatan itu. tp nk wat cane. jalan jekkk.

ops, korang might tnye cane nk makan buah ni kan? kena goreng or rebus dl. biji luar die tu keras kak. xley gigit, nnt gigit yg tercabut. kena goreng dgn pasir. rse die besttt. tp sbb mak xde kat umah, so simpan la dl tunggu mak balik utk buat. sy tak tahu cane process selanjutnye buah berangan ni. tau makan jek! (",)

ok, done talking about buah berangan and will be off juge utk this post. sbb dh mls nk tulis. hehehe. but, b4 tu nk share 2 gmbr about my kebun yg kecik ni. its like a black n white photo sbb pencahayaan kureng sikit. so here it goes...

dan last sekali gmbr buah rambutan yg susah nk kait sbb tinggi sgt. just ley tgk jek dr bawah. gle sedey dow... tupai je yg makan T___T

and it was THE END of the story for my kebun ni. motip die, saje2 nk cte psl kebun yg selalu jd tempat saye lepak2 mse kcik2 dl. now, sume pokok dh besar, just like me. dh grown up pon. dan juga, di kebun ni la i called KLCC asking either i was recomended or not for SI. mse tu dgn mak, tgh tunggu durian. i will alwys remember that moment when i hugged my mom with joy and happiness,pluss ngn tears sekali hehe. thnks Allah for that bless :)