birthday Mas & Izzat

saye bukan jenis org senang nk ingat tarikh lahir org. sumpah! tak tipu. mmg susah. hanya seorang shj yg sy ingattarikh lahirnya hingga ke saat ini, iaitu kaklong saye. alasan sejak kecil, setiap tahun, dia la the only person yg ingat bila hari saye dilahirkan. dan sejak kecil die akan bercerita psl hari kelahiran saye walaupon berulang kali dan setiap tahun hanya cerita yg same. mcm mane mak sakit perut, ayah takde sbb di UPM ktk itu. bagaimana kaklong kena tlg mak pegi hospital dan semua rentetan peristiwa diulang berkali2. hehe. dan hanya die la yg sentiasa menghadiahkan saye ape2 shj pd hari lahir saye walaupon sikat rambut kecil bewarna pink!

jadi, jgn salahkan saye kalau hanya tarikh lahir dia yg sy ingat. dan maaf, hari lahir mak dan ayah saye pon saye tak ingat smpai skrg! saye cume tahu mereka lahir bulan jun dan bulan mei. teruk kan?? tp itu kenyataan.

dan sbb tu la, sy curik mase yg mmg seciput ni, sekadar tnda ingatan utk saye sendiri bahawa saye ade kwan2 yg lahir pd tarikh sekian sekian..yg saye perlu ingat dan kenang. mungkin ia tidak membawa ape2 makda bg sstgh org, tp bg saye... itu tanda saye menghargai mereka sbg kawan :)

MASMALIZA

mas, ak harap ak x lupe tarikh ni dan tak tertukar dgn org len daa. sbb ak selalu tertukar DOB ko dgn kazen ak. setiap tahun mcm tu. daya ingatan lemah agaknye. haha...

hey, ak harap kau sentiasa dpt ceriakn hidup kawan2 sekeliling ko dgn ape yg ade pd diri ko skrg ni. hehe, u can make ppl laugh, u can make joke, and u can make semuanya jd happening. nice babe..

with ur pleasant & sweet smile,

i wish everything will end nicely in ur life. jd mcm fairy tale hehe. yes, u can. insyaAllah.

HAppy Birthday girl...May Allah bless u and ur day afterwards. aamin

^^V

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IZZAT

hey dude, this is 2nd post for ur birthday. 1st post mse intern 2009. hehe...nice one!

ko nk adiah jat?alolo, xdpt la nk bg yg tu. hee, takpe, dah rse awekks ko kc presents kat ko. kan kan?? so ak x bg pon, xde halnye :P

weh, tahun ni tahun last dow. 5 tahun kenal, bkn mse yg pendek. mcm2 berlaku. pahit manis sume ade. tp, yg tak best tu just lupakan wpon bkn senang nk lupa. its ok!as time goes by, sumenye akan berakhir dgn baik. aamin.

so, this year ko nk soh ak doakan ape lak? dulu ko nk soh ak doakan ko cpt kawen??ak forward doa yg same aci tak utk tahun ni???? +___+

dan ak tmbh sikit, ak doakan supaya ko dpt keja cepat2. haaa, br ley kawen awal heee... :D

izat, ni adiah dr ak utk ko...hehe, ko kena kejar tikus tu sbb die dah bawak lari kek tu...\0/

abis, ak xley nk karang pnjg2 la lately, keja xpnh abis. saket jiwa jek. tp bertahan gak sbb nk abis daa. makin hari makin serabut, tp cube berlagak setenang mngkin. haha. FAKE!

with ,

tkah

roses on my path

the path

that i choose somehow will reflect of everything

my appearance

my ignorance

and my existence

smg jalan yang ku pilih mewangi dalam iman

biar mekar di dada, di dasar hati yg paling dalam

tak terlihat dek mata kasar manusia

tapi dekat disisi Pencipta

harum dalam impian

utk sujud dan bertaubat

"....hidayah itu milik Allah..."

umpama kelopak mawar yg bertaburan di padang hijau

cantik, indah tp baunye terbatas kerana padang itu besar

hanya menusuk hidung buat yg menghampiri

truly yours,

need mom

lately, sy kerap terfikir dan saye sentiasa mencari2 jwpn tntg itu. selalu bertanya pd diri, ape salah saye. perlukah perkara lama diungkit kembali? mmg org kate lupakan sahaja. even my rumet pon selalu nasihatkan saye, satu hari nnt die akan sedar atas ape yg berlaku. saye hanya perlu bersabar dan yakin dgn rahmat Allah atas setiap ketentuanNya.

itulah yg sy sentiasa lakukan. bl terkenang peristiwa lmpau, saye akan geleng2 kepala. seolah2 hakikatnye saye tak nk peristiwa tu berlaku. dan kalo boley masa dijadikan sprt jarum jam, boley dipusing2 kebelakang, mahu shj saye undur ke masa lampau. spy saye boley menjdi pengarah kepada kepada watak yg saye pernh lakokan suatu ktk dahulu. saye mahu tukar jalan cerita, dan tukar terus semua plot. dan pastinya skrg sy tak perlu mengingati ape2 yg berkaitan dgn mase lalu.

namun begitula kan erti sebuah pengalaman. kalo x alami, pasti tak rase. pahit manis kehidupan. bila kt hanya mendengar org bercerita tntg pengalaman hidup die, kt hanya mampu mengangguk shj. namun utk menyelami ke dasar hati, i can bet u wont ever try it!

dlm keadaan sebegini, i really need my mom.i need her as how she will lends me her shoulder, she will wipes my tears, she will gives me her warmth hug, she will consoles me with her idioms and advice, and the most important is, she will give me everything that i need, but definitely not everything that i want.

kalo sebelum ni, saye hanya bercerita pd mak tntg mslh study saye, tntng naek turun result saye, tntg rase cuak utk attend intervw, tntg rase takley tido n saket kepala bila nk final...saye terfikir, kali ini should i tell her about my feeling? rase saket hati pd sahabat yg tak fhm bahasa or org yg tikam belakang, or rase dianiayai...ataw rase bersalah pd org sekeliling. agak2 ape respond mak? mngkinkah mak akan mengulangi sln yg sama yg mak pernh tnye saye setiap kali mak jemput saye pulang dr tadika 17 tahun yg lalu?will she asks me these questions?

"apa salah saye pd mereka? atau adekah saye tlh mengambil brg org tanpa izin? atau adekah saye yg terlebih dahulu saketkan hati org? atau saye yg mengata2 kat org dulu? saye yang gaduh dahulu ke?"

mengingati sume ni buat saye tersenyum kembali. kenapa yer, mak tak tanye sln mcm ni

"sape yg marah kah? ape yang die ngata kat kah? die ambil ape dari kah? die kacau kah ker? die curi pensel kah eh?die....bla..bla..."

kenapa mak akan tnye adekah saye yg buat silap dahulu atau adekah saye yg memulakan dahulu. sebab saye tahu, mak xnk manjakan anak die dan mak xnk rase anak2 die sentiasa disebelahi atau sentiasa rase menang walaupon tersilap! mak nak anak die sedar bahawa menyakiti hati org len, mengambil brg org len, mengejek org len serta membenci org len tanpa sebab yg kukuh adalah perkara yg mak dan ayah tak suka. dan xnk anak2 die buat semua tu. sbb tula mak akan pastikan dan clear cut dulu suasana.

mak xdidik anak2 die dgn manjakan mereka. dan mak sekali-kali x pernh manjakan anak2 die walaupon mak ade 2 org je anak yg jarak umur antara mereka 9 tahun! sebaliknya mak didik anak2 die macam 'kem askar' dan 'latihan ketenteraan'. mak didik anak2 die spy kenal Allah, hormati org tua, mak bising bila tgk bilik anak2 die x kemas, mak merepek tgk anak2 die jemur baju x ikut susunan. mak bising tgk anak2 die masak tp kotorkan dapur. mak tunjuk muka x puas hati bila tgk anak2 die buat relax tanpa kemas beg even mlm tu dah nak bek bas pg belajar. dan mak bg duit belanja sikit saje utk g sekolah sbb mak nak anak2 die bawa bekal makanan yg mak masak pagi td. mak buat mcm2 bila tgk anak2 die buat silap. yg pasti ape yg mak buat tu mmg sume tak best utk anak2 die waktu tu!

tapi skrg, bila anak2 die dh besar, ape yg mak buat dulu tu sebenarnya adelah yg terbaik. latihan ketenteraan itulah yg buat anak2 mak jd manusia. buat anak2 mak kenal sape yg perlu dihormati. supaya anak2 mak tahu jage kebersihan, kekemasan dan yg penting buat anak2 mak tahu utk ambil sst brg milik org, keizinan tu penting walaupon hanya sebatang pensel harga 20 sen! hehehe

thanks mom...and i need u badly~

Family datang

keluarga adelah segalanya, tiada ganti walau dgn kekasih hati!

family dtg smlm. kaklong with her family n mak ayah. perasaan excited tunggu dieorg smpai tu dh berhari2 wujud. kalo dok zman sekolah dl, saye x rse sgt sbb every week mak dan ayah akan dtg melawat. rasenye tak pernh sekalipon hujung minggu saye dihabiskan tanpa mereka. hehehe. agaknye kalo la UTP dgn rumah saye mcm UTP ke ipoh, mest setiap minggu mak ayah sy dtg. kalah movie papadom kot sbb my parents make it into reality! kalo movie, setakat movie jela. hehehe

ok, mmg saye jenis family type even ppl used to say that i m a workaholic person. yela, myb kot care saye yg asek pentingkan project jek, sehingga org balik bercuti sy masih setia di UTP. haha. jgn la kate saye x rindu keluarga. tipu sgt la kan. cume, bila dlm keadaan tertentu, perasaan tu tak pyh la nk show off. biar setakat di hati shj. chewaaaah. *sengal*

tak lama pon my family dtg sini. sampai UTP around kol 11 lebey, ktorg lepak2 kat cfe v6, then around 3++ cmtu dieorg balik. rse tak puas, tp cukuplah sbg ubat sblm final. insyaAllah. owh, 1st tyme semalam mandikan Si Atiq. hehe. nsb bek x byk songeh bdk kecik tu...part yg paling best mse mula2 jumpa when he ran towards me...then give me a BIG hug. alalala...terasa lgi big hug die tu. lama plak tu. then i tnye die..

"Atiq rindu ucu eh..?"

die diam, tp still hug me..then i tnye die lagi with the same question..

lama tu bru die jwb...

" aaaaaah, indu ucu..."

cair saye tyme tu..ngeeee~

me, ina & atiq

my precious :)

balik tu my family pegi LUMUT dl, dierg ckp nk kenal tempat. xaci betol sbb saye dieorng x bawe lak. even sy dok sini nk dekat 5 tahun, tp br sekali pegi, tu pon sbb event convofair yg kena promote kat org. lps tu xdenye nk pegi dah. sbbnye my parents tak bg i kuar dr UTP, bukan sbb dierg x percaya kan saye, tp sbb dieorg tak percaya pd org yg pergi dgn saye! dieorg ckp kalo bdk2 muda bwe keta laju, bahaya. so, sbb saye xnk bg mak ayah susah hati kat umah.. saye tak kuar mane2 pon selama dok kat sini. Ipoh? haha, tak tahu la sampai 4 kali ke tak saye kuar spnjg almost 5 yrs kat sini. Sate Bota tak pernah makan lg. (jgn ckp x percaya eh....)

segalanya bg saye, restu mak ayah tu yg penting. if they said NO, maka NO lah. mungkin saye rugi sbb xdpt nk enjoy life as student mcm org len. enjoy dgn kawan2. its ok for me sbb saye yakin sgt2, some day...Allah will grant me with something unexpected! insyaAllah...

"Ayah, nnt ayah bawe kah pegi Lumut eh mase ayah dtg utk kah grad nnt...sbb kah x pernah pegi pon.."

that's what i asked my dad....my request...n my only request :)

Kau Yang Ku Sayang

Kau Yang Kusayang...

tajuk blog adelah tajuk lagu, nyanyian Dwen. antara lagu lama yg saye suke layan time study di awal pagi or lewat mlm (alone di waktu org tidur hehe).

dateline semua kerja makin dekat. bila byk perkara yg menyerabutkan kepala dtg utk mengusutkan fikiran, mula lah jiwa sensitif. so, mase ni la iman di dada memainkan peranan. mase ni la sabar menjadi benteng yg perlu diperkukuhkan. mase ni la, istigfar tu jgn lekang di bibir. dan mase ini lah Allah nk uji kemampuan hati kita.

takde kerja yg senang dlm hidup ni. nk senang, x pyh la nk belajar kan. nk senang, duduk rumah goyang kaki. di saat kt mahu semua jawapan wujud di depan mata or 'solution' utk setiap asgmt ade, huh, xyah la jd student. saye akui, saye pon mengharapkan mnde yg sama. sbb nye MALAS!

jgn kerana rase dan pemikiran sbgitu menjadikan org rase geram dgn tindakan kita. saya selalu ulang ayat ni, diam bukan bermakna kalah, tp diam kerana tak mahu memanjangkan & mengeruhkan keadaan. kdg2 org sebegini buat saya 'sakit'. kt semua sama. same2 bergelar student. tlg jgn ambil mudah atas usaha org len. bukan bermksd saye mahu kedekut. why should i? bukan ke berkongsi ilmu adelah lagi baek? saling tolong menolong. saye suke begitu. tp saye tak suke pd mereka yg hanya mahukan jalan mudah. maaf! dalam hidup ni, jgn terlalu selfish! same2 merasa susah dan same2 berusaha.

lagi satu, senario ini buat saye konfius smpai skrg. "pentingkan yg mane lgi penting dr yg penting". saye selalu cube meletakkan hirarki spy saye tahu yg mane yg saye perlu utamakan. study. itu mmglah. tp jika saye mementing study, tak bermakna saye ignore psl agama. psl ibadah sbb bg saye ibadah adelah tunjang segala2nya. tp jgn kerana niat kt utk beribadah, menjadikan org bertanggapan tak elok pd perbuatan kt tu. beribadah tak salah, menuntut ilmu tak salah. tapi, tgk la keadaan. ape yg perlu diutamakan. jgn kerana niat kt yg asalnya mahu menuntut ilmu utk beribadah, tp akhirnya menjadi perkara yg sebaliknya apabila ia menimbulkan ketidaksenangan dr sstgh pihak. Islam itu agama yg penuh dgn nilai2 murni yg baik. bila saye timbulkan perasaan tak puas hati saye terhdp sstgh golongan sahabat yg sebegini,

kakak saye dgn tenang menasihati saye,

"....belajar agama wajib, berjanjji juga wajib ditunaikan. tapi berjanji lebih utama sebab kita berjanji dgn org. menyusahkan org kerana kita...tak berdosa ker? org berilmu kalo tak beramal tiada guna. Berpelajaran tinggi tapi takde sensitiviti kemanusiaan, tiada tolak ansur, tiada guna juga. Selfish is a bad habit...."

secara jujur, saye suka berkawan dgn mereka yg saye rase punyai ilmu agama lebey dr saye. saye senang berada di kalangan mereka. boley kate mostly mereka ni byk join aktiviti. tp when it comes to meeting, kenapa ade sstgh yg boley cube utk balik awl sbb nk selesaikan kerja2 project yg kena submit and yg tgh queue dl list? walhal, mereka juga sibuk dgn aktiviti mereka. saya kagum dgn mereka. kerana bg saye org yg macam ni la tahu bagaimana nk meletakkan ape yg penting drpd yg penting. tp bg mereka yg terlalu pentingkan aktiviti sehingga kerja2 yg melibatkan kerja kumpulan dirasakn kurang sedikit pentingnya...golongan sebegini yg buat saye 'sakit'. tlg lah, kami sebenarnye cube utk bertoleransi dgn anda. cube sedaya upaya utk menyesuaikan mase dgn aktiviti anda. krn kami menghormati ape yg anda lakukan. tp jgnlah terlalu selfish dgn kami!

hehe...maaf, ape yg saye tulis di atas quite emo. tak emo jugak, tp saye nk mrk sedar. SEDAR sikit. tp takpe, saye sendiri sedar tahap mana level ilmu agama saye. maka, andai ade salah, saye mohon maaf. sesungguhnya bg Allah utk menentu setiap niat di hati.

saye masih bertahan kerana mereka yg saya sayang. emak, ayah dan kaklong yg saban hari bg saye semangat utk teruskn ape yg saye ade skrg. mereka2 yg tak pernh jemu bg nasihat dan tegur saye setiap salah silap saye. mereka yg sntiasa ade mendengar luahan saye setiap kali saye kecewa dgn kawan2 di sekeliling. dan mereka yg juga sedarkan saye jika sebnarnya saye yg tersilap dlm menilai kawan2 itu.

ktk itu, saye masih kecil...ayah dukung saya. dan emak serta kaklong di sisi. saat indah itu yg saye takkan lupa, yg buat saye tak kenal erti penat utk teruskan hajat mereka walaupon hakikatnya saye terlalu penat utk menghabiskan semester ini. kerana mereka dan kerana saye adelah si kecil yg didukung ingin sekali menjadi sprt si ayah yg sudah berjaya. ^__^

Ya Allah, berkatilah usaha dan cita2 ku...dan ampunkan dosa2ku serta kedua org tuaku. jua kaklongku...dan sahabat2 ku...kerana mereka adelah insan yg ak sayang...insyaAllah

Interviewku~

selesai lg satu interview. alhamdulillah. usaha saya seterusnya, saye serahkan kpd ketentuan Allah. berdoa dan yakin dgn setiap yg Dia ingin berikan kepada kita. itu yg saye selalu ingatkan pd hati walaupon ade ktk, terasa terlalu berat sbb kdg2 ape yg kt nk sgt2 tu, kt tak dpt. kecewa kan? sedey kan? tp Allah punya perancangan yg terbaik utk kita :)

Kadang2 Allah patahkan kita, utk selamatkan jiwa kita :)

cerita di sebalik intervw td? ttb nk share kat sini. mungkin berguna pd sape2..

td ade assessment yg mmg sln technical. saye bajet senang.cheewah, bajet kott. sekali soalan buat saye gigit jari. ade jugak la lompang2 air yg ditinggalkan. hehe. bukan IQ test pon. mmg technical. drawing ader 2 sln (autocad). otak dh lame x buat drawing, so tepu la sikit. punye la lama sikit nk translate bentuk ape yg die nk kan. 1 drawing sempat siap.1 lg half way. sumenye kerana nk pulun sln2 blkg yg byk kena calculate. aiseh...

then mse intevw tu plak, bos die yg berbangsa Jepun tu bley plak tertukar pointer ak. adeh, nsb bek yg cina tu betulkan. bila dieorg tgk pointer ak kan, dieorg relate dgn test ak jwb td.

"your pointer is very good, but why your test ....."

smbil menunjukkan kertas test tu kat ak. hahah

ak senyum, dalam hati....mula la nk back up diri sendiri kan. xnk ngaku x reti jawab. dlm hati....saye kutuk2 sln yg die bagi...dan dalam hati:

" sir, u give me only 30mins, but there so many part (A,B,C,D,E,F,G..) which some of them we used to learn during standard 1 (analogy ni) ..bla..bla"

(pls jgn tiru bab ni dan jgn la luahkan. biar setakat dlm hati shj. nnt silap ari bulan kena fire terus) hehe

dierong gelak2 je kat saya. pehal laa?? ade ke tnye sln conversion unit yg dok kat blkg buku bdk drjh satu tu. kalo yg beser guna tu tahu la jugak. ni yg tak pernh guna sepanjang hayat kott. sah2 la saye x jeling pon kat buku latihan zaman sekolah rendah dl. lesson learn, len kali before gi intervw tu prepare lah semua mnde ok? hehe

stil berkait psl pointer, tgk pointer saye tu, bos die yg Jepun tu tnye xnk sambung MASTER ke?hehe, saye tibai la jwb mcm En Win nasihatkan saye dl. cakap nk kerja cr experience dl spy research nnt akan lagi mantap dgn technical experience yg ko ade. pdhal, kalo dh start keja, sah2 la xnk bljar dah..hehe

lps tu, ni adelah kisah benar which used to happen to my friend (nama dirahsiakan :P ) len kali, jgn la sekali2 ltk mnde2 yg tak berkait ngn academic dlm folder cert tu. HANYA sijil dan transcript jek. kalo x, sekali dpt interviewer yg mata tajam mcm helang ni, even dh selip belakang sijil2 len...die nmpak. then die bg case study psl mnde tu. CONTOH: kawan saye td dpt case study psl kawen gara2 die letak sijil kursus kawen (even dh sembunyikan kat blkg2 page dah). Si interviewer tarik bwe kuar sijil tu, renung lama2 dan sekali die reka case study psl wedding planning. haaa, never expect kan sln mcm tu. but that's the reality. dunia interview ni mcm2. saye yg dgr hanya gelak2 shj bila member tu cite. tp, dlm gelak pon, sy tetap doakan yg terbaik utk member sy tu. mungkin sbb case study die len dr org, die yg terpilih. who noes kan?

disebabkan pegi interview td, maka saye telah ponteng kelas FACILITIES td. sem ni byk kenangan ponteng kls la. walaupon sblm ni tak pernh2 buat perangai. tp sesungguhnya, dlm byk2 intervw ni, saye tak tahu kat mane ALLAH nk letakkan saye. semestinya saye harapkan yg terbaik. tp kalo ALLAH takbgi tu, mknanya Dia ada la yg lagi baek utk kita. cume mase belum tiba. dan Dia tahu kt mampu hadapi dan terima sume ni. janji, kita meletakkan Dia di tempat plg tinggi yg kt boley gantungkan harapan.

meja study yg quite berselerak dgn notes Faci, tgh stdy balik sbb dh tertinggal 1 lcture. Y__Y

td, saye blank bl pk utk jwb sln intervw ni. dh lama saye left dunia bahas, almost 5 years. bakat loyar buruk yg sedia ade dh gone n makin berkurang scr jujurnya. ditambah lak dgn kemalasan saye utk bace isu semasa....bila saye blank tu, ttb saye teringat pd emel yg sy kirim tuk ssorg adek di Cairo. die ckp die blank nk exam. dalam emel tu..saye tulis...

"..jgn takut, put trust in ALLAH dgn sepenuh jiwa...tanpa berbelah bahagi.kalo blank, tgk langit yg tinggi tu...kosong gak....tp mcm2 yg turun dr situ...sumenye kuasa Allah. same goes to our mind. if we think they r blank, think of ALLAH. dgn izinnye, all amazed & wonderful ideas boley dihasilkan.insyaAllah :) ...

sy buat mnde yg same td. saye pndang langit biru yg cantik dan tinggi tu. dan saye cari kekuatan di situ. and alhamdulillah, it works!

p/s: mak call ckp makcik sy adiah handbag utk saye. waaa, katenye utk intevw. hehe. saye ni bukan jenis girlish sgt nk pakai mnde2 cmtu. tp bl org bg, alhamdulillah :)

diner with adekss

take 10 mins jap hehe...update blog smbil breakfast with macaroni n spagetti sos. ari2 breakfst ngn western je life saye ni. bse la bdk nk cepat siap tp nk kenyang. ok pe...but makan macaroni ni sgt muak, er, xlarat nk telan. normally i used to have spaggetti je for breakfst. xde la muak.seyes.best! aigoo, pnjg leher nk abiskn breakfst kali ni @_@

updating bout yesterday. Sadiq buat lawak ttb sms saye ajak dating! buang tebiat tol la adek sy sorang ni. dh ler kol 12 lebey mlm2 sms org cmtu. nsb bek sy tak tido lg. i tot he is mamaing, smsing me asking for dating. haha. yela, tgh intern kot skrg pastu ajak jumpa tgh mlm. kalo tempat intern belakang utp, boley terima lgi. ni intern kat PD. make sense ke situasi tu? :P

tp sbb die nk date jugak kan dgn kakak die yg dh nk grad ni, so we make it at last! with ayu, hanis n my rumet sekali kat Taman U. dh lame tak makan mcm ni. somehow i felt i missed sumeone yg jauh kat Perlis. T___T (x cukup korum ni) but, i have to accept the fact that he will be no longer with us. tp will always close in our thoughts and doa' :)

me and intan smpai lmbt sbb pg kedai printing poster FYP. tinggalkan poster kat situ then we rushed to that kedai makan. before tu saye dh sms SadiQ soh tlg orderkan in case we late. rumet nk kuew tiaw hailan n air tembikai while saye mcm bser la..." nasi puteh ngn tomyam ayam xde belacan!" without thinking much, i just tekan button SEND.

as we reached there, dner served. hehe. arigato. tp, ayu ngn hanis...

"akak, nape ckp nk tomyam xde belacan? org kedai tu pndg pelik je kat ktorg...."

"yela, nnt dierong letak, akak x ley makan.."

"tp, org tu kate tomyam mane ade belacan.." ayu x puas hati lgi...

"ade...."

"takde la kak" Sadiq tmbah..

"kat Tganu ade!"

"akaaaak, mst org tu gelak kat ayu ngn hanis sbb mintak tomyam xde belacan. dh la kami pompuan. dlm tomyam pon x tahu ade ape...hehe"

"sbb tu la ak soh korang yg order kan...hahah..sbb 'menu' kak tkah tu pelik sikit.."

Sadiq gelak. cheesss~

"...ooo, ko tak nk malu laa ni...soh ktorg yg malu.."

gaduh la bdk2 ni. saye sengih jek. hehe. hurm, as usual if sy x buat sst pelik, mcm xsah jek. cane la nk g makan kat hotel 5 bintang pasni. my husband sila cover muka eh :P

byk cerita yg disembangkan. seemed like kedai tu kami yg punyer. restoran jd kedai kopi. bsela bila 'siblings' met! sume mnde nk cerita. gossip betul la dak2 ni. haha. alahai, sudah besar nye adek2 kesayangan saye ni. i dun noe when i come for convo by this Oct, cane dah sorang2. jgn ckp ade nk kawen sudah. finish ur studies first dik! then br spend the rest with ur beloved~

owh yer, ayu ckp muka saye tembam skrg!

"akak, berat nek eh?.."

saye angguk jek.

"tgh bahagia la tu..dgn sape kak???"

style nk korek rahsia la dak2 ni.haha

i just smile..biar lah rahsia ape yg wujud dlm kepala otak mse tu. senyum sumbing dan bermakna. what did it mean? aku pon xtahu...hahaha

p/s: thnks Sadiq for dner! btw, bear tu nmpak comey dlm keta awk ^___^

poster submission n convo 08 back

4.30pm, jam jd saksi, i stepped out from room to submit the poster. alhamdulillah,it already submitted. forgot to bring paper clips, then end up used my cute pinky kepit kain yg termasuk dlm beg sekolah tu utk clip evaluation form n poster. hehehe....that's me!~

owh, yeay seems like i did have soo many time updating my blog now..kan kan? not really dude. act, i tgh stuck dgn analysis for my fyp. last part insyaAllah. last2 ni yg quite tough sikit. sbb result fluctuate. sabar2. maam ckp, dun wory, u can do it!!! :)

anyway, thanx Eva coz u gave me a CD for picts during convo 08. i m looking for it so so long time ago, after my external crash and have no source to get it back. even akmal nye external pon crash. so, dah Head PNP pn xdek, where else could i find it? asking him? huh, say sorry for that~

syukur2 byk2. but act, i did upload some of photos from my camera kat flickrs suatu mase dulu. but it just for family day kat sungai Siput. not the whole thingy. waaa, so sad maa, terbayang2 lagi sume gmbr2 yg dh gone esp mse event2 yg saye join jd faci. T___T

btw, if sape2 nk tgk gmbr2 family day convo 08 from my camera, u r welcomed to view my FB. haha, but since sy jd photographer, sgt2 la kureng my own photo. that's why this time i upload yg ade my picts jek. kes balas dendam tak sengaja nie :)

whenever i glanced tru these old picts, i jd senyum sorang2. tgk muka sorang2, even muka sendiri yg quite tak matured jek tyme tu. n for sure flashed back all memories again. again and again. yosh..they r so wonderful babe~

at the end of family day....

dlm hutan mane ntah..junggle trekking~

hehehe...

terjumpa gmbr candid ni..bukan sengaja posing mcm tu +__+

lots of love,

Atikah Saari <3

poster

once upon a time, there were a girl and her good friend, Fikri...they were...in the progress to make their dreams come true. both are totally tired with their efforts to make the best for that dreams. DREAMS? too many constraints to face before everything SETTLE! there we start the story of yesterday, a day of memory hehe...

ops, jgn silap fhm dow, dreams ni bukan nk kawen ke ape. tp nk print poster final year project! hehe. alhamdulillah, x sangka sampai jugak saye ke stage ni. before ni setakat usya senior2 dok sibuk2 dgn poster. now, its my turn babe. ;)

a day of memory? of cos when tikah did something, there will be another story pop-up lps tu. theehehe. alkisahnye, me & fikri pg kedai printing poster kat Taman U, Sri Iskandar. tak pernah terpikir yg poster saye dok buat tu tersalah size. aigoo. sampai2 jek, lps abg tu check utk print, tiba-tiba...

" Dik, poster adik ni size A0. awk nk print size ni ker? bukan size A1 ker?"

saye..."erk, size A0? besar mane tu bang?"

"2 kali A1..."

saye, muka kerut kening, " mak aihh, bila lak saye buat size besar tu?salah size ke bang?"

boley la saye tnye abg tu pdhal tu poster saye.hehehe

"aaah, silap ni. abg kena fix ke size A1 la. tp ade la yang akan berubah nnt. awk nk edit?"

saye.."edit lagi?adei..xkan nk dtg esok lak. malas la abang huhuh"

tp dlm hati gle2 x puas hati n cuak sbb sure2 la abis kena edit semula poster tu. :(

"..erm, takpe, awk edit kat sini. takpe..."

baik gle abg tu. org dtg kedai nk print jek, saye g kedai siap buat edit poster jd baru.hahaha.

so, terkulat2 la saye mengedit poster tu. size font kena ubah, ayat kena buang. patutla bg saye size 36 tu just nice n size 28 tu kecik gle. dh poster saye size A0. pelik dari org! mse tgh edit2 tu..ttb ade la suara2 x best dgr...

"eh, boley plak die buat poster kat sini?edit2 poster..."

"kenapa die edit kat sini?"

"boley eh?"

dlm hati, eii, diamla. dh nampak saye tgh edit tu. mstlah boley. mestilah abg tu bagi. xkan lew saye nk buat tanpa izin tuan kedai. panas2. hehe. pelik eh? kalo dgn tikah mmg tak kan pelik nye. sbb die sendiri mmg akan sentiasa buat mnde ler dr org!

lps siap2 edit, akhirnye, saye print la poster tu. cheewah, happy gle muka. kedai tu menarik, byk mnde2 yg saye suke sbb brg2 yg ade adelah utk buat model. utk painting, utk architecture. owh, sy mmg suke gle2 mnde2 cmtu. hajatnye nk je beli mnde2 kecik tu tp pk2 cam xde mase jek nk layan keinginan buat mnde2 menarik. dah la saye tak melukis. kali terakhir mse zaman foundation when i made a drawing yg saye rse cun gle (perasan hehe) tp dh bg kat org. drawing tu amik mse 1 year nk siap. fuuh~

tiba2 lagi sekali, terdengar suara abg tu..

"eh, poster sape ni tgh print?"

sume tak ngaku. saye saje2 je intai. tapi...eh, tu dr my pendirve!

"bang, saye tak nk slide tu. nk slide 1 jek!!!! nape abg print?"

hehe, saye buat kecoh lagi kat kedai tu. dan abg tu dgn muka bersalah...

"owh, ye ker? aah, abg lupa...awk nk 1 je kan...xpe2..."

sian abg tu. lps2 satu2 saye merugikan die. jgn la dlm hati die marah2kn saye. heheh. act, dlm pendrive saye ade 2 slide. satu yg saye pnyer, satu lg conth. woah, rugi la abg tu dpt customer cam saye byk2. dh le satu poster siap print cost RM26 (excluding balut2 sume). mahal tuh! sian sian...

hehe, that's me. ade2 jek mnde yg akan sengalberlaku. pernah bace novel Rebecca and The SunnyBrook Farm? haa, kalo bace buku tu, u will noe how i am. lebey kurang ler perangai tu....^___^

really x puas hati if x beli mnde2 cumey dr kedai tu. maka, saye pon beli la 6 btg kayu nipis warne warni (akak kedai ckp org buat model pagar). suke2...nk buat ape? anything can buat. tp saye nk bg kat org act. tp nk bg satu jek. nk bg kat sorang bdk yg pg PD tinggalkan saye. maaf dik, kaler itam xde! hehe. balik la cepat, saye busan awk xde!!!!! heehee.

itu kayu2 yg comey saye beli dr kedai tu...blkg bed saye tu adelah poster yg dh siap diprint..(sile carik di belakang bed, nmpk sikit je header dier, sengaja tunjuk sikit2 jek muahaha)

budak tu pergi tinggalkan 1 buku kat saye. act, buku kawan die. psl kisah sahabat Rasulullah. mlm before bdk tu pegi, die jd story teller kat saye before saye tido. bru je nk tarik selimut, bdk tu ketuk pintu bilik.

dgn muka sengih2, die dtg, "..akak rindu saye cari saya td?"

saye buat muka.."bila nk citer?"

maka kami pon dok sembang depan pintu bilik, dan bdk itu bercerita psl Anas b Malik dan Sa'id bin 'Amir al-Jumahiy. rumet bising2 sbb ckp saye duduk atas kain lap kaki dgn berselimut satu bdn. hehe...ala rumet, bila lagi nk buat. pdhal same jek, nk masuk bilik kt sapu kaki kat kain ni jugak.ngeh2~

there's one thing yg saye suke sgt2 dr buku tu dr kisah Anas b Malik al-Anshori;

pesan Rasulullah buat Anas:

"Wahai anakku, jika kamu mampu pada waktu pagi dan petang tidak berdendam dengan sesiapa, maka lakukanlah. Wahai anakku itu merupakan sunnahku. Sesiapa yang menghidupkan sunnahku sesungguhnya dia akan bersamaku di syurga. Wahai anakku, jika kamu pulang bertemu keluargamu, berikanlah salam kepada mereka. Kerana ia akan membawa keberkatan kepadamu juga keluargamu..."

owh, saye tersentuh. maka saye cuba utk tidak berdendam dgn sape2 walaupon org tu pnh sakitkan hati saye, pernah ambil brg kesayangan saye, pernh buat saye menangis berhari2, pernh mengecewakan saye dan pernah buat saye ilang arah seketika. saye ingat pesan bdk itu,

" anda bijak, jauhi zina..." ^__^V

zina tu bukan sekadar buat terkutuk tu, tp zina hati yg melaghakan..nauzubillah. dan satu lgi yg buat hati saye tenang adelah dgn ayat ini..

"ketahuilah! sesungguhnya wali-wali Allah, tidak ada kebimbangan (dari sesuatu yg tidak baik) terhadap mereka, dan mereka tidak pula berdukacita. (Wali-wali Allahitu ialah) orang2 yang beriman serta mereka pula sentiasa bertakwa."

Maksud Al-Quran

current life

i am happy...i am sad...

totally down then i deactivate my FB

cont life as usual

with unusual feeling bloating here & there

but thanks to ALLAH for choosing me

to accept all of these ujian

He noes that i can endure it till the end

even sometimes i am so doubtful

with my own 'jiwa'

Jgn patah hati, leburkan diri...

ujian Allah sebaik2 tarbiyah

be strong!

"...but at the end...with kesabaran...insyaAllah ada kejayaan yg menunggu. itulah antara cabaran utk menjadi dewasa....when u get older, lg byk cubaan yg akan dihadapi..setengah tu kita terima dgn redha...always believe that semua benda yg berlaku ada hikmah & jgn sesekali buruk sangka pd Allah..."

~Mak Ana, Riyadh, Saudi Arabia~

bila tkah jd VOLCANO

haa, niat asal nk study..tp bila ak tgk gmbr2 manusia2 tutt, ak rse cam nk luah kat blog jek. hehe..org ckp ak ni jenis pendam, mmg pon ataw lebih tepat lg jenis gunung berapi pendam. sekali ak kuarkan lahar timah merah panas ngalir, abis sume org jd abu. so, ak bg warning awl2 jgn men2 ngn ak.

semalam ak rse ak jumpa manusia tu. ak rase je la sbb ak x ingat sgt muka. perasaan jumpa die? ak rse bengang walapon gunung berapi ak tu act dh lama daa tak meletup. selama ni die just melepaskan abu2 je, konon bg petanda nk meletup. tp tak meletup2 jugak. sbb ape?? sbb ade sorang kawan bek ak bgtau,

"sebijak2 manusia adalah org yang boley mengawal marahnya..."

ak nak jd bijak, bukan dalam akademik je tp biarlah dr segi nafsu amarah pon. selama ni ak cool je walaupon ade ktk ak menangis jugak. of cos la nama lagi pompuan kan. keras cam kayu pon nangis jugak. tapi itu dulu la. lepas tu ak ok. ak rse bersyukur sgt dgn ape yg berlaku. sehingga saat skrg pon ak rase bersyukur, malah makin bertambah2 rase syukur tu. tapi itulah keadaan semalam apabila 4 mata bertemu menyebabkan kawah gunung berapi ak kembali nk menggelegak. aish, astagfirullah.

selama ni jugak, ak just dgr2 je org ckp sbb ak malas nk usya sendiri. sbb ak tahu kalo ak tgk sendiri, lagi parah ak marah org tu. kire level paling tinggi la kalo men racing bike tu. huh. tp pgi td, tergerak hati utk melihat dgn mata sendiri sbb ak rse skrg ni ak punya keyakinan utk tak terluka atau terguris. cume, rase marah mst la ader. and that's true. really2 ak rse mcm annoying, menyampah bukan setakat dkt manusia2 tu, tp pada org2 yg menyokong mereka. haa, kan dah kena tempias ni. baran jugak ak act. (ni perangai buruk ak). tp ak marah ni mestlah bersebab kan. bukan ak suke2 marah org. cam useless kalo tiba2 nk emo ke ape. hehe.

last2 ak end up tulis kat blog. hehe. sbb ak tak nak lahar panas ak ni terpecik kat sape2 bila ak g kelas arini. kang x pasal2 ade org kena ngn ak walaupon hakikatnye ak x pnh mrh pon.hehe. analogi sikit :P

yes, ak marah manusia tu. ak geram dgn mereka2. ak dah xnk jd terlalu baek dgn mereka even sbg kakak, kawan, senior atau teman. bg ak mereka same saje. ak just nk jd diri ak sendiri yg dh nk grad daa ni. ak tahu ak akan tetap jumpa lagi dgn mereka2 lpas ni. bertemu hanya sbg mengambil hati. tu janji ak pada diri ak. no more lebey2. nk lebey2 cari kembar ak yg dah rampas barang ak tu! tp apepon, ak tak benci mereka2. ak sekadar marah. MARAH shj. dan harap marah ni reda bape minit lepas ni sbb ak xnk hidup ngn sulky face. ak nk enjoy. enjoy babe!

tp ak ade satu ayat nk tulis kat sini...khas utk mereka2 itu:

u took mine, someday ppl will took yours...Allah Maha Adil... we will see next 10 years!~

moga Allah ampunkan dosa ak sbb marahkan mereka2 tu. ak marah sbb mereka kejam sgt T_T

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ok, bundle of thnksS from me to Belantara Jiwa for this award. dah lame dpt, but i have other thing to post & at the same time my time is too limited for my blog. so x dpt la nk menulis :(

Pass this award to 15 bloggers u've recently discovered & think r fanatic

1. Mina~ my dearie beloved friend yg lama dh x jumpeeee
2. Shahed housmate-darling yg i miss sgt2 +__+
3. May- my sweet little sister yg dok sblh bilik saye..katil kami dipisahkan oleh dinding jekks
4. Farahiyah- my old housemate yg dok level 5 skrg ni kat block J ke H ah??confius agie hehe
5. Farhana- jiran rumah sblh yg dh try pakai selendang :P
6. Kuyam- my sweet junior from Scipp
7. Che Yah- yg di nun di kerteh tgh intern
8. Cikin-housemate intern yg sgt2 baek hati orgnye...dan penyabar ngn perangai sayer ni..
9. Sifu Oyama- yg sudey bergaji x goyang kaki..sbb duit masuk bulan2 hehe
10. Sabri- my good friend of cos ^__^
11. KA- ex-SU3 convo secara x rasminye hehe
12. Faezah Ramli- deskmate f4 kat scipp, campus mate yg dah abis blaja right now :)
13. Fatin Nabila- my sweetie cutie friend from scipp...:)

ok, 13 je la...left 2 vacancies for ghost.ahaks :)

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so so lazy to officially let them noe, if any1 bumps here, and once u see ur name there...pick it up ok? hehe

~state 7 things about urself~

owh, my self???should i let others noe???or should i add it ~ more than 7??haha

1. dun eat belacan,seafoods, budu ....'alergik'!!!
2. dun like sweet foods....thus ppl used to call me as 'kelantan celup'...:(
3. dun like n dun want to see tempat sepah2 but sometimes, my room bersepah jugak when bizi gle2. bila bilik sepah, rase makin serabut n xley nk concentrate. need to make it back to normal 1st, br ley study hehe
4. x suke rely sms, x suke call org...use handphone just for alarm n call mak n kaklong :)
5. suke cepatkan mase bl tgk korea/anime/any muvie, let say if muvie or series tu 1 jam lebey, i will make it to 10 mins...how??i tgk 2/3 mins awal2, 2/3 mins tgh2 and 2/3 mins part akhir. if the series ade 16 episode, i will tgk yg mula2, then tgh and then akhir2. so abis laa 1 series korea...haha...*speeding aite?*
6. i m morning person...so u noe at wut time i sleep every nite...light off cam zaman skolah dl lew~
7. i love baggy jeans definitely...lg kembang(besar) kaki, lgi i suke wpon my mom akan bising soh i alter kat kedaiiii :(
8. i really dun now how to match my tudung with my baju. thus, i need PA or pakar perunding feshen everytime i nk bersiap pg mane2...hoho. if not, adela org pkai tudung kelabu or koko ngn baju merah ngn jeans baggy die g kelas :)
9. i love to keep silent everytime i face probs
10. i will jst send a simple hi to ppl that i m closed with, everytime i face probs. its like a sign that i'm trying to send tru sms...(bajet la org phm)....hehehe
11. abis daaa~

with love,

tikah (^__^)V

moment for me to cry

it is the moment when i start to cry....

that's wut i wrote at my fb's wall just now. felt so down, depressed and SAD!!! some people might know why i am: 'in this mode'. and some people might misjudge thinking i just broken-up with my bf. wutever lah. i dont want to explain details the reason WHY coz i think lets the dark part being there, laying there in my thought. i will keep it for myself :)

sometimes, i ask myself, my heart, my soul....(destined partner xde lg nk tnye hehe), why am i being this way? in this path. in this direction where me myself : doubful to where i am heading to. to south, to west..north or even kerak bumi! BLUR and BLANK. that's the emptiness creeping slowly to my heart. mula2 die serang otak, then moving down to hati, jantung. sometimes, i feel like i need somebody to hear my crazy thoughts, somebody to share my dreams, someone to share my pains, (joys tu xyah ckp la sbb sume org ade utk itu :) , someone that i can rely on. a friend but not a special person nor bf! nope, that's goes beyond my limitation. hehe. i wish i can have it. its just a friend. no need to be bestfriend. i hate the word bestfriend since i think sometimes a bestfriend can change to be a BADfriend!

p/s: mina, ko tak termasuk dlm soal ni, dun wory dear ;p

talking bout being in grief and despair ni, dh lame i left this word. i guess la coz i just realise it, selama ni i was in comfort zone. that's why i never rase nk nangis mcm skrg. kalu dl, mse zaman2 intern..selalu la jugak nangis2 ni. final year ni, last sem i did cry coz i felt like i was doing worst in my polymer's test 1. then, xde daa kot. tensen ngn fyp tu common sense la kot. even till today pon i do feel it. sem ni plak, right now, i am facing it. honestly, betol2 down. to whom i should tell? haa, nk cte kat kaklong, die busy ngn atiQ. of cos i understood her life now. so, keeping it urself sometimes can be a burden. makan dalam org kate. but what should i do? till...

i come to this...

"Sesungguhnya hanya di sisi Allah ilmu tentang hari kiamat;dan DIA yang menurunkan hujan, dan mengetahui apa yang ada dalam rahim. Dan tidak ada seorang pun yang dapat mengetahui (dengan pasti) apa yang akan dikerjakannya besok. Dan tidak ada seorang pun yang dapat mengetahui di bumi mana dia akan mati.Sungguh, Allah Maha Mengetahui, Maha Mengenal."

Surah Luqman: Ayat 34

ayat ni dalam maksudnya. I just leave to you guys on how u want to interpret and understand it, because lain org lain cara die menyesuaikan dgn keadaan dirinya. and as for me, i shouldn't let the sadness tu become a cancer, but turn it to be something else...a vitamin mayb :)

why???

because we will never know how our life will gonna be once we open our eyes tomorrow. it can be, a scar today change to the most beautiful part as everything happen tersimpan hikmah Allah. Allah Maha Mengetahui every single dot dot u face. thus, just trust Him, never give up to give a try and stay constant to where u r now. no turning back but, just move forward. insyaAllah. everything will be fine. aamin :)

just do it with SMILE

once again, i felt so dizzy tonight... editing stuff ni make me sick tol la. need to strain our eyes 24/7 for each sentences and words used. saket2. then try to think xnk bg ayat 'keling'. writing a technical report absolutely differ from pouring ur thoughts in a blog whereby u can happily twist ur sentences here and there (mcm i buat skrg ni). no disciplinary rules, no obligation involved. haha. that's why it is named as B.L.O.G (bley lepak or gempak) ^^V

hey, i dunno why starting from early morning i already thought bout this word. SMILE. SENYUM. then, i began to play with my imagination to relate with this simple word into my real life. haha. i love to see people smile even though i dun even noe their name! no need kot. ade ke before nk senyum kat sape, " miss/mr, ur name pliss?" haha. no nO NO. 3 big No there. but then, beware la jugak before u smile kat sape2 tu. it can be pros and sometimes can be cons. a girl smile to a boy. what might that boy think? nk ngurat ak eh or am i too handsome today? :P

well, that's about perasan la of cos. i wish i am not. giving a pure and sincere smile is the best thing for me. sampaikan mse interview keja aritu pon kena tegur..."you love to smile eh???" what did it mean? lesson learn: mse intervw jgn senyum suka2 hati. nnt ppl think u r not so so serius! danggg~

in Islam, senyum itu sedekah. bila senyum, dpt pahala. why ahh? logically when u smile to someone (without niat nak tackle ke ape), actually you r sending ur +ve aura to him/her. its a good practice ok. with that smile, u make others happy. theee theee ^______^. communication pon jd bagus bl senyum. n of cos, for me when i was in grief and despair, i like to see people smile. coz it seems to reduce my 'sadness' or 'despair' tu. what if, at that moment, u really down and ppl around u pon 2x5 jugak. feeling like world is turning down kan. lagi messy and lagi tak best!

i collect all those faces by gugeling. hee, there Lee Min Ho and Kim Bum among them. those people tu i mmg suke bl dieorg smile. sengih nmpak gigi, senyum or any word which can represent it verbally and physically. I CAN ALWAYS MAKE U SMILE. that's my wish. sape U??? anyone...no special ones. :)

just do it with smile <3

no idea

up to this point, i felt so lazy, crazy,dizzy and some sort of words that can suit me now. forgot i word: BUSY!! (yet still got time for this post :) . definitely, i wish to be at home again. there's no place like home, gle heaven. eventho i brought some notes+ref book for bajeting tuk study, huh, just like i am towing a big bundle of stone+rock then doing nothing. eh, eh, nope! at least i usya jugak notes2 tp level of concentration was badly unsatisfied lorh. how could i study at home?T_T

i saje2 snap gmbr ni tyme bosan2 study...i rse ade meaning n simbolik for this pict. tp otak xley nk tafsir skrg ^^V

i tau katil i tak cantik, xseempuk ur bed..tp cukuplah tuk buat i liat nk bangun~

well, just coming back for this battlefield atas dasar nk grad. sounds so poyo aite?i bet it so. dah tu, wut else? still x siap lg utk project facilities. edit sane, edit sini. i felt so exhausted. fyp esok kena jumpa maam, haa, tu scary.hehe. but i noe, she will alwys inspires me by saying,"...dun wory, there must be a way.." and that ayat 'keramat' tu jd my favorite phrase now.

ptg td, i got two phone call for job intervw. alhamdulillah. satu 20/03/10 and satu lg on 31/03/10. tp i think i will tolak salah satu sbb mls nk pegi. for tyme being, time totally such a dozen of GOLD!omg..br terasa mcm emas. hehe. so, i cant easily cmpak amik like that.

ni gmbr utk semangat sbb rse makin kureng nk stdy..aish...nk grad br nk bawe gmbr ni...:P

p/s: i met a nice guy today :)

secret admire

okey, finished watching BOF. dgn kadar kelajuan 10 minit per series.huhu, i think i m good enough for that speed limit.LolZ. well, if nk tgk smpai habis, for ages la i have to be a statue in front my lappy.no way. final sem, u wont have so much time like first yr student. ^^V

i wished that will be my last series for this entire sem, plis, i dun want to be addicted anymore. mcm hape jek, byk keja but with very low productionnye. efficiency mmg xley wat profit. at the end, bankrup!hehehe...owh yeah, even with that speeding & marathon series, i still can catch up the story line lorh. even, certain part mcm blur2 what so and so became this way. ahaaa...that's the 'consequent'nyer. btw, i like hero with his characteristic, believes in heroin beyond all doubts! that's impressed. :)

ok, that's the end of my fanatic series Boys Over Flower. back to real life, they are to hassle with slight changes here and there. especially in projects. Not FYP. Alhamdulillah. one, two, three and four projects in the row. i guest, this whole sem (final sem) mmg totally menghabiskan mase for projects. i try my best to make sure my feeling sem ni tak terjejas dgn hanya perkara remeh2 mcm member2 buat hal, being ignored, huh, what do i care. sometimes being selfish is the best way to make ur eyes deaf and eyes blind. and the best way to find new people. haha. jahatnye hidup. well, its ok. as long as u are in right side, then dont waste ur tears for all those thing! be strong always.

Ya Allah, kurniakan ak kekuatan..

kekuatan spy ak mampu pergi dan menjadi dewasa.

Aamin.

do u believe with the word 'secret admire', dont u? hurm, as far as i noe, it never exist for world. if u like that persons, just be friend with them. is that secret admire ni same dgn crush? asal ttb ak tertanya psl topik ni??? if u always keep watching that person afar, is that mean u are his/her secret admire? this word bothers me somehow. kaco org jek :P

BOF and my interpretation

Dear all,

it just like all of sudden when i feel like i want to share my thought about this 'series' here..ok, lately, i have been watching BOF, Boys over Flower after became fan for You're Beautiful previously. (kantoi sbb still having time to watch this kinda series.LOLz..hehe, it just halwa mata while having meal ok! :)

i noe ppl said both these series: best. fine.AGREE with the reason coz of their handsome actors and cute actresses. ayat lazim++skema. hurm, for me it can be one of the reason la, but the main thing here is how the hero really support his gf. ni cite BOF yer. i felt impressed bila tgk the way hero akan menyebelahi heroin in any situation. haha. if before this, i mcm x ksh whenever i watch the movies/series. i x peduli pon psl tu. asalkan hero handsome anf heroin sweet, so i layan. :P

yes, i admit mmg before ni pon jalan cerita lebey kurang, but somehow i felt this time plot seems quite different ( its not general plot coz of cos the story is about love!) that hero tu kaya, really kaya, falls for commoner yg mmg bagai langit dgn bumi. then he try to suit himself in the family. and in any case he appreciates that girl very much. talking about this, i still remember what my mom told me (zaman kecik2 lagi), cr ssorg yg betul2 appreciate kt, yg akan sentiasa menyebelahi kita and accept us the way we are. if we are clumsy and kekampungan, die still tak malu to bring us pg party besar2 (but at the same time kt tahu la xnk bgi malukan die), a person who noe how to differentiate between love and respect!

whenever i watch this series, sy terpk, ade ke a nice guy mcm ni? for the tyme being i hardly find ppl mcm ni. either they are girls or boys. in movie, yup they may exist! but life is not a fairytale dude. and life is too cruel for a person yg sometimes naive like me! hehehe...then, 1 more yg saye suke, their friendship yg betul2 saya kagum. friends, they are the most precious thing in our life. but sometimes kawan makan kawan. if i did meet pon as friend ade jugak akhirnya backstab, ego, bestfriend yg mcm x support kwn sendiri or many more. adekah org sebegini kt layak panggil mereka sbg kawan, sahabat atau teman?

if, i do find this kind o person in life, sumpah hidup mati i wont let them go from my life. boys or girls coz i noe ppl mcm ni are like angels (ceh, bg analogi tahap dewa :P )

Meniti Mimpi

My dear blog,

how are u sweetie? hopefully u'r fine as i wish i can be here always to c ur smilling face. but it just a dream for it since life is getting busier than usual. sorry! lets update what i've being doing lately. haha.

1. in my unbalanced life for my studies & project -___-"
2. try to complete analysis for my FYP thus need to be 'creative' in my mind hehehe
3. start write-up for my FYP report (more to final report i guess)
4. handling facilities project (project 1). hopefully we can finish by the end of this week coz we do have 2nd project from Ir Shiraz!
5. follow up Corrosion as we will have 1st test this Wednesday @__@
6. OM-have asgmt to be submitted this monday by group.huh..what a relief~
7. tomorrow kena reseat Ability Test!waadaaaa...is this technical error by PET or my data was not key in properly on that day???
8. Shell Management Day: also tomorrow~ aihhh
9. submit my resume to any company.hehe. ni part plg ngeri dear :(
10. last but not least, doing some body fitness++ anime.hahaha

10 points..were they enough to justify why i need to stay up all the way now, weren't they? pastu gi kls ngn mata bengkak2 and sometimes in dunia sendiri. kdg2 x sedar org tnye ape.aigooo. lately, kdg2 tu smpai 3 to 4 subjects dlm satu mase and my mind mcm dah sway2 dah. ala2 cha cha style rancak. ^^V

nape sy ltk nasyid ni kat sini, cam xde kaitan ngn cte kat atas...TAPI, nasyid ini utk ssorg...

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